Made to Forget

I roll my eyes. “I’m fine. I don’t feel any different.”

He frowns. “Did something happen other than kissing while you were with Mara?” He asks.

Before I can answer there is a growl at the doorway. I turn my head to see Dimitri looking at the both of us angrily. “Get your hands off my mate Alexander.” He says.

I growl at Dimitri. “I am not your mate. You can’t control him or me.” I say getting up.

Dimitri looks at me with hurt in his eyes. “Yes we are mates.”

I cross my arms. “You can’t be mates with someone you have no feelings for. I don’t like you at all. In fact I hate you.” I say.

His face completely drops and I can tell my words cut him deep. Deep down I feel guilty and regret saying those words but on the surface I smile to see him like this. I walk past him without another word and head to the kitchen.


10. Chapter 9

Nick frowns. “She’s calling you to a bar?” He asks.


I’m tied to a chair so that way I can’t leave the house. I asked them to, although they didn’t like the idea. “You know you’ll have to be untied eventually.” Suz had said. I told her that someone will be with me if if that is the case making sure I don’t leave. My head is still pounding painfully but it’s dulled some. My vision has also cleared some so I can at least see everyone more clearly. My body is shaking and tugging against the rope but the rope holds.


I nod. “Yeah it’s not the first time.” i shudder at the memory. “Let’s just say she’s not straight or even loyal to whoever it that she was trying to impress.”


Dimitri growls his eyes darkening I look away from him not wanting to even look at him. I close my eyes and sigh. “I’m at her will. I can’t stop her or defend myself. She has made to where I can’t even be mad at her. I try because I know I should be. I want to be but she has commanded me not to be.”


I open my eyes. Charles is still reading the journals and Jason has joined. Nick sits next to me and picks up the journal he was reading. “That’s why we’re all trying to find useful information from these journals.” He starts reading again.


Suzannah is cleaning away and I know that me being tied up like this is bothering her. Everyone else other than Rory reads. Rory is actually taking care of pack problems for Nick while he helps me. It doesn’t make me feel special though. More like I’m taking his time away from more important matters involving his pack. My body shudders and my muscles lock for a couple minutes before my body relaxes again.


After what seem like a long time Charles gets up. “ i think I got something useful. Listen to this. ‘Ok so I have been with this creature for a while. He has shared much. The most interesting thing he shared is once one of his kind turns another they are at the beck and call of the “creator” until there so called baby fangs pop out and they grow their mature fangs. This usually takes about ten years and when the fangs do pop out it is quite painful. Only on the rarest occasion has a baby fanger ever had their mature fangs come in before the decade is over. It is almost impossible for a baby fanger to skip the baby fang stage almost immediately and gain their mature fangs. I myself am interested in learning more of these vampires. Maybe this one will spill the secret of how to kill them. I will write more once I have found out. ’.” He reads to us out loud.


I frown. “So I’m stuck being basically her slave for ten years?”


Charles nods. “But it also says there are cases in where the vampire gets their other fangs sooner. So it might be possible it could happen at any time anywhere. I’ll keep reading and see if I can find out how to kill a vampire.” He says and goes back to the journal.


I sigh. I close my eyes and try to ignore the pain as t intenses slightly. What is taking you so long sweetheart? You can’t resist this. You don’t want to resist. She says the last sentence a command. My brain fogs but i shake my head and keep fighting surprised I have held out for this long.  I can feel her frustration from here and I know she is getting impatient. I smile to myself.


Alex’s POV

My phone buzzes and I frown looking at it. My heart skips a beat as I see who it is from. It’s from my mom. I had finally texted her weeks ago asking how she was doing. My hand shakes as I open the messenger. I see four words that make my heart stop.


Mom: I am ok. You?


I look at it. I know it’s foolish to be so affected by the normal conversation but I haven’t talked to my mom in years. I hesitate before typing back to her.


Me: I am doing as well as I can considering. I have a job as a bodyguard and it pays well enough. I miss you alot mom. I wish i could come see you. I love you.


My finger hovers over the send button wondering if i should keep it short or keep it the way it is. Maybe I shouldn’t have texted her. What if she never answers? I shake my head. She answered my one question I don’t think she’ll not text back. I hit send and sigh placing my phone in my pocket and turning on the tv of my hotel.


I have been here for a while now. I don’t know how much longer I’m going to stay away. I feel bad for leaving it like i did but it’s for the best. Abigail should be mad at me. She should hate me instead of Dimitri. Hopefully doing what I did brought them together more. I sigh flipping through channels. My phone buzzes and starts ringing. I place the remote down and grab out my phone confused. I see who it is and answer. “Hello?”


“You need to come back Alex. We need and extra pair of eyes. We have four but we need a fifth. Abigail is stuck tied to a chair right now. Mara is trying to get her out of the house again. I can tell fighting Mara like this is taking a toll on Abigail.” Nick says through Abigails phone.


I sigh. “I told you I can’t come back. It’s better for abigail this way.”


I hear him growl on the other side of the phone. “So it’s better for her to think Dimitri is a cold hearted Dick who killed her sister in front of her and smiled? She was in the guest room for two weeks! She didn’t talk, eat, drink, sleep. She stayed on that bed. You should have seen her face as she was choking Dimitri. She was out for blood. His. If we don’t do something fast it could be all of us. Her killing herself. We need to do something. You need to get your ass here and do something!” He says angrily.


I’m silent in shock of all of this. “She thinks her sister is dead and that Dimitri killed her?” I ask not looking for a response already knowing the answer to the question.


“Just get your fucking ass here!” he says and I hear the click as he ends the call. I frown and grab my keys heading out the door.


Abigail’s POV

I groan as the pain intenses. Mara keeps trying to order me to stop resisting. I’m starting to get weak but I still continue to fight against her. I had seen Nick get up and grab my phone. I was about to ask what he was doing but nothing came out. He had walked in his office and I heard  him talking but couldn’t make out his words because it was muffled by the door. He sounded angry though.


He comes back and sets my phone down.He looks at me for a brief moment before sitting down and going back to reading a journal. I frown but wince as my head pounds. It feels like my brain pounding against my skull. Not pleasant at all. I close my eyes and focus on fighting against Mara’s commands. We’ve got this Abigail. We only need to do this for possibly a couple more weeks.


That makes me feel so much better! I snap sarcastically rolling my eyes.

Come on find the positive in this.


Ok. I positive I am going to strange you if you keep being optimistic about this. I tell her angrily.


Fine. Jeez. Might as well be on that thing you humans have. What’s it called again. I saw it in your memories. Oh yeah pre menstrual cycle.


At least I didn’t have to deal with having a whole month worth of pain wanting to fuck anything that moves. I counter.


……..You got me there….


I don’t her her anymore and sigh. My headache has gone down and I feel a little stronger than before which improves my mood slightly. Well it was improved until I heard the front door open and foolishly opened my eyes. My heart aches as I see Alex step in and look around. His eyes meet mine and he frowns looking at me. He looks around taking in everything.


Dimitri growl and gets up. Alex puts up his hands. “I am only here to help. Once that’s done I’ll leave.” He says. He walks up and grabs a journal from the large stak on the table. “Have you guys got anything that will at least help some yet?” He asks.


Charles nods and repeats what he read to us. Alex listens and nods. “Ok so there is a possibility that she will be one of the rare ones who shed their baby fangs early.” He says making sure he had it right.


Charles nods and goes back to reading. Alex opens the journal in his hand and starts reading. Suzannah walks over to me and places a hand on my shoulder leaning close to my ear. “I know that you are probably mad at Alex for leaving like he did. If you want I can punch him for ya?” She whispers with a smile.


I shake my head. “He thinks it’s better for his job this way. I’ll leave him be. I think it’s better I be alone for awhile anyway. I’m not good at this whole relationship thing.” I say.


She shrugs. “I’ll punch him for you. I might actually enjoy it anyway.”


Jason stops reading and looks up. “Why does the atmosphere here seem tenser when Alex walked in?” He asks.


I sigh looking at Jason. “There was something that happened and most disagree with what he did. Most of us dislike how he handled it as well.” I say.


Jason knows I’m not wanting to talk about it and doesn’t question me any further. I see Alex frown as he reads and I know it’s not because of the journal. I lean my head against the chair and close my eyes. I must have fallen asleep because when I open my eyes again it’s dark outside and there’s only one person left in the living room. I blink trying to see who it is only seeing an outline.


“You awake?” I hear Alex ask.


I groan. Great he has to be here. He moves closer to me on the couch. “You ok?” I can hear the concern in his voice.


I roll my eyes. “I’m just doing swell Alexander.” My voice is dripping heavily with sarcasm. “I’m tied to a chair so that way I don’t go to the bitch Mara. Who I thought was my mate kills my sister in front of me and smiles. I kiss a guy who kissed me first. He leaves telling me the kiss was mistake and I don’t see him til now. I’m in pain all of the way. But yes I am ok.” I say i sigh wishing I could rub my forehead. “Just go to sleep. Leave me alone. I’m surprised you actually came being you ran with your tail between your legs afraid like a scared little pup.”


He growls and I can tell he’s offended by my words. “I would be careful what you say. You are the one tied up not I.” He says.


I glare at him. “What you going to do? Hurt me? You succeeded already. I am hurting. I’m confused and hurting because of you. Next time go find someone else to kiss and then drop like a fucking rug. Mess with someone else’s feelings. Leave my already mixed up ones to begin with alone. I don’t need anymore heartache.” I say I wipe my face on my shoulders as a few stray tears fall down my cheek.


Alex turns on a light and looks at me with a frown. “Are you crying?” He asks.


I growl. “No I’m sweating. Leave me the fuck alone god damn it!” I say my voice cracking giving me away. I curse at myself as more tears fall.


Alex reaches toward me. His thumb brushes away my tears. “I’m sorry Abigail. I never meant to cause you more pain. I shouldn’t have kissed you in the first place. You need to understand that bodyguards can’t be in a relationship with their customer. It comprises the safety of the customer for them to get close. You also need to understand that Dimitri did not kill your sister. She is very much alive. What condition? I have no clue. What you saw? That was Mara playing with your memories. It’s a fake memory. Can you say exactly when it happened? How it happen?”


I move my face away from him and think. I frown. I look at him. “No all I know is that  he did and he smiled at me so cruelly as he did it.” I admit.


Alex nods. “I think you would remember exactly how and when it happened if it actually did.” He says. His phone buzzes and he takes it out. He looks up at me and smiles. “Because of what you said that night about me being a coward not talking to my mom I sent her a text. She responded today. Me and her are actually talking now.”


I smile softly remembering that. I also told him to stop being jealous. I frown and shake my head. I look at him. “So she’s ok?” I ask.


He nods. “She hasn’t said much but I know that I have another brother now. He’s two. My mom named him Luke. He looks a lot like me.” He smiles and I see pain flash through his eyes. “He turned two about a month ago.”


I nod. “That’s good. At least now you know.” I say.


I feel my anger slip and I’m left feeling nothing. Not sad or angry just numb. I sigh my headache goes away and I feel like myself. Well I am guessing like myself. I pull at the strings as hard as I can and they snap. Alex looks at me shocked and goes to stop me. I pull again and snap the other before rubbing my wrists. I bend down and Alex grabs my wrists. “Come on fight it Abigail.”


I raise an eyebrow at him. “There’s nothing to fight. My headaches gone and I don’t feel like going to that dumb ass bar now let go.”


He hesitates. I roll me eyes. “I’m the one who told them to tie me up. They didn’t agree with it but I wanted to so there was less of a risk of me going to the bar. Now there’s no risk so I’m untying myself. Let go.” I say.


He sighs and lets go. I untie my legs and get up stretching. Alex watches me cautiously. I grab the chair and put it back at the dining room table before sitting down on the chair next to the couch and leaning back casually. Alex relaxes and lays down looking at me. “So you were in the room for two weeks?” He asks.


I frown. “Nick told you?”


He nods. I sigh. “Yeah I was. You would to if you thought your sister was dead and that the killer was still alive and breathing in the same house. I was crushed. It was too much.” I say running a hand through my hair.


“And now?” He asks.


I look at him. “Now? I don’t know. My heart is telling me your right. The rest of me is still screaming that it was real. That he’s a killer and I need to hate him because of it.” I look away. “Like I have said all of this is causing an inner battle. It’s exhausting enough without putting the mess of what everyone else feels and having them affect me too. It adds to the already big pile of confusion and pain.”

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