Safe Place

Everyone has a safe place. Where they go to when there Happy,sad, angry. Yours might be in your garden, house, tree anywhere. But it's hard to find a safe place when you share a house with 12 other people. You see I live in a orphanage. My mum died. My dad abused and rapped me. I got sent into care. I went to my safe place. I was about to give up. Until a Irish blond haired boy saved me life. But what happened when I meet him again. Will I get adopted. Will relationships form. What happened when everything goes wrong. Will I find happiness. Will I take my own life. Read safe place to find out!

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5. Screaming for help -Chapter 5

Harry's pov:

When I was singing with Jade I can't help but just wanna make her mine. She's beautiful. I know that something's going on with her and Niall but I think I love her. I try so hard to not just kiss her but I can't anymore. I love her.

Jades pov:

It's been 2 moths since I've been adopted by the boys, everything is going ok. Me and Niall are still going strong and we told the boys about a week ago and we're planing to tell fans but not yet. My anorexia has got worse and the boys are noticing saying like 'have you loss weight' 'are you ill?' 'Have you eaton?' And things like that. But life goes on. You remember that I got a strange message from my 'dad' and Niall saw? We'll I've been getting more everyday. Sometimes more then 5 times a day, but Niall or the boys don't know, Niall thinks I haven't had one again. Um what else? Oh yeah, I've relapsed into self harm. I use to but stopped when I got with the boys but I've started again. I hide it my best but I know they will see.

I was sleeping having a nice dream until I felt two worm lips crash into mine. I kiss back in sync them they pull away, I open my eyes to see Niall with a huge smile. "Wow you should wake me up more often" I said smiling. "I did try but you didn't wake up so I thought I would have a change" he said in his morning voice. I gave him a quick peck but I could tell he wanted more because he didn't back away. So I did. Haha. He moaned and I laughed, I got climes across Niall to get out while he slapped my bum. Lovely. I turned around and slapped him in the balls. Mwhaha. "Ahhh!" He screamed. I laughter as he it up as we'll with only his pants on wow. He laced our fingers and went down stairs with the smell of pancakes filling my nose.

"Morning" all the boys said in unison.

"Your down early..." Lou said looking between us. I looked at Niall and had the same confused face as I did. "What?" Niall asked confused. "We'll we heard Niall scream and we thought...." Zayn said. "Whoa. No. Stop! I punched him in his balls! Nothing like that!" I shouted they all laughed Niall nodded. "We'll at lest your still a virgin" Harry said laughing. No. But. I wasn't. My dad rapped me at the age of 10-13. I lost it to my dad. What a slut. I didn't realise but I had tears running down my face. "Aw JayJay we forgot!" Louis said running to me with open arms hugging me. "It's okay. I didn't 'make love' cause I didn't love him" I said with a weak smile. I felt nils lace our fingers, I looked at him with a smile and he grabbed my head and kissed the top. "JayJay! Can you two go to the shop and get us milk?" Louis asked. Lou made me a nickname called 'JayJay' and it seems all the boys use it now. I looked at Niall and he nodded. Louis tock his onesie of and gave it to Niall to put on while Louis was in his pants, Niall put it on now matching me with my onesie and we walked out the house holding hands in our onesies. Normal. We walked down the road with our fingers locked together in our onesie. I was cold and shacking so Niall grabbed me and placed me in his chest/ under his arm. That's where we heard a click, we looked behind us to see like 20 paps and we turned around again to see more in front of us. Niall bent down and I jumped on his back for a piggy back and he grabbed my thigh and bum tightly and started running back home even though we still herd cameras going of. "Where's the milk?!" Louis asked as we ran inside "we got attacked by paps" Niall said still out of breath. He shrugged and I went to sit on the sofa, I say down next to Harry and places my legs over his lap. He looked up from his phone an laughed and started playing with my legs. The rest of the boys went into the screening room (large tv) so me and Harry was alone. I moved and placed my head on his lap, he was top less so I placed my finger and drawes around his tattoos with my finger, I went over the birds then the butterfly. "Does it hurt?" I asked. "Does what hurt? Tattoos?" I nod, Harry shrugs "it did at first, but I'm use to it" he says, I nod. "Does that hurt?" I look down and roll my sleeve down "at first it did, but not I'm use to it" "these are my scares, there yours, there just different ways of showing our pain" he says. "I've never thought of it like that" I admitted. He picked my arms up and rolls down my sleeve, and kisses every singe scare I have. When he touched me it was like sparks flying around my body. I've never felt this with Niall..."thank you" I say. "No prob babe" he says leaning down and kissing my forehead. I get up from his lap and go back to my room, I go on my phone on twitter as I have so many mention, I see a photo of my and Niall holding hands with my leaning in his body, the photo was cute but the comments wasn't. "Ew she's fat"

"She dosent deserve Niall!"

"She's so ugly!"

"Go die I'm a hole!"

"Fucking slag. She only wants him for a good fuck and fame!"

There was loads like these. I was done. They are right! Before I knew it I was in my bathroom with a razor in my hand with my whist out. I want to so bad. I can't. I can't stop myself! I need help! I started crying and it wouldn't stop. I couldn't stop myself it got closer and closer. No I can't. Help me someone! "NIAALLLLL HELP ME!" I shouted with tears running down my face with the razor near my skin. Why can't I stop. Help me. I hears load of footsteps "JADE!" Niall was shouting around the house. "NIALL HELP ME I CANT STOP!" I said with tears not stopping. 5 boys burst in Niall came running to me and grabbed me, he sat me down and Liam grabbed the razor I Brock down and cryer into Niall's chest I couldn't stop. "Shhh it's okay we're here" he said calmly. "I couldn't stop myself" I said crying in his chest. "Shhh baby it's okay" he said rudding my hair and back. I looked up and all the boys were taking things out of my bathroom that I could hurt myself with. " I'm sorry" I said into his chest. "Come on babe" he said picking me up bridle style into his bed room and layed my down on his bed, he came as we'll and he feel asleep with me in his arms, it was around 9 pm now and I couldn't sleep, I got out of his arms and went to the music room with the big piano in the middle. I sat down as my fingers danced around the keys.

You tell me that you're sad and lost your way

You tell me that your tears are here to stay

But I know you're only hiding

And I just wanna see you

You tell me that you're hurt and you're in pain

And I can see your head is held in shame,

But I just wanna see you smile again

See you smile again

But don't burn out

Even if you scream and shout

It'll come back to you

And I'll be here for you

Oh I will carry you over fire and water for your love

And I will hold you closer

Hope your heart is strong enough

When the night is coming down on you

We will find a way through the dark

I wish that I could take you to the stars

I'd never let you fall and break your heart

And if you wanna cry or fall apart

I'll be there to hold you

You tell me that you hurt, it's all in vain

But I can see your heart can love again

And I remember you laughing

So let's just laugh again

But don't burn out

Even if you scream and shout

It'll come back to you, back to you

Oh I will carry you over fire and water for your love

And I will hold you closer

Hope your heart is strong enough

When the night is coming down on you

We will find a way through the dark

And you don't need

You don't need to worry

And you will see it's easy to be loved

I know you wanna be loved

Oh I will carry you over fire and water for your love

Oh I will carry you over fire and water for your love

And I will hold you closer

Hope your heart is strong enough

When the night is coming down on you

We will find a way through the dark

Oh I will carry you over fire and water for your love

And I will hold you closer

Hope your heart is strong enough

When the night is coming down

We will find a way through the dark

I finished playing as I heard clapping behind me. I turned around to see Harry styles. "Your good" he said walking to me. "Thanks" I said back. He sat next to me and I looked into his eyes. Amazing green eyes that you can get lost in so easy he was looking into mine aswell until he started leaning in and closed the gap between us. That bad things was. I kissed back. Never felt this with Niall. It was different. He backed away. I started at him I don't no what to say. "I'm sorry, I just liked you for ever" he said looking guilty. "I'm sorry" I said running out the room into Niall's bed and going back to sleep with him.

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