Break On Me

"Maybe it's not about the happy ending.. Maybe it's about the story."

Sometimes it’s hard to accept what is, and it’s hard to go along with something even though you know you could do better.. But how come it’s so easy to slip up? So easy to say the wrong thing, use the wrong words, or even make the wrong moves? Sometimes we just all need to break.. in more ways than just mentally. I want you to know, that no matter what, I will always be here for you.. whether you like it or not, if you want me here or if you want me to live.. If you love me, or if you hate.. You can always break on me baby.

We loose ourselves in the things we love, we find ourselves there too..


2. Chapter 001


Never in my wildest dreams would I expected to have received a call from an Emergency Room saying that they needed me there quick, it was seriously a big deal. They didn’t tell me, they said they couldn’t take a break from the accident. And whatever that means.. scares me bad.
Harry was supposed to be home twenty minutes before the phone call came. Katie has been fussy, and only the sound of Harry singing to her can soothe her when she’s like this, she’s a little sick, only a fever though.
It was when I realized that Harry was there, and I didn’t know why, that I began to panic. I just grabbed my purse, the baby’s diaper bag and her and got into one of the many cars Harry has gained, but I couldn’t care less about that right now. I had to get to him before I die of worry.

As I rushed through the ER doors, people began to mumble and stare at me, recognizing me thanks to Harry’s great fame. I just rolled my eyes as my ears picked up on a few certain comments. I had no time for childish games, I had to find out what the hell was going on.
‘’Excuse me, sir, they called me up here, what the hell is wrong?’’ I say as I reach the counter, out of my breath. I tighten my grip on the car seat handle as I tried to calm myself, I didn’t want for Katie to get scared.
“Are you here for Harry Styles?’’ He asks, glancing away from his computer screen.
‘’Yes.’’ I nod rapidly as he stands up and motions for me to follow him, and without any hesitation, I do.
‘’Can you tell me what’s wrong? Please? Is he okay? We have a baby.. Please I can’t lose him.’’ My voice raises as I follow the guy through a few doors and finally down a hall way.
Out of nowhere I started to hear screaming and chaos. Something was bad… something was horrible right now, and I pray to God that Harry’s not part of it. But something in side of me keeps telling me he is.
“Ms. Matthews, I only know so much. We will have a family counselor and a doctor speak with you in just a moment, just please stay calm. Everything is going to be okay.’’ He assures me as he pushes open a door and motions for me to go in.
‘’Wait! How long will it take! Can I see him? Please!’’ I basically beg this man not to leave me clueless.
He just sighs as he shuts the door in my face. I sigh as I sit down in one of the few chairs in the small room. It wasn’t much too it. A small TV was mounted in the corner. There was a small coffee table with various magazines pilled on top of it along with a vase of tulips. There was a small vending machine and a water machine.
It would be better if Harry was here, or if I actually knew where the hell he was and what in the world is going on right now. I don’t know what to do anymore, so I just close my eyes and pray that this will turn out in a positive way, whatever ‘this’ is exactly.

Katie was wide awake, not what I needed right now. But thankfully Niall rushed up here as soon as I texted him and told him I was here for some reason I have yet to find out. Some would call me stupid for not crying like a baby or not freaking out like a psycho. But what they don’t know is that I am, on the inside. I’m shedding a few tears and nervous, but I’m torn up on the inside.
I hide my feelings, sometimes it’s not good, but others it’s what I have to do to be strong.
‘’It’s gonna be okay, Emmy. I promise.’’ Niall says as he gets Katie out of the car seat.
I watch closely as he carefully sits her in his lap to face him, his hands on her waist. She looks up at him and starts to blab. She knew who was holding her, that was one of her favorite people in the world.
Niall is a good friend, very good. He’s been here for us when we needed him the most. In fact, he’s Katie’s godfather which I think was the best idea I’ve had in a while. That’s right, I decided that, not Harry.
“I can’t believe that until I know what’s going on.’’ I mumble as I look down at my hands in my lap. I had picked all most all of my finger nail polish off, that’s how nervous and scared I was right now.
The door opened slowly, revealing a woman and a man, both young, maybe middle aged.
‘’Ms. Matthews, can we talk to you?’’ The man asks me with a light smile. That expression is never good, no matter what the situation.
“Yes, please. Where’s Harry at? Please.. I need to see him.’’ I say loudly as I stand up, prepared to do anything at the moment.
‘’We.. we can take you to see him in a few minutes, but as of now we really need to talk to you.’’ The woman says, that same light smile that was never any good.
‘’Emmy.. love, sit down and let them tell us, okay?’’ Niall insists as he grabs my hand, squeezing it tight. I sigh, knowing that I have to go along with this in order to see Harry. I sit down, keeping a hold of Niall’s hand. He’s one of my best friends, I need him more than ever right now.
They both take a seat on the other side of the small room.
‘’I’m Dr. Carter..’’ The man says, ‘’And this is Dr. Jackson. What happened to Harry is very serious. But don’t worry, he’s alive. However, when he was loaded into the ambulance, he was unconscious.. But he’s been awake for a few minutes now. Just like you, he had no clue what was going on, but we explained it to him..’’
‘’Harry was in a horrible car accident.’’ Dr. Jackson says.
My hand comes over my mouth as I stare at them, making sure I hear every word right. I gulp to myself, afraid and nervous.
‘’He was.. texting and driving. The police officers recovered the phone, he was in mid text.. We called you because of two things. One, you were on the papers to call if anything was to happen. And two, the message was going to be sent to you.’’ Dr. Carter tells me.
‘’But, we will tell you that he loves you, that’s what he was texting to you, and that’s what he just told us to tell you..’’ Dr. Jackson says with a light smile, only light.
‘’I need to see him, I have to.’’ I say as I let go of Niall’s hand and stand up. They both stand with me, sighing to each other as they exchange looks before turning their attention to me again.
‘’Alright, but let us explain this.. he’s not very good. That of course doesn’t mean he can’t recover, because he can. It will take some weeks, but we can get him back to normal.’’ He tells me before crossing the room and opening the door.
‘’I’ll stay with Katie.’’ Niall mumbles as I look down at him. I nod, biting my lip out of nervousness as I turn and follow them out of the room.

Finally, we get to a set of double doors. I felt like someone had dropped a ton of bricks on top of my chest. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t think, I could only stare and hope for the best.
“He will be moved to an ICU room later on.’’ Dr. Jackson says as she opens the door for me. I nod to her, just letting her know I cared enough to listen to what she said.
As I realized they weren’t going to come into the room with me, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as I stood in the doorway. The room smelled like lemons, cleaning supplies. I opened them to see the room had nothing but white walls, not very cheerful, but yet it is a hospital.
I step into the room, my heart beginning to beat again as I heard the beeping of the heart monitor, a sign that I still had him, he was still here.
‘’Harry?’’ I mumbled his name so soft, I could hardly hear it. I heard a few grunts come behind a curtain that closed in most of the room.
Carefully and quietly, I pull the curtain bag a little and see something I never, ever wanted to see in my life, not to him, this couldn’t happen to him. He was too good of a person, of a father, of a boyfriend.. for this to happen to him.
Most of Harry’s right side of his face was red and swollen, I could hardly see his closed eye. He looked dead, I won’t lie to you, but I knew he wasn’t. He wouldn’t leave me.. he promised.
One leg was out from under the cover and his foot was resting on a pillow, a leg brace on his left leg all the way from his mid-thigh to his toes. He had cuts and bruises all over his arms and neck, the only things I could really see right now.
I go over to the bed, careful not to disturb any of the medical equipment. I bite my lip as I carefully press my hand against his left cheek, trying to avoid him any more pain.
‘’Em.. Emmy.’’ He mumbles, his voice cracking, throat was probably dry as well as his mouth.
‘’Harry..’’ I whisper as he opens his eyes. I wanted to kiss him better, just wish that I could vanish all of his off of him and make him better. But only God can do that.
‘’I-I’m s-s-sorry.’’ He tries his best to speak, but I knew it was hard.
‘’Harry.. don’t apologize. You’re alive, that’s all that matters right now.’’ I say softly as I lean to his forehead and give him a soft, gentle kiss.
‘’Tell.. tell the-them I’m.. s-sorry.’’ Harry says with a small sigh leaving his mouth.
‘’What are you talking about? Who?’’ I furrow my eyebrows as I sit down on the edge of the bed beside him. I smile a little as he slowly lifts his hand and puts it in my lap. I put both of mine over his, it was cold and damp. It’s never cold, it’s always warm..
‘’The.. the people.. there… was a l-little boy.. Em.. I.. I.. al-almost killed.. him.’’ Harry says. He closes his eyes as he sighs a little.
‘’Katie! W-where’s my baby?’’ Harry asks, shifting to lean up.
‘’No, Harry, lay back down. She’s.. She’s with Niall.’’ I tell him, careful to watch and make sure he doesn’t try to move too much or too quick.
‘’Is.. is she here?’’ He asks, I could hear the pain in his voice, it was hard for him to speak.
‘’Yeah.. she is.’’ I nod lightly as I start to mess with his fingers, he always likes that so I thought I could cheer him up.
“I.. I wanna.. see.. see her.’’ He lightly says, closing his eyes as he releases a long exhale. He looked tired, he looked worn out and painful. I was beginning to worry about hurting him. Touching him too hard, or making him talk too much.

I know Harry will have to take a few weeks off from everything. I’ll have to make sure things go good at the office and make sure all of the enterprising deals and such are taken care of. I have to make sure the shipping is done and the retrieval is brought in. I have to make sure order the quantities of clothing items and make sure they get to the stores.
I have to do everything by myself. Take care of Katie, make sure she’s healthy and safe, protected and loved more than anything. It’s like the world just shifted. I’ve never felt so stressed out.
Harry needs this time, and I have to take responsibility while he’s out, whether I want to her or. I have to, I have no choices this time, none at all.

  Hope You Lovelys Like Its ~Angie :)  
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