The Dealer

Calum Hood is a drug dealer. Jayde Mills is Calum's "friend". Jayde never realized how bad the drug thing was until she visited Calum in the city and he was high the whole time.


20. Chapter 20





Calum had gone away with Ashton to some festival so I was out shopping with Violet. Of course we hit up the baby store but then we headed to a few places for candles and clothes for me since my body was in that awkward stage after birth where the maternity clothes are too big but my regular jeans are too tight.

I was picking up stuff and humming to myself when Emily came and stood in front of me. I right away covered Violet's seat in the carriage with a blanket so that she couldn't get a glimpse of her. Calum and I had both agreed that we would keep her off of social media. Not because of Emily but because she didn't have a say in what we posted. Until she could give us the consent to post something, we weren't going to.

"Hi." Emily commented. 

"Hi." I wasn't really sure what to say to her. She hadn't talked to me in months and she didn't even know that I had given birth. 

"Congratulations. How come you didn't tell me when you gave birth?" 

"Didn't think you cared." 

"I don't." I looked at her dead in the eyes and steered the carriage in the opposite direction. Of course she followed. "You shouldn't be choosing a man over your best friend." 

"My best friend shouldn't make me choose over my baby's father and her." I commented as I picked something off the shelf. "He's an amazing father and you couldn't handle the fact that I had other friends besides you. You're too jealous and now you're mad that I'm happy with a infant. I don't need you. I made that clear when I gave birth without you." She had nothing else to say so again, I walked away. 

The hardest thing in the world was losing her. I knew that this really was the end. I couldn't choose between her and the father of my baby, she shouldn't make me. Of course Calum has done some fucked up things, but he has never done them to me. He had treated me like a queen. Besides that one time he called me a slut but everyone's a little slutty. 

I went to cashier to pay before leaving a quickly as I could. I no longer wanted to see her and didn't want her coming up to me asking more questions or telling me where I went wrong with my life. I wanted nothing to do with her. 

I drove home but then panicked because I had no idea how I was going to get the food into the house because I couldn't leave Violet in the car but I also didn't want to leave her in the apartment alone and it would be a bitch to carry her and the food. 

So I made the terrible decision to leave her in the apartment while I quickly ran back and forth with the baby monitor in hand to the car to get the food. 

By the time I got back to the apartment and had everything put away, she was wailing. She was pissed and hungry. I quickly made a bottle before picking her up and laying her in my arms to feed her while I made myself some lunch. 

Calum checked in with me once Violet was asleep and I was finally able to catch up on the laundry. We got into a fight about him not having any clean clothes before he left. Well now he can't say anything about his clothes not being clean. 

Once the laundry was done I was finally able to sit down on the couch and relax. I felt like I hadn't been able to do that in so long and I was so thankful that Violet was sleeping so that I could do it. 

No one prepared me for what life would be like after having a baby. So many people said that it was going to change everything and other's said that their lives didn't change much. I think I had a little of both. I got a slap to the face when I brought her home. I couldn't just send her to the nursery so that I could get a few hours of sleep. No, I actually had to take care of her now. Of course she's been home for over a month now but it's still hard to get used to. 

The hardest thing was getting over the fact that she was no longer in my stomach moving around. Sometimes I felt like I could still feel her moving around even though she wasn't in there. I talked to my doctor and she was it was normal but it was difficult for me to get over that. 

Calum was having a much easier time. It was easy for him to stay up during the night to feed her but I was exhausted. I could barely keep my eyes open past 8pm. I wasn't complaining. I loved being mom. I loved Violet. Some days were just harder than normal. We've had a few nights where she's awake screaming crying all night and there was nothing we could do to help. 

Sometimes I felt useless. Sometimes I felt like Calum was doing all the work while I was sitting back watching him calm her down because I couldn't do it myself. She favored Calum, we both knew that but sometimes I felt like I wasn't good enough. And maybe that was normal. Maybe mosts moms go through that. I wasn't sure. All I knew was that sometimes I felt like I wasn't there. Like it was all on Calum. 

Of course he told me that it was all in my head and he never felt like I was being lazy or making him do all the work. We took turns doing everything. I would feed and change a diaper while he was cooking and then we would switch off. We did have a good system going but eventually I would be going back to work and it would all be on him during the day. Poor Calum. 


Ashton had taken me to a two day festival and even though I was having tons of fun, I was missing my girls. We were on the drive back but I was getting anxious. I wanted to see them and I missed them more than anything. 

"Are you okay?" Ashton asked as he drove. 

"Miss my girls." I commented scrolling through all the pictures that Jayde sent me. "Violet is the greatest thing that ever happened to me." I said. 

"I know." He smiled. "You seem so much happier." He commented. "It's like you don't have any worries about where you're going to end up." 

"Because no matter where I end up, it's going to be where they are." I commented. "As long as Jayde will have me. I'll have her." I smiled. We had no plans to rush anything. We didn't even make it official that we were in a relationship. I think we were both afraid to call it that thinking that we would eventually break up. I liked where we were. 

"Are you gonna get married someday?" He asked. 

"Not sure. She's not really into the whole marriage thing which is fine. I'm perfectly fine just having more kids." I shrugged. I understood where she came from about the marriage thing. She didn't really want to be stuck somewhere. She didn't want to have to go through a divorce if we needed to and I understood. Going through that is difficult and I never wanted to make anything about her life hard. 

"So you'll just be two people who have kids?" He asked. 

"We're in a relationship, Ashton." 

"Oh." He seemed confused. 

"We're dating. Did you not know that?" I asked laughing. "Have been since Violet was born." 

"I did not know that. Congrats." He laughed. "Hope it all works out." Yeah me too. 


When Calum got home I jumped into his arms and kissed him. I missed him so much Since having Violet he has never left me for that long and I missed him terribly. 

"I missed you." I mumbled into his neck. He chuckled before setting me down and stepping into the apartment. Ashton followed behind him and set his things down too. "Hi, Ash." I smiled as Calum went and picked up Violet. "Did you guys have fun?" I questioned. 

For the next few hours we sat around and they told me stories of what they did or what they saw. Between all of the talking we all ate some lunch and fed Violet a few times. I told them all about my encounter with Emily. I couldn't really tell anyone else. 

As it got later Ashton decided that he would head home. Calum went off to shower once he left while I put away our clothes. Violet was awake making noise on the bed while I moved around the room. She would most likely feed within the next hour and then she would sleep for around 5 hours before she would wake up for another feeding. 

Calum came out of the bathroom dressed in just a pair of black boxers and a towel around his neck to catch the water that was dripping off his hair. I wish I could jump on him and take him right there against the wall. The doctor said we weren't allowed to have sex for another two or three weeks though. 

"I'm exhausted." He commented as he threw his dirty laundry into the hamper and laid down beside Violet. He closed his eyes and threw his arm over his eyes to block out the light. I smiled a little as he right away began to snore and I picked Violet up and brought her into the living room to play. 

When she got cranky I made her a bottle and sat in the rocking chair in her room and rocked her to sleep. Once she was asleep I headed into our bedroom and carefully got into bed beside's Calum who moved onto his stomach and had his arms up by his head. He looked peaceful. 

I ran my hands through his damp hair before cuddling into his side and falling asleep. I was right where I wanted to be.

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