The Diary of A Vampire

This is the Dairy of a 15-year-old vampire named Vladimira. She lives with her human family and she hates that she can't get the right food. She has never tasted human blood before and her mother and father are pushing her ever closer to trying some of them. But, of course, they don't know that she is a vampire.


67. Entry 67; Mon, Mar 6, 2017

Something weird is happening. I am losing the interests to read and write. I only want to play a game and be left alone. I also find myself growing more and more weary of life as thought I just maybe was not meant to live it all the way through and now I am just here unable to die but unable to continue happily. I wonder what might be going on but all I know is that lunch is a very slow crawl and I am alone. Or I feel alone. I mean I have the werewolf friend, yes. But she is moving and I just ... I... I don't really know what I should say. Maybe I am afraid in a way to speak to her. I have already pushed my human friends away from me. All it takes is a few words and I did it. This is also not very good because now it means I sit in the hall all alone with no one but the passing teacher to talk to. I just wish everything were different. I wish that I wasn't so sad anymore. I mean that one. I have no doubts that if I was happy again than life would have a meaning. Life would be beautiful once more. But I know that I can not change the past and I can not mess with time. If I did that well then, we would have a big conundrum on our hands. I can tell you this for a fact, though, I am only taking off the bracelet Wolfie made me when I go to sleep. She was one of my only friends and she is going. I am getting much better about pushing people away from me. I really should stop doing that because it only hurts me more. It hurts them as well but I only do it because I just want to be alone. Well, I might post again when the sun is up once more or I might not. I just don't know anymore. 

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