Kiss me, Kiss me

When Kate's brother Michael joins a band, Kate gets caught up in the middle of things. Ashton is amazing and Kate can see herself havng a future with him, but what will get in the way of this blossoming relationship? Just a quick word of warning there will be smut somewhere in this story so dont read if you get offended by smut :)


8. Secrets

We were sitting on Ashton’s couch, watching a movie and eating popcorn. His mom was out and his little brother and sister were both fast asleep. Ashton was sitting with his feet up on the coffee table; I was lying down, my head in his lap. His hand was lazily tracing circles on my arm as we watched some boring rom-com.

“Ash..?” I quietly whispered. Ashton’s hand stopped its movements for only a second before staring up again.

“Yeah?” He replied, concern riddled his voice. I shifted my position so I was facing him full. He smiled down at me, showing his dimples.

“You never told me what your nightmare was about… you know the one you had the first night we met.” I said to him. This has been on my mind a lot lately, and it just felt right to ask him now.

“You never told me you were in an abusive relationship.” He didn’t say this in a rude way, but more as if he wanted to know more about it. He sounded so hurt when he said this, like he really cared about it which only made me want to wrap my arms around him and never let him go. How did I ever end up with such an amazing and caring boy?

“Well how about this,” I say smiling up at him. “I’ll tell you about that relationship if you tell me what your nightmare was about. Deal?”

“Deal.” I sit up and move ourselves into secret telling positions: cross-legged and facing each other, our knees touching. “You go first.” I ask him. He nods, understanding that what I’m soon going to tell him is a touchy topic and I can’t just right into it.  

“When I was about 14 Harry, Lauren and I were staying at my Aunts house. My mom was going out with a friend and didn’t trust us all alone so asked if we could stay the night with Mel, my Aunt. It was about 2:30am when I heard to gunshots…” He stopped talking for a second, I put my hand on his knee and he covered it with his own. “I was so confused I thought it was just fireworks or something but then I heard my Aunt screaming. There was another gun shot and then it all went quiet, no more screaming, nothing. I jumped up and got Harry and Lauren and put them both into the wardrobe that was in the room we were in. Two men wearing masks came barging in through the door. I screamed out for help and one of them ran over to me slapping me with his gun. Then I saw Mel at the door. She was covered in blood and was limping, I knew she had been shot so I yelled out to her, saying please go it’s not safe stuff like that. One of the guys ran and pushed her onto her knees while the other pointed the gun at her head. I begged them not to, I shouted all those things you heard me say that night but they didn’t listen. They shot her right in front of my eyes…” He stopped again and put his head in his hands. “I’m so sorry Ashton.” I said trying to sooth him. He just sighed, looking up at me and giving me a weak smile.

“They left after that, taking everything they could carry. They spared me and I mean I’m just glad Harry and Lauren didn’t see anything. I don’t know how they would have coped… I’ve been having nightmares ever since.”

“I really am sorry Ash, I mean I had no idea, you could have told me, you can tell me anything.” He ran his hands through his hair but soon returned to his normal cheery self, giving me a smile. “I know.” was all he said to that.  

“So,” he said grabbing my hand and kissing it. “Your turn.” I took in a deep breath and began.

“So when I was 16 there was this boy, his name was Ben and all the girls wanted him. He was the school bad ass and extremely attractive-not as attractive as you though-“I assure him with a wink which he returns with a smile.  “Anyway, you were lucky if he looked in your direction you know, and then one day he sat next to me in English and started talking to me. As you can imagine I was ecstatic that he was talking to me and then he asked me on a date and I couldn’t have accepted faster! We went on the date and then he kissed me and it didn’t feel right, but I knew I should be grateful. And he made me feel like I meant something, that I was special you know? No one had ever done that and so I stuck around. Soon we were “official” and that’s when everything that could go wrong did. Every girl in the school started to hate me, even my friends, just because I was with Ben. They would death stare me and leave notes on my locker calling me things like ‘slut’ and ‘whore’, terrible things. I started to believe them but Ben assured me that they were just jealous and didn’t mean any of it. Soon I had no friends at all, just Ben.

The hitting began on my 17th birthday, believe it or not. He said he had a present to give me and then tried to sleep with me but I didn’t want to. But when I said no for the third time he had had enough and slapped the living shit out of me. I had a hand print on my face for like, three days after that. That’s when I learnt to just say yes. All he wanted was sex and if I didn’t give it to him…” I was choking up now. Ashton reached out for my hand held on tight.

“If I did or said anything he didn’t agree with his would hit me. I was covered in bruises and one day Michael noticed. But I couldn’t tell him, I knew if Ben found out someone knew what he was doing he would kill me. So I pushed him away. And I know you’re thinking but why didn’t I just leave but I couldn’t. I had literally no friend left and I had pushed away Michael. Ben was all I had left, or so I thought. There was this girl from my school called Meg and one day in a class we shared she sat next to me and we started talking. She didn’t hate me and I had no idea why but I mean I wasn’t complaining. We became so close and one day I told her that Ben was hitting me and she helped me dump him. I started sitting with her and her friends and now she’s my best friend. She honestly saved my life.” I looked up at Ashton and he had tears filling his eyes, which was a bit surprising.

“I’m so sorry Kate, if I had known you back then I would have kicked him ass.” I leaned over to me and pulled me so I was sitting in him lap, my head resting in the crook of his neck.

“I swear if he ever hurts you again I’ll kill him.” I just laughed but I knew he would protect me. “Its fine Ash, he won’t.” I say to him even though in the back of my mind I know there’s the smallest possibility of his hurting me again.

“I’m serious Kate; I won’t ever let anyone hurt you ever again. You know that don’t you?” He sounds so serious but it’s comforting knowing he’ll keep me safe. I nod my head and he leaves a small kiss on my crown. Later that night I fall asleep in his arms, and there’s no place in the world I’d rather be.

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