The Dealer

Calum Hood is a drug dealer. Jayde Mills is Calum's "friend". Jayde never realized how bad the drug thing was until she visited Calum in the city and he was high the whole time.


3. Chapter 3




4 WEEKS PREGNANT beginning of August


I was worried. I was worried about the fact that I was pregnant for one. I was also worried about who the babies father was and I was worried about telling my parents. I had never thought that I would be in this position. I never even thought that I would somehow end up pregnant but here I was. 

I was already touching my belly acting like something was there even though I knew that it was only a sack of cells and it wasn't an actual baby yet. I was still getting morning sickness every few days but my cravings were crazy. I was putting peanut butter on pickles and was dipping chips in ranch dressing. I had no idea what was going on with my body. 

I hadn't talk to Calum so I truly had no idea how he was feeling about this. It's a scary thing to go through but we weren't even dating. I got pregnant from a hook up. I knew that it happens sometimes but we were not being careful enough. I was also nervous because I got drunk and I wasn't sure if that was going to effect the baby in anyway because I was so careless. My doctor assured me that everything should be fine but you can never be sure. 

Some women at work knew that I was pregnant but I had no idea how I was going to tell my boss. I would eventually need to take a maternity leave but I was afraid to tell people. I was a little embarrassed to tell people with my baby daddy was. Most people knew who he was just by saying his name. 

I had already started searching for baby things. I wanted to be as prepared as possible. I knew that I was going to struggle. I was most likely going to be taking care of this baby on my own for most of the time and I needed to be prepared for that. I had already bee researching the benefits on breast feeding even though I had no idea if I would even be able to do it. The research said that some mother's haven't been able to do that. 

I had already picked out a few onesies and already decided that I would like to have a little girl. I wasn't sure if I would get it, but I would love to have a little girl. 

Emily was still very angry with me about all of this. I wasn't sure how she could be, it was a baby. How could you possibly be mad at a baby? And of course she was going to be the godmother of the baby. I tried to reach out to her to ask her how she was feeling but she ignored me. I didn't want to lose my best friend over this pregnancy but I couldn't choose between her and my child. For now on, my child will always come first. 


While Jayde was able to mentally prepare for this baby, Calum was struggling. He had no idea how to take care of a baby. He's never even held a baby in his life. He's never taken care of a baby for more than five minutes. He's never changed a diaper. What do you even feed babies? It was driving him crazy. 

Ashton could tell that something was bothering him so he offered him a beer that Calum declined and then Ashton really knew something was off. Calum never declined a beer. 

"Dude, what's going on?" Ashton asked sitting beside him on the couch. 

"Nothing." Ashton sighed. He knew that something was going on with him, he wasn't stupid. "It's just... I don't even know." Calum added. 

"Well start slow. What happened?" Ashton asked. 

"She's pregnant." Calum whispered and Ashton almost didn't hear him. "With my baby." Ashton's eyes widened at Calum's words. 

"What? Who?" 

"Jayde. Jayde is pregnant with my baby." Calum answered handing the ultrasound picture over to him. "That's mine." 

"How are you so sure about that?" Ashton asked. It was a logical question to ask. Women told people that she was pregnant with their kids all the time and half the time that wasn't true. Ashton had to make sure that Jayde wasn't trying to scam Calum out of any of him money. 

"She hasn't slept with anyone besides me. And the math adds up. We were together 4 weeks ago and she's 4 weeks pregnant." 

"It's still really early." Ashton commented and Calum nodded. Calum was scared to death. He had no idea what was going to happen. He made decent money selling drugs but not nearly enough to help support himself and a baby. He would never be able to support him, Jayde and the baby. "Anything can happen." 

"What do I do?" Calum questioned. "I don't have a job. I'm stupid. I'm pretty addicted to drugs." Calum had no plans anytime soon to stop selling drugs. It was how him and Ashton paid for food and other things that they needed or wanted. 

"You can find a job. Ton's of places are always looking. People are always looking for receptionists or waiters." Ashton tried to be understanding. He had no idea what Calum was going through but it looked like Calum was going to pass out any minute. Ashton was worried for Calum. Once this baby comes, everyone's lives are going to change. "Have you talked to Jayde about this? About how she's feeling? She's the one carrying the baby." 

"We haven't really talked. I have no idea what to say to her. She probably hates me anyway." 

"I'm sure she doesn't hate you but you need to talk to her. She probably thinks that she's in this alone and no girl should ever think that her babies father isn't going to be there." Ashton tried to talk to him and get through to him that this was going to be hard for both parties. 

"What if I don't want to be apart of the babes life?" Calum asked. "Would that make me the worst human known to man?" Ashton was a little thrown back by the question. He had no idea why Calum wouldn't want to be in this child's life. 

"I can't be friends with someone who doesn't take care of the child that they made." Ashton answered truthfully. "You made that child, Jayde didn't get herself pregnant. You and Jayde need to figure this out together. That child deserves an amazing life." Ashton said. He wasn't going to allow Calum to be a deadbeat. "Talk to Jayde." Was all he said before leaving the room. 


I took Ashton's advice and decided to talk to Jayde. I decided to take the train to her apartment and bring her some dinner and some flowers and talk to her about this. I was almost positive that she was freaking out just as much as I was. I had had pregnancy scares with women before but it was only because they wanted my money, but with Jayde it's different. She really pregnant and she hasn't asked for anything from me. 

"Cal." She smiled when she answered her door. "What are you doing here?" She asked letting me into her apartment. 

"I figured we should talk face to face." I commented. I was so afraid of saying the wrong thing and have her get mad at me. "About the um..." I looked down at her stomach that had no signs of life in it. But I saw the pictures, I knew it was there.

"About the baby?" She asked as we headed to the kitchen. 

"Yeah. I mean, we have options right?" I asked sitting down and she nodded. 

"Listen, I want to keep this baby. I know that this isn't the right time to have a baby but I would never be able to get an abortion and it would be far too hard to place the baby up for adoption. I don't expect you to just drop everything for me and this baby. I'm not asking for anything from you." 

"I want to be there I just... I'm so afraid." I had a messed up life. I had people after me because I was a drug dealer. I often got into fights. I had been shot at before. I had been stabbed and nearly died. I didn't want that life for a child. My child. "My life is surrounded by drugs and violence. I had people who will literally hunt me down and kill me. What if I'm alone with the baby when that happens?" I asked her and she looked panicked by my words. "I'm serious, Jay." 

"I know." She whispered. 

"I can't put our babies life at risk like that. Those people don't care about anything but drugs and making money. They will kill anyone who get's in their way and that includes you." I knew my words were scaring her. It was probably changing her mind on a lot of things. Jayde deserved more than me. That was a fact. She deserved someone who would be able to support her and this baby and sadly that person wasn't me. "I cannot suppose you, me, and the baby." 

"I'm not asking for you to support us financially. Just be here for us. At least be here for the baby. It deserves to have two parents." She was right, I knew she was but I could never picture myself being a father. I couldn't picture myself helping her through this pregnancy. I couldn't picture myself helping her through labor. I couldn't imagine myself cutting the cord off the baby. I couldn't imagine changing diapers and doing the midnight feedings. The only future I saw of myself was me selling drugs and doing drugs. 


I could tell how worried Calum was. I mean he nearly had a panic attack on my kitchen floor. I had gotten him to eat dinner and then I got him into bed and was rubbing his shirtless back with my nails and he talked about random things like how he thinks the president doesn't actually live in the White House. 

"Like Trump or every president?" I questioned softly. 

"Every president." He answered. I chuckled a little. 

"Why do you think that?" I asked playing with his hair in my other hand. 

"Why why why would they give out the address to the president? Like don't they do tours and stuff? Like why would they do? That's so dangerous." He commented. 

"Well I'm sure people are searched before entering the building and they probably don't see the actually rooms that he lives in." I added my two cents. 

"Do you have any conspiracy theories?" He asked turning his head to look at me. 

"Of course." I smiled. "Like how the illuminati is real and they kill people to see how people will react. That's why Michael Jackson died. They drugged him. They made it seem like he drugged himself but that's not true." I said watching my nails on his back. "And Tupac is alive and he's hiding out somewhere." He laughed. 

"A lot of people believe that one." 

"Because it's true." I giggled. We stayed like that for a while before he eventually fell asleep and I went to shower. I wasn't sure how I was suppose to help Calum but I was so glad that he came to me before getting drunk or high. I wasn't going to ask Calum for anything. I'm not going to ask him to change for me and the baby. He was Calum. He was a drug addict and a dealer and there would be no way that I would be able to change that. 

I didn't have any idea on how to react about this. This was going to be the most difficult thing I've ever been through in my life so far and I was afraid that I was going to have to go through it alone since Emily wasn't talking to me. 

I hated not knowing what was going to happen and this was one of those times. I had no idea what was going to happen in 9 months. 

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