Let Me Love You

She let out disgusted noise and rolled her eyes at me, “You probably don't even understand what the concept of loving someone even is, Justin. You keep me locked here in your house and don't let me leave. You don't take me anywhere. You barely communicate with me and you expect me to like you?” I watched her sit up in bed and swing her legs over the side as she looked into my eyes, “You're fucking beautiful, Justin Bieber, but you're fucked in the head. This?” She motioned around the room, “This isn't the way to get me to love you, or even like you for that matter. I've slept next to you every single night for the last how many days and we both lay awake, holding our breaths because you aren't even trying.”

I had to interrupt her, “I didn't want you to feel like I was forcing myself on you.” The frown didn't leave my face as she continued speaking, to say I was confused by her what she said would be an understatement. She wanted me to try?


13. 08-02 - I still want you the way I always have

~Jusitn's Point Of View~


The bruising was nearly gone as I watched Krystal remove the bandage from around her torso. The Doctor said that her ribs should've healed by now and that she was able to remove the bandaging. She'd been needing the pain pills less and less every single day and she's starting to smile more. I know, this will never be easy for her to deal with, but it makes me feel good to know that as time goes on, she's slowly learning to stop holding onto the things that were done to her. Me, on the other hand, I can't let it go. I won't let it go until I know they're all dead for what they've done to her. She's more comfortable with me leaving the room now, so every chance I get, I meet with the Gang and we discuss strategies on how we're going to take them out. I hate keeping things from her, but I feel like I don't want her to know every detail. In fact, I don't want her to know anything until the mission is finished and she'll be able to sleep better at night knowing that they've all paid for the things they put her through.

"You're so beautiful, Baby," I couldn't help myself from speaking the thought aloud as I watched her check herself out in the full-length mirror, while I laid on the bed.

"I'm not back to where I was yet," She stated, not removing her eyes from her own reflection, "But I'll get there and you'll be proud to be seen with me again."

I stood from the bed and made my way behind her, wrapping my arms lightly around her waist and resting my chin on her shoulder, "You're still the most beautiful woman in the world to me. Even with your bandages and your bruises. No one will ever surpass your beauty."

A smile slowly made it's way across her lips as she met my gaze through the mirror, "You're just bias because you love me."

"Even when I didn't know I loved you, I still thought you were the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen," I offered her a cheesy smile and she linked her right hand with mine, intertwining our fingers.

"You're a very good liar, Babe," She chuckled and leaned back against me. I could feel her relax in my arms.

"I swear to you, I'm not lying," I whispered into her hair, placing soft kisses on the back of her shoulder.

"I really don't know what I'd do without you, Jay," She let out a sigh and tightened her grip on my hand, "I'm feeling better about things every single day and the only reason that's happening is because of you. I hope you know that."

"I just want you to see how perfect you are to me, no matter what, Baby," I held her gaze through the mirror, "If I could, I would make it so you could see yourself through my eyes for even 5 minutes. Maybe then you'd understand how I truly feel about you and what I see in you. You're perfect to me, regardless of this setback. I know that someday soon, you and I will be able to go back to being us and I'll never let anyone or anything come between that again. I promise you."

"I don't know what I ever did to deserve you, Babe, but I thank God for you every single day," She licked her lips, "I can't tell you how much it means to me that you're sticking this out with me. Especially since this has severely effected our sex life. The last thing I want is for you to be unhappy or unsatisfied because I can't give you what you need right now."

"Trust me, Princess, as much as I wanna be that close to you and as much as I want you, that's the last thing on my mind," I shook my head, "I love you and you being okay, both physically, mentally and emotionally is more important to me than anything. Yes, I want us to go back to having an amazing physical connection the way that leads us to having a more emotional and mental connection, but I have no problems waiting until you're ready and healed. We're more than that. What we have is more than just sex."

"I'm doing my best to work through my shit so I can be ready again and good enough to share that with you," She frowned slightly, not looking into my eyes.

"Stop worrying about that. You'll be ready when you're ready, Baby Girl. There's no need to rush. I'm not going anywhere," I reassured her. At this point in time, it's all that I could do. And I hate that I don't have some kind of magic wand that could heal her and make her forget everything that was done to her.

"Promise?" She finally met my gaze, a slight look of fear in her eyes.

I turned her around so that she was facing me and so that I could look directly into her eyes, "I promise you on everything. I'm never going anywhere and I will never look at you and see anything less than perfection. You mean the world to me and nothing will change that."

"I wish everyone in the world could see this side of you," She smiled warmly at me and tilted her head to the side, "Seriously, every single person that doesn't know this side to you is missing out because you are the most caring, compassionate, wonderful, Amazing, Perfect man I've ever known and I'm so thankful that you love me and let me in to see this side of you."

I could feel the blush enter my cheeks, "Well, we're equal then, because you're all of those things and more." She leaned up, covering my lips with her own and there was a hint of passion behind the kiss as she slowly sucked on my bottom lip and ran her tongue across it. It's been awhile since she's kissed me this way. Her right arm found it's way around my neck, pulling me closer to her as she continued her assault on my lips. My arms tightened around her waist and I gently pulled her as close to me as possible. I definitely couldn't help the fact that I got aroused with her being this close to me and her lips kissing mine the way they were. She smiled through the kiss when she noticed, causing me to pull away and let out a small laugh, "Sorry."

"Don't apologize," She shook her head, not dropping my gaze, "It makes me feel good to know that I can still turn you on even with the slightest touch. I was worried that you wouldn't want me anymore."

"You have no idea how badly I still want you, My love," I spoke quietly, but I was hoping she could see that the words coming out of my mouth were the furthest thing from lies, "Even just looking at you in certain things still turns me on and I have to fight the urge to rip your clothes off and remind myself of everything you've been through in the last 2 weeks."

I watched as her face suddenly got serious and a frown crossed her features, "I hope with everything that happened, nothing changed about my vagina. Like, I hope it doesn't feel different to you now."

"Well, Babe, I can almost guarantee that it won't and if it does happen to feel different, it doesn't matter because it's still you that I'll be making love to. It will still mean as much to me as it always has," I reached up, brushing her hair back out of her face and tucking it behind her ear.

"I wanna know if it's different," She was still frowning as she took my hand and lead me towards the bed, removing her pants and panties as quickly as possible with one arm.

"What? Baby, it's too soon," I wasn't sure what she was planning on doing or having me do, but I was nervous because I didn't want this to be a setback for her.

She crawled up on the bed and laid back on the pillows, waiting for me to follow her lead, "Come here," She patted the bed beside her.

"Uh, what? Baby, what are you doing?" I ran a hand through my hair, confused and nervous about this whole thing.

"I just want you to tell me if it feels different. Please?" Her eyes begged me to follow her orders. I didn't object, crawling onto the bed beside her, my clothes still completely intact.

"What, uh, do you want me to do?" I swallowed nervously.

"I wanna know if I feel different," She explained again, "You never really fingered me that much, so I don't think you'll be able to tell with your fingers. Will you please put your dick inside of me?"

As amazing as that sounded, I wasn't sure it was the greatest idea, "I dunno, Baby. Of course, I want you, but the last thing I wanna do is set you back because of that. A-And if I start, I dunno if I'll be able to stop."

"You don't have to stop, Daddy," She gave me a sexy smirk, and of course, she had to pull out the 'Daddy' card, knowing what it does to me, "I just wanna know if it feels different for you. Plus, the doctor cleared me and said I can go back to having sex whenever I'm comfortable now that my ribs are healed. I'm comfortable now and I wanna know. I wanna make sure that the way I feel hasn't changed. Please?"

I swear, this woman knows just how to drive me crazy. She has me wrapped so tightly around her finger that I'd give her anything she asked for. I nodded silently and whipped my t-shirt over my head as I stood up and quickly pushed my pants and boxers to the floor, stepping out of them before crawling onto the bed again. I knelt in front of her as she put her legs on either side of me and looked up at me expectantly.

"A-Are you sure this is what you want, Baby? I don't wanna ruin the progress we've made so far," I frowned, doing my best to ignore the fact that she was laying naked in front of me, her legs spread wide open and waiting for me to fill the space between them.

"I'm positive, Jay," She nodded and reached for me, pulling me down towards her. The tip of my manhood immediately hitting her clit and causing both of us to have a sharp intake of breath at the feeling. She was already soaking wet and I stared into her eyes as I slowly guided myself inside of her. Once I was inside of her completely, I let out the breath I'd been holding and looked deeply into her eyes.

"Is this okay? It doesn't hurt, does it?" I had to ask as I watched her bite her lip.

"It's fine, Daddy. It doesn't hurt," She shook her head and reached up with her good arm to let her fingers mingle in the tiny hairs at the nape of my neck. I waited another moment before slowly pulling out of her and then pushing myself back in, my eyes nearing rolling back in my head at the feeling of her. I couldn't help the moan the escaped from the back of my throat when she squeezed herself around me.

"Fuck, Baby," I said, breathlessly.

"Does it feel the same, Daddy?" Her voice, too, was just above a whisper.

"Yes," I nodded, not dropping her gaze, "You're still so tight and wet. It feels just as amazing as it always has, Princess. Maybe it's because I haven't been inside of you for a couple weeks, but it actually feels better than it ever has." She let out a small laugh.

"Then make love to me, Daddy," Her face grew serious and I could see the lust building in her eyes as she bit her lip. Without another word, I found the rhythm that I knew she loved and she was moaning in ecstasy as I hit every spot inside of her that drove her crazy. Her eyes closed involuntarily and I took this as a cue to kiss her beautiful lips. She returned the kiss with an amount of passion I didn't know was in her as she dug her nails into the skin on my back, forcing me deeper and deeper inside of her. I felt her walls start to clamp down around me and I knew she was close, so I picked up my speed and before I knew it, we were reaching our high's together while staring into each other's eyes and crashing back to earth together, never breaking the gaze we shared.

"I love you," I whispered, "I'm so in love with you. More than I ever even knew I could be. I've never loved any person on this earth the way I love you, Princess," I was still inside of her and I was holding my weight up on my elbows as I brushed her hair back and stared into her eyes, "I would die for you if you asked me to."

She frowned, "You're not ever allowed to die and leave me. Not even when we're old and wrinkly and gross. You're not allowed to die before me or anything. So don't get any bright ideas."

I couldn't help but chuckle at her, "Well, you're not allowed to leave me either, so I guess we'll have to be old, wrinkly and gross together and die in our sleep together."

"I'm holding you to that, Babe," She leaned up and pecked my lips softly.

"How are you feeling after what we just did?" I changed the subject because I wanted to make sure that us making love didn't set her back. I wanted it to help her move forward.

"Honestly, with us laying like this and you having just made love to me the way you did is making me feel more normal than I have since everything went down," She reached up to wipe away a bead of sweat that had formed on my forehead, "It feels good to know that I haven't changed, even after what happened to me and we can still be us this way. I was afraid things would be different if we made love again, but I'm glad to know that things are still the same. I think I need to start getting back to my normal life again because this helped immensely," She got a smirk on her face, "Justin Bieber, Sex Therapist to the damaged." We both laughed together at her joke.

"You're the only person I wanna give that therapy too, Baby Girl," I kissed her forehead, then moved down to her nose and chin.

"Good," She smiled up at me, "Cause I don't like to share. And I gotta admit, I missed us being this close. Two weeks is entirely too long for us to go without making love to each other."

"We've got all the time in the world, Sweetheart. I would've had no problem waiting if you weren't ready," I placed a soft kiss on her lips.

"I think I wanna get married," She spoke, refusing to look into my eyes, "And I think I wanna start a family. Ya know, have a baby."

"Are you sure you're ready for that, Babe?" I forced her to look into my eyes again.

"Yes," She nodded, "With everything that's happened to me, I've realized how short life really is and I don't wanna waste a second of it, because you never know when you're time is up. So, I want us to get married and I want us to have a baby and start a family."

I shrugged, knowing that no matter what, she was the woman I wanted all of it with, regardless of when it happened, "Okay. I'm with it if that's what you really want, Princess."

"It is," She nodded and stared into my eyes for a few moments before speaking again, "So, I'll stop taking my birth control then?"

It was more of a question, but I knew the answer she wanted to hear from me, "Yeah. You should stop taking it and I'll get you an engagement ring."

"Which one do you want first? The baby or the wedding?"

"I honestly don't have a preference, Babe. As long as we can start a family together and get married, it doesn't matter to me what order we do it in. I just want us to have healthy, happy babies and I want us to be happy and healthy and married."

She gave me a bright smile, one that was perfect and one that I hadn't seen for awhile. It let me know that she was on the track to getting back to happiness and where we were before. It gave me butterflies in my stomach and my heart felt like it swelled to an unbelievable level with love. My baby was finally starting to come back to me and we were making plans for our future. To say this is one of the happiest moments of my life, thus far, would be an understatement. I couldn't even put into words how happy it made me to know that she was strong enough to get through this. Everything that's happened to her, could've destroyed her, yet she was too strong. She was going to beat this and I was going to be beside her the entire time. No matter what it took.


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