I'm Trying (Completed)

I can't lie. I know he loves me. At least I think he does. I don't know what's real and what isn't, and I blame everyone. How do you fix a problem like this. You don't, you just don't. But what I did to him is horrible. He will never ever be able to fix it either. I know he wishes he could but he can't. If there was a solution to this goddammit someone tell me. I'm tired of living like this. I'm tired of living in general. At this moment I knew exactly how to fix this, It's not the best way, but to me It's the only way. He's gonna hate me. But I won't be here for him to tell me that ...

Kay so this is my first story and I know I'm not very good but I really just have ideas and I'm trying to turn them into something good so here my best shot at it. Please be completely honest about it.


17. Warmth and Laughter

Kyra's P.O.V.

I had waken up with the warm grasp of Niall's hand. His grip wasn't as strong as it was before I had fallen into a really deep sleep, so maybe he is doing the same thing. I opened up my eyes to the very bright  room searching for anyone else in the room. No one to been seen, except for Niall. He looked really cute sitting down leaning on the edge of the thing I was laying on, forehead down, along with the rest of his face.

I didn't know what to do, so I sat there staring at the small box in the corner of the room. It was quite interesting, if I knew what it did, if it even does something. There was a black thing with buttons on it on the small table next to Niall, maybe that does something. As I reached around Niall trying to get the thing with buttons, he shifted in his spot, then stopped, then did it again. Finally after he had stopped for a bit, I tried once more for the thing with buttons, but I really leaned this time, determined to get it. But I guess you can't lean that far, cause next thing I know I'm laying on the floor next to Niall. The thing he was sitting in must have fallen over when I did, which left him speaking stuff I couldn't understand. The next thing I know there is a doctor in here along with nurses, freaking out and surrounding me.

"Are you okay ? Does anything hurt ? Did someone hurt you ? Why is Niall laying on the floor as well ?" They were demanding answers for these questions that I didn't know the answers to.

"I was just trying to grab the thing with the buttons on it, to see if that would do anything to the small box sitting in the corner."

Niall laughed, and so did he doctor. "Um why are you guys laughing ?"

"Because of what you did love, it's funny" Niall had managed to say while laughing. After he had gotten up, and helped me the doctor wanted to check some stuff I guess. So he was lifting my arm, my legs, and then he took off that thing around his neck, and boy was I scared.

"Um what is that ?" He had smiled, and shook his head as if he should've said something.

"It's just a stethoscope, I use it to listen to your heart to make sure it isn't beating too slow or too fast," he smiled reassuringly. I nodded my head, and let him continue with what he called a checkup.

"So is she good ?" Niall had questioned.

"Yeah, she isn't hurt from the fall earlier." 

"Doc can I talk to you outside ?"

"Yeah, sure. Uh Kyra will you be okay ?" I smiled. Are people always this nice ?

"I will be ... okay ?" he smiled and walked out with Niall.

Niall's P.O.V.

The doctor and I walked out of Kyra's room.

"Is there a problem ?"

"No, I just wanted to make sure that she is good to leave the hospital, and go out camping with us," I wasn't to sure if he would say that camping was a good idea, but I feel that if it's just us 8 she won't be really over-whelmed by everything. Besides it would be nice for her to get to know everyone, and just have fun.

"She is good to leave, but under a couple conditions" he paused, dramatically. "You guys are to be doing nothing really active, she still needs to take it easy, and most importantly don't give her a lot of information at once. It's really over-whelming for her to be told a lot, but other than that she is good to go just let me know  so that I can do some final stuff." He nodded his head and walked away.

I entered back into Kyra's room and she wore a worried expression.

"What was that all about?" She asked. "Am I dying or something?"

I giggled. "No my love, your just fine. I was just clearing things for our trip this afternoon."

"Oh, so I shouldn't worry?"

"Nope. You're going to be just fine. We're going to take great care of you love."

She smiled warmly, and so did I.

Louis P.O.V

The vans? Check.

The tents? Check.

The food and water? Check.

Everyone's personal belongings? Check.

Everything needed for fun activities and games? Check.

Great attitudes? Definite check.

We were all lined up against 2 vans that were full. Everyone was wondering who was going to sit, who was going to drive, and who would get the car ride with Kyra. We were all worried about her, even out of the hospital. Her arm was in a sling, healing faster than the doctors thought it would. Which I guess was good considering she wouldn't be able to swim with a cast, and now she could. She still had to take it easy however, and Niall was all over that job of supervision.

"So, Van 1, who gets to drive?" Harry asked with a glint in his eyes.

"I think there has got to be a better way to choose these things," I said, knowing full well an argument could ensue if Harry didn't get his way. "I know!" I continued. "We should have girls in one and boys in the other!

The girls began to giggle. "You're all going in one car together, I don't think so. Niall can hardly stand the two step distance between him and Kyra right now, Harry will argue till death to let him drive which we all know is unsafe, and fighting will ensue, and you don't have bodyguards to intercept. I say we go with out boyfriends and split," Perrie said logically.

So that's what we did. Niall and Kyra along with Perrie and Zayn and tag along Xena went in Van 2 while Taylor, Amy, Harry, Liam and I rode in Van 1.

And so the ride began.

Kyra's P.O.V

It didn't actually take long to get to the lake by the woods. But man did it feel like forever. Zayn drove our van with Perrie in the passenger seat, them having an actual conversation where as Niall, Xena and I just joked around the entire way there. But before the laughter would start up again I couldn't help but finding myself ask, "Are we there yet?"

"Not quite, almost though" Zayn replied with a light laugh.

The long drive continued for a little while until we had finally approached wherever we were going. Niall opened the ... door, and offered his hand to me.

"Getting fancy now are we Mr. Horan ?" Perrie had teased. Niall gave her a eye roll, and helped me out of the van.

It was absolutely beautiful out here. All of the trees were tall thin bark, the right green. The grass was also the perfect shade of green, with a bunch of oddly shaped branches, and twigs along with these oval shaped, brown, pokey things that one of the girls with brown hair, and braces said was a pine cone. Weird. Sky blue. Sky blue was the color of the huge lake that was right beside our pretty big camping area. This was all breath taking. I drew in a breath. Niall smiled, "You like the view?"

 i just smiled, speechless. He smiled and we began to unload, or rather, they did. No one would let me near anything with a still recovering arm. For some reason this bothered me, probably something I couldn't remember. Louis told me I never did like not helping at a job. So I sat on a rock as they argued who would pitch a tent. Liam had decided he would do it and took two, and Xena felt bad for not doing much during the unloading of the van, so she happily took one and went with him.

We all began to decide what we would do first, and what we had to gather, like firewood for something called smores tonight.  Everyone decided to go separate ways and look for some, but Niall stayed at base with me. "Are you happy?" he asked in a serious tone.

"Couldn't be more," I said, and he pulled me in for a tight hug, and kissed my forehead, I think that was the thing I loved about him most. His sweetness and kindness towards me. I wished moments like this could last forever.


Zayn's POV

I walked hand in hand with Perrie, but latley, she didn't rest her head on my shoulder like she used to.  She felt distant lately, though I hadn't put much tought into this. For now, she said she didn't feel like walking anymore, and wanted to head back to camp. When we did, I found out that Liam had pitched the tent in less than a couple of minutes, and left Xena to finish hers, because even though she was failing at it, she inisted on doing it herself. Perrie sat down and dumped the few logs and sticks we had found in the middle of our circle, and I said I would go help with the tent, or some of us wouldn't be able to sleep tonight.

When I walked around a few trees, I saw two very large tents set up perfectly. They looked like two pyramids, tall and pointy at the top. The there was one with wires sticking out, and fabric being shoved all different ways. And a redish-brunette standing with the instructions, sighing repeatedly. I made my way to her silently, and tore the instructions out of her hands, much to her surprise.

"Give me those back!"


"Because they are the only rules that show me how to put this tent up! I am going to this properly and independently."

"Fuck the rules. Nothing could help you except advise from someone who has done this before."

She rose one eyebrow higher than I ever thought it could possibly go. "Did you-"

"Yah, it's like a motto. Why follow the rules when you can mend them, or better, break them."

"Well aren't you mysterious?"

"There's a lot to me you don't know."

Little did I notice that during this heated conversation we were slowly closing the gap of space between us, and we were now chest-to-chest, her staring up at me, and blushing before she took a step back.

"I usually don't do this," she began, keeping eye-contact with the ground. "But would you help me?"

I smiled warmly at her, and this seemed to break the tension, because for the first time since I'd met her, she smiled largely.

Pretty soon we had the tent up and she thanked me for my help. We headed back to the group and they teased her a bit, but she took it nicely, lightly slapping Niall and Harry.

That was when I realized something. I didn't mind us being close earlier, and I actually kind of liked it. I looked back at Perrie and felt my heart strain. What was going on?



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