My Diary

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Hi I am winnie and this my life story it's is so filled with drama u want to know if it is true or false but i will have to tell you everything i write in this book it true (not the names tho they are all changed and made up sorry) Sit back and relax i hope u enjoy it as much as I am trying too.

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15. I'm crying

Dear Diary,

I like Lachlan but I just can't handle all the shit and rumour anymore I feel like people are talking about me and and I don't Like it.  forgive him every time i send something and do something and he tells his friends. I just can't handle drama and everything in this world I would cry and scream but its like no one hears me and I hurt everyday bc I feel like I have no to turn too. I try each day to think of reason why I am here today and i just keep getting more reason why I should be here and I like Marys I really I just can't handle when people blame everything on and make me feel like crap. everywhere I sit at lunch I feel like I dont belong bc No gets me and its like I have no one who cares about me or what I say, I try so hard not to hurt myself on purpose but its hard not to when everything and everyone in the world is saying who cares if you die no would. I dont get it what is wrong with I try to do go and not in trouble but I do and I dont know anymore I just dont know I give up trying to be someone Im not. I try to be something everyone wants to be around. I lost all my smartness from when i was in grade 2 I was the smartest person ever and I hate trying not to smart or happy to be smart bc I loved it and I love it when people say wow winy thats so good and mean it. I feel like People just say comments and do mean it I try so hard to to act like I care but I do I care what people think of me and I try not but its me I hate it when people say they hate me bc It hurts hearing and seeing it in comments and Im sorry I never treated Like you were to be treated and I am sorry Im not perfect I was happy with myself when 9 and ever since people have started saying winy you dont have to be so smart and I just couldnt handle it anymore so I stopped being me and started being someone else. I havet tried to be my old self again and when I do people say winy why are so quiet. But I can't help it if Its me and I love being quiet when no one is around and I love when people say I trust you and I know you will never hurt me but everytime someone says its a lie they care and they just would never tell me the truth and I dont like it I act like Im fine when people start to spread shit about me and act like it doesnt hurt and act like Im so cool nothing you say can hurt, but you know what It does a lot and what people do behind my back is even more now than it did before Im sorry if I hurt you or acted like im better than its not me its just the way I act when people wan me to be that why and I lost all of me and everything I used be and I miss I really do and It hurt more than you think to be someone Im not Its why I wanna move and start somewhere new and fresh because then I can be my old self and not be judge for it

Love winy

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