The Guy

Have you heard of the sick twisted thing that is Bullying? Well, Ashton and his gang are no exception.Bullying a teenager that has a hard life as it is.but,is Ashton really a mean person or is he just scared to love someone?has no one ever taught him what love is?Will he find out what love is because of his victim?

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Reader discretion is advised.
There is self harm and starvation to self and suicidal thoughts in this book.if you are sensitive don't read.
There was a fair warning.
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22. chapter 21: Suicidal...

Jenna's (pov)

I went our shared room. Leading Ashton to the room we are sharing. Ash was still crying. I don't understand why he's still crying. It's just self harm. It's not that big of a deal... is it?

Ashton looked at me. His face wet with tears it broke my heart. It hurt to see him so hurt. He's amazing and cute... I don't know why he wastes his time on me. I'm worthless and I have nothing to live for. The only thing I have to live for is death and death only. That's all I have to do.

J: "Ash, why do you get so sad about my self harm?" I asked. He looked at me like as if the answer was obvious.

A: "Jenna because it's unhealthy and it could lead to me losing you forever. I can't live without you. You're my everything. You're the only one I have." He said his face dropping abit.

J: " but Ashton I need the blade. It's my only escape from the harshness of the real world."

A: "no I don't want you to do it. You don't need it... you have me."

Ashton got up. He went into my bag looking for something.

J: "what are you looking for?" He didn't answer. He stood quiet pulling his hand out of my bag.

He opened his hand and it revealed my Blade.

J: "Ash what are you doing with that?" I asked worried.

He once again stood quiet. He took the blade and brought it to his wrist.

J: "Ash, no don't do it! Please don't!" I said hoping he would put it down. He didn't though. He glided the blade into his wrist.

J: " ASH NO STOP!" I screamed.

A: "see Jenna you don't like if I do it but I'm suppose to let you." He said as blood came out of the deep cut.

J: "it's Differ-" I was cut short.

A: " No it's not. It's the same thing. I want you to stop. You don't need the blade you have me to help you. You have the rest of the guys too. Please try not to I love you and I don't wanna lose you."

J:" okay I'll try." I said to Ashton. It hurt so much to see him do that.

We went to the bathroom cleaning his wound and putting a bandaid on it.

A: "Jenna I have to tell you something."

J: "what's up?"

A: " you know why I don't wanna lose you either?"

J: "Why?" I'm confused as to where this convo is going.

A: " a few years ago... I tried to commit suicide. Obviously it didn't work... I'm still here. I thought I didn't try hard enough. I tried again and again and again and again and again it didn't work. I gave up hope on committing suicide. Then i met you. My dumbass decide to bully you for a stupid ass reason. Never in a million years did I think you would mean so much to me. Why am I telling you this... you might ask. Well I don't want you to commit suicide because if it didn't work for me maybe it's because it could possibly have been faith that wanted us to meet. So I could stop you and for you to stop me. I know it was hard for you to even consider being my friend. I was a douche bag. But here we are. I don't want to lose you."

J: " thank you.... for not succeeding at suicide. I love you." I said crying into his chest.

A: "I love you too."

J: "I love you the most." I said smiling fondly.

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