Change My Mind

I don’t know if I’ll ever love someone as great as Harry so that’s why I never want to forget this feeling. That’s why I’m scared of moving on. I don’t want to forget what it feels like to be in love with Harry Styles, especially the feeling I got when Harry Styles used to love me back.


84. Surprise Visit

Lily’s POV

I lurch forward and wrap my arms around him.

“Ed! Oh my gosh. I can’t believe you’re here.”

He hugs me back and I just hug him back even tighter.

“Surprise,” he laughs. “Thought I’d come visit you before you go back to school. And because I missed you.”

We pull away but I keep my arms around him. “I missed you, too. Come in.”

I finally let go of him as he walks past me into the flat. I close the door and turn around to see him looking around.

“Nice place. Where’s El?”

“She’s in her room talking to Lou. Oh! I almost forgot! Harry’s on Skype right now. Come say ‘hi’ to him.”

I take his hand and pull him towards my room. “I’ll give you a tour later.”

I walk inside my room and sit down on my bed, tugging on Ed’s hand to sit beside me. I look up at the screen and see Harry smiling at us.

“Look who came to surprise me,” I say.

Harry nods. “Yeah, he told me. I was actually jealous that he was going to visit you. I almost went with him.”

Ed and I laugh. “Thanks for not telling her, mate. I was afraid you would.”

Harry gasps dramatically. “I would never. I am a great secret-keeper.”

Ed chuckles. “Yes, you are.”

I’m actually really happy that Ed came to visit me. I missed him so much. I felt like we didn’t really have a proper goodbye with how things were before I left.

This will also be a good opportunity to talk to him more about recording my songs.

“So, Harry, I’ll talk to you later, okay? I’m going to show Ed around Manchester a bit. Is that okay?”

For a second, I thought I saw Harry’s face fall but a smile is present on his face as I wait for him to answer.

“Yeah, of course. Have fun. I’ll be waiting for you when you get back.”

I return his smile. “Talk to you later. I love you.”

His smile widens. “I love you, baby.”

Ed groans beside me. “Gross. You could’ve asked me to leave before you did that.”

I raise my eyebrows at him before I turn back to Harry with a smirk. “I’ll miss you, babe. I wish you were here so I could kiss you and do other stuff on this bed.”

Harry’s eyes widen before he bursts out in laughter as Ed shoves me, causing me to fall onto the bed. I laugh with Harry as Ed pins my head down on the pillow with his arm.

“Can you please end this call now before I puke all over your laptop?” Ed groans.

I continue to laugh as I reach my hand out to my laptop. “Okay, okay. Get off of me first.”

He removes his arm and I sit up again. “I’ll text you later, Harry.” I lean towards the screen and make a kissy face. “I love you.”

Harry leans closer and makes the same face. “I love you more.”

We give each other air kisses and then I hear a shutter sound. I look over at Ed and see him pointing his phone at me and Harry.

“What are you doing?” I laugh.

“Even though I want to claw my eyes out, that was actually cute.”

“Aww. Thank you, Edward.”

He rolls his eyes and puts his phone away. “Can we go now? Or am I going to witness something that’s going to make me want to jump out the window?”

Harry and I laugh and then I turn to him. “Okay, I have to go now. See you later.”

“Alright. Have fun.”

“We will. Bye.”

Pressing the end button is harder than I thought but I’m able to do it. My heart drops a little as Harry’s face disappears but I just remind myself that I’ll see him again tonight.

I turn to Ed after I close my laptop. “Let me give you a tour.”

Both of us get out of bed and I lead him out of my room and into the living room. I show him around the flat and the view outside the big window.

“Did you eat?” I ask.

“Not yet. I thought I could catch you for dinner but I got stuck in traffic.”

“That’s alright. I’ll warm you up some food.”

We head to the kitchen and he sits down at the counter. “So, have you thought about recording your songs?”

I freeze for a second as I’m taking out the leftover food from the fridge. I take a deep breath before I take the food and put it in the microwave.

“I have,” I say as I turn it on. “I talked to El about it and she made me realize that I want to do it.”

I turn around and face him, seeing a smile on his face. “Really? I mean, I really think you should. I know it’s what you’ve always wanted to do. I don’t want you to pass up this opportunity.”

I nod. “Yeah, I know. I’m just scared, of course. And I don’t even know what I’m supposed to do with school and everything else. It’s a big decision. I mean, it’s my entire future we’re talking about. I just…I think I need to know exactly what I’m getting myself into.”

“Of course. I understand. I’ll be with you every step along the way. You won’t have to do anything you’re not comfortable with. I know you want to finish school first and that perfectly fine. We can always wait until after you finish. We’ll take it one step at a time.”

“That’s the thing, Ed. I don’t want to feel like I’m taking advantage of this. You and your management have given me the great opportunity but I’m worried that making you guys wait until I finish school is asking too much.”

“Of course it’s not. Don’t think that at all. I mean, if you do decide to do this, you would just have to record the songs at first. You’ll still be able to go to school. You can always record your songs on your free time. You can take all the time you need for that. And then, there’s still the producing part and the editing. It’ll be a long process but it’ll give you time to finish school. I want to make sure that it’ll be perfect for when my management listen to it, even though I’m sure they’re going to sign you no matter what.”

A smile erupts on my face at his compliment. “Thank you, Ed. Don’t get my hopes up too much though. I want to work hard for this. I don’t want to feel like it’s going to be just given to me.”

The microwaves beeps and I take it out and place it in front of Ed. I grab him utensils and hand it to him.

“Of course. I understand. But I know you, Lily. And I’ve heard you sing since you first started. You’re made to share your music. I know you can make it.”

I just smile in appreciation as he starts to eat.

“If you do this, you’ll be able to do it at the pace you want and you’ll be able to do it exactly how you want to go with it.”

I nod. “That’s good. I’ll…I’ll have to talk to my parents though but I’m sure they want this for me, too. And I have to talk to Harry, too.”

“How are you two doing, by the way?”

I remember calling Ed during the rare times when I wasn’t with Harry while he was here. He was taking a shower so I took that opportunity to call Ed.

I was so nervous to break the news to him that Harry and I were back together but he was actually happy and he said that he knew that we would.

“We’re good. I think we’re finally in a place where we feel secure about our relationship. There’s more stability and…we’re happy.”

“That’s great, Lily. I’m happy for you. For the both of you.” His face turns into a playful scowl. “But if he hurts you again, I’ll shave his head.”

“Okay, Ed.” I laugh and roll my eyes. “Are you done? I want to show you around the city a bit.”

He finishes the rest of his food. “Done,” he mumbles with a mouthful of food.

I clean up before I tell him to wait in the living room while I change. I go back out and decide to text El that I’d be out with Ed. I didn’t want to disturb her and her time with Louis.

Ed and I head out and we take his car and I show him around. I show him my school and then I take him downtown. We walk around, we shop a bit and we stop for coffee and dessert. We catch up, finding out that he still doesn’t have a girlfriend.

I’m tempted to find one for him but I know he wouldn’t want me to meddle in his love life.

“How long are you staying here?” I ask as we make our way back to my flat.

“Three days. I know you’re gonna be at school but I was planning on visiting some of my other mates here while you’re gone.”

“That sounds nice. I’ll bring you to some of my favourite restaurants here.”

“I’d love to see that Marcus lad, too.”

I narrow my eyes at him as he focuses on the road. Ed and Marcus have met on a few occasions while Marcus and I were still together so things were okay back then.

But now, things are different. Ed and his big brother ways are now kicking in as he brings him up.


“Nothing. I just thought I’d have some words with him.”

I roll my eyes. “You’re just like Harry. But I feel like you’re going to do something completely stupid and unnecessary.”

“No, I won’t.”

I raise my eyebrows at him as he looks at me as we’re stopped at a red light.

“Okay, maybe I will but why wouldn’t I? He hurt you and I didn’t like that.”

“That’s the thing, Ed. It’s in the past. There’s no point in doing anything about it now. Marcus and I are okay now. He apologized. He learned from his mistakes.”

“And I’m glad he did. I just want to make sure he really means it that he’s sorry. I’m sure if I had seen him right after he hurt you, you wouldn’t be stopping me from giving him a piece of my mind.”

“Yeah, whatever.” I mutter, deciding to put an end to this conversation. I know that Ed’s being serious but I also hope that he won’t actually go through with it.

I cross my arms. I know he’s right but I just want him to let it go. I mean, I did. Even though it happened just a few months ago, a lot happened in that time.

I met the most wonderful person in the world.

I met the one that made me forget about what happened, what caused me to run to London in the first place.

I met the one that slowly eased some of the pain that was once eating me alive.

I met the one that made me get over my fear of playing in front of people and my fear of trusting someone with my heart and my fear of loving someone else.

I met the one that made me forget about all of the pain that I felt and replaced it with nothing but pure love and happiness.

I glance down at the time and my heart stops when I realize that it’s almost three in the morning. Harry said he was going to wait for me. I lost track of time and I didn’t realize that we were even out that late.

I take my phone out of my bag, realizing that I didn’t even check it while I was out with Ed. I turn it on and see one missed call and a text from Harry.

I open the text and read it nervously.

*I guess we’ll talk tomorrow. Good night*

That’s it? No ‘I love you’ or ‘sweet dreams’ like he says to me every night. I see that he sent it at 2:15.

He was waiting for me until 2:15.

Now I feel like shit.

How could I forget? I should’ve texted him that I was still out. At least he would’ve known and he wouldn’t have had to wait that whole time for me.

Okay, I feel like complete shit right now.

My hands shake as I decide to text him back.

*I’m so sorry, babe! I lost track of time. Sorry for making you wait. I feel horrible. I’ll make it up to you tomorrow. I promise. Good night and I love you xxx*

All I can do is put my phone away, knowing that I can’t be expecting a reply this late. I feel incredibly bad now.

Harry slipped my mind while I was with Ed and now, he’s all I can think about.

I can only imagine what Harry was like waiting for me. Now all I can picture is Harry waiting by his phone or even his laptop, waiting for any word from me. The image of Harry’s face falling when I told him that I was going to go out with Ed and that I had to leave flashes in my mind now.

For a second, I think I’m overthinking it but as I put everything together, me leaving the Skype call with him because I wanted to spend time with Ed, telling him that I would talk to him again tonight, that I would text him, the fact that he waited for me, I know that I messed up.


All I can hope is that tomorrow, I can apologize again and make it up to him and I hope that he’s not actually upset with me.




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