Cutting Hurts Babe

Book 1
Isabella used to be the most happiest girl ever until she started to get picked on by everybody about her self harming and having an eating disorder. Everybody makes fun of her so she starts to get bad depression and self harm. What happens when Harry, his friends, Isabella's friends, and her older sister try and help her. will it be too late?

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21. You again

Isabella Pov

When I look at Harry it just brings back all of the memories. I can’t put myself back in that same position again because if I do i’ll fall to hard and, nobody will catch me. I quickly made my way to my office, and shutting the door. I began thinking about why out of all photographers did they chose me to do a photo shoot with the boys. I was ok with the idea until, I seen Harry. I take a few breaths before I hear knocking at the door.


“Come in” I said annoyed


“Hey Belle” Elisa said


I turn my chair around to see what my boss wants.


“Elisa I can’t do this not today. I just can’t face him. Please don’t make me do this!” I said crying


“ I know Belle, how about this you can just sit in on the interview so you won’t have to talk to them. I’ll even sit in with you”


“Thanks Elis”


“No problem but promise me that you won’t cry anymore because I haven’t see you this emotional in 4 months”


“I can’t make any promises, but I will be happy right now”


“That’s totally fine with me” Elisa said back


After sitting with Elisa for a couple of minutes in silence, I get up to check my makeup and pull myself together. I look in the mirror and see my face. I began pulling out makeup wipes from my drawer, and cleaning certain areas before reapplying mascara and eyeliner. When I’m done I walk out of the office.


“Can we grab some coffee first?” I ask Elisa


“We’re already late belle, I can have my assistant to get us some Starbucks. How does that sound”


“Thanks for everything Elis”


“No problem, let’s get going now”


Me and Elisa walk down the hall making our way to the interview room. When we both turn the corner I hear the voice that i’ve been dreading. I start to panicking and breathing heavy. I feel light headed, and sick. Elis tries and calms me, but before I know it, I start freaking out and crying. I hear a raspy voice soothe me. I look up to see Harry and began shaking and crying harder.


“I know that I look a hot mess right now but, don’t judge me” I say through sobs


“I won’t babe” He says back


“Just hold me please don’t go”


“Hey, hey it’s ok i’m right here”


After all this time of trying to forget Harry. It just seems impossible. I still care for him but, I want to be alone and just handle all this on my own. I’m a big girl, and I just don’t want to end up being a big mess in his life. For some reason i’m a big mess in everybody’s life so I just try and stay from as much people as I can.


I untangle myself from Harry’s arms and walk away. I don’t say anything to anybody, I just keep walking with my head down. Right now I’m pretty embarrassed. When I get to my office and pack up my things and get my coffee.


Harry Pov

When i see belle I immediately wanted to hold her and ask her so many questions. I can’t believe after 4 months the girl I love is standing in front of me looking so beautiful. I began to stroke her cheek to get her to look at me. Instead she just walked away to what looked like her office. I wanted to run after her to see if she was alright but, I haven’t seen her in a long time, and I didn’t know where to began.


I walked away making my way towards the other lads sitting down.  Instead of talking to anyone I just sat there until Zayn spoke up.


“Mate what’s up? You were just fine a couple of minutes ago”


“I-I bumped into belle Zayn, I didn’t know where to began. She looked like she was going to cry. I just wanted to hold her and tell her that I am but, i fucked that all up” I said holding my head in my hands.


“Harry You have to remember that she left, she left on her own. Give her sometime and maybe you can call her. I remember when you’d call her and I could hear how excited she was on the other end, and you looked so happy!” Zayn said to me while laughing at the moments


“I just wished that I fought for her. I didn’t fight hard enough for her. I just let her walk away. How do I make things right again?” I say looking up at him


“Mate you have to take things slow, and you need to also just try and talk to her to see what made her move. You have to show her that you still love her. You’ll win her over because you’re Harry Styles, and your cheeky!” He said while pulling me into a man hug


“Thanks I really appreciate you being here for me, and believing in me”


“No problem Harry; you know that you’re my little brother and I’ll always be here” He said


Just as I was about to pull out my phone molly walked in and sat beside me. I didn’t look at her at all. All I could think about was belle, and how I should be taking her home, not Molly. The guy who was interviewing us came in. His name is Lucas. I shook his hand and then got up making my way over to the couch where the rest of the lads were.When I sat down as Lucas began to ask us questions.


“Harry it was rumored that you and Payton White are dating is that true?” He asked


I began to think about belle, and if i should tell the truth about Payton not being my actual girlfriend. As much as i want to lie I can’t because I don’t know how belle feels about me.


“Yes, I do have a girlfriend, and her name is Payton White” I said fake smiling


Before I can say anything else I see belle and some lady walking around the corner. I look away and pay attention to Louis who’s talking about him and the rumors about him and Eleanor's break up. While the other lads are talking I look over to see belle shaking and crying. I rushed over to her picking her up, and holding her in my arms.


She began crying and shaking harder. Throughout all the crying belle managed to say “I know that I look a hot mess right now but, don’t judge me”


I just smiled and said “I won’t babe”


I just held her until she said something that changed me “Just hold me please don’t go”


After, she said that I didn’t know what to say, but think about how much I loved her. For a couple of minutes I just sat there holding her until I said “hey hey it’s ok i’m right here”


I stood up with belle in my arms and walked outside to get some fresh air. I grabbed ahold of her hand and put my hand around her small waist. While we walked I stopped and sat down while grabbing belle and sat her down. She buried her face in my neck.


I combed my hands through her hair as we sat there enjoying each others silence. After, belle lifted her head up I wiped her tears with my thumb, and wiped a little bit off her makeup that smudged off with my thumb. When I was done belle just stared at me. I didn’t know what to say so I pulled her close and kissed her. After, I pulled away I saw Molly staring at me and belle not saying anything.


“Babe what are you doing with her?” she said


"Payton if you haven’t noticed belle was having a panic attack can you please just leave us alone” I said annoyed


“Why are you worried about her? I mean look at her no offence I look so much better, and everybody has panic attacks but, you don’t go saving them” She said coldly


Without a word belle got up and ran away. I looked at her. She looked back with a smirk on her face. If she was a guy I would’ve punched her. I held my breath before taking off after belle.


“Stop being a bitch and ruining my life Payton” I said before taking off


Isabella Pov

After my panic attack Harry held me close and stood up bring me along with him. Ever since I seen him my mind is everywhere. My mind is telling me to say something while my body can’t move. For some reason my body feels like it’s on lockdown.


Harry takes my hand and puts his hand around my waist while he leads me outside. I just look at the people and admire the cute couples and mother’s with their children. I feel so empty and like there is a hole inside because I want that someday but, with Harry.


I really love him. Moving away wasn’t the easiest thing to do especially when you love somebody. I don’t know how he truly feels about me. When we see a bench harry leads us to it and he sit down while I just stand there looking down. He pulls me down next to him.


I needed harry so I leaned in putting my face into his neck. I was afraid that he’d pull away but, he didn’t. He kept me in his arms. We both enjoyed each other’s company just listening to each other breathing. The silence was calming and relaxing to me.


After, what seems like forever harry lifted my head up to look at me. He began to wipe my tear away and my messed up makeup. I looked at him in awe. He looked at me in the eyes and started to lean in. I couldn’t pull away from looking at his charming green eyes. He smiled and kissed me. I didn’t pull away I leaned in closer kissing her back.


When we pulled away I just looked at him and admiring him before blonde girl walked up to us. I think Harry knew her because he looked annoyed. He held me close before she stopped in front of us.


“Babe what are you doing with her?” she said


“Payton if you haven’t noticed belle was having a panic attack can you please just leave us alone”  he said annoyed


“Why are you worried about her? I mean look at her no offence I look so much better, and everybody has panic attacks but, you don’t go saving them” She said coldly


Without a word I got up and ran away.




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