Change My Mind

I don’t know if I’ll ever love someone as great as Harry so that’s why I never want to forget this feeling. That’s why I’m scared of moving on. I don’t want to forget what it feels like to be in love with Harry Styles, especially the feeling I got when Harry Styles used to love me back.


10. Movies, Paparazzi and Picnics

Lily’s POV

“That movie was amazing!” Perrie exclaimed as we exited the theatre.

“I’d definitely see it again,” El said.

“I don’t think I can wait another year for the next one,” I added.

All of us just finished watching Catching Fire and everyone loved it. Now, we were headed to Harry’s place to hang out and have the picnic. I had my arms linked through El and Perrie’s as we headed to the cars.

“Gale is so hot!” Perrie said.

“What are you talking about? Peeta is the best,” El retorted.

“Are you guys blind? Did you not see the hotness that was Finnick?” I said. We continued to gush about the hot guys in the movies, not allowing any of the guys to have a word in the conversation.

Just as we were talking about the cute scenes in the movie, a swarm of paparazzi came out of nowhere and started taking pictures of us. I put my hand up to block the millions of bright flashes that continuously went off in front of us, causing me to let go of El’s arm. However, Louis immediately came up and held her hand and walked in front of her. Zayn did the same with Perrie and I turned around to look for Ed. But Harry was right behind me and he wrapped an arm around my waist and led me through the sea of paparazzi.

“Harry! Harry! Over here!”

“Harry, are you and Lily Benson together?”

How do they know my name?

“How does Ed feel about you two together?”

I was about to say that we weren’t together but Harry stopped me when he leaned into my ear.

“Don’t say anything to them? Just ignore them. They’ll take anything you say and twist your words.” I just nodded as he tightened his arm around me and looked ahead again.

“Harry, how long have you two been together?”

“Harry, are you two a couple?”

The questions kept coming, all of them directed towards Harry. None of the other boys were asked any questions. I clung to Harry’s arm as the flashes got brighter, blinding me.

Suddenly, I was yanked back roughly causing me to yelp. I turned around to see who had done it and saw a paparazzi proceeding to take pictures of me as I stood there frightened.

“Hey! Don’t touch her!” Harry came out from behind me and confronted the cameraman.

I immediately went up to Harry and tried to pull him away. He stayed put but kept me hidden behind him with his arm protectively wrapping around me.

“Harry, it’s okay.”

“No, it’s not okay. He practically assaulted you.” He was angry and you could see it in his entire body. By now, the rest of the group joined us.

“What happened?” Ed asked as he stood beside me.

“This prick here grabbed her just so he could take pictures of her,” Harry spat.

I saw Ed’s face reddening as he looked over at the man, who was still taking pictures like nothing was happening.

“Guys, it’s okay. Let’s just go,” I said. I was starting to get anxiety as more and more paparazzi came and taking pictures.

“It’s not okay. If we let him get away with this, he’ll just keep doing it. I don’t even think they’re allowed to touch people,” Niall said.

I kept silent, knowing that nothing I say will work.

“Listen here, if we ever see you again, we won’t hesitate to press charges against you. I’m pretty sure there are enough pictures from these other pricks of what you did,” Louis threatened.

The man immediately stopped taking pictures, realizing that Louis was right. He frantically looked around him as the other paparazzi continued to take pictures of this scene. He gulped before he turned around and walked away.

“Let’s go,” Ed said, taking my arm and pulling me towards the car again.

I was still a bit shaken up by what happened but I tried to hide it from the others. I hopped into the front seat of Ed’s car and he immediately drove away from the paparazzi that still surrounded the car.

As we drove to Harry’s place, I noticed that my hands were still slightly shaking. Suddenly, Ed grabbed one of my hands in his.

“Are you okay?”

I took a deep, shaky breath. “Yeah, just shaken up a bit.”

“I’m sorry that happened. We should’ve realized that they would’ve been there. That usually happens when they’re all out together.”

“It’s okay. It’s not your fault.”

“I’ll make sure it won’t happen again.” He gave me a small smile before focusing back on the road.

The rest of the car ride was left in silence except for the radio playing music quietly. A few minutes later, we arrived at Harry’s place, noticing that we were the last ones to arrive.

I hopped out of the car and followed Ed to the front door. Ed just walked in without knocking before we followed the sound of voices into the living room.

Everyone was seated in the living room but Harry and Liam were nowhere in sight.

“Lily! Oh my gosh, are you okay?” Perrie quickly walked up to me and grabbed my arms.

I nodded. “Yeah, I’m okay now. Don’t worry about it.” I gave them all a smile.

Perrie looked at me for a couple of seconds before she nodded. She took my hand and led me to the couch to sit beside her.

“That guy was an asshole. If he had done that to me, I wouldn’t have hesitated to knock him out,” Louis said.

 “I’d do the same thing. Especially if they did that to Perrie,” Zayn said as he put an arm around her shoulder.

I couldn’t help but think about what Harry would’ve done if I hadn’t stopped him. I suddenly got a flashback of Harry punching that punching bag at the arcade. I shook my head to rid of my inappropriate thoughts.

The guys focused their attention to the TV screen, where a football game was on.

I looked for Ed but saw that he had disappeared.

“Where’s everyone else?” I asked.

“They’re getting the food ready,” Perrie said, not taking her eyes off of her phone.

“I’m going to go help them out,” I said before getting up and looking for the kitchen.

“Kitchen’s over there,” she said, pointing to the back of the living room where a hallway was placed in the middle.

I walked into the kitchen and saw Ed, Harry and Liam putting takeout food into serving dishes.

“Hey, do you guys need any help?”

They all looked over at me and gave me a smile.

“We’re almost done, so you can help us bring the food out to the back,” Liam said.

I nodded. “Okay, sure.”

I walked up to Ed and he grabbed as much drinks as he could and brought them out. Liam grabbed two dishes of food and followed after Ed. I grabbed the paper plates and utensils and was about to follow Liam but Harry grabbed my hand and stopped me. I turned around and looked up to meet Harry’s eyes.

“Hey, are you okay?” he asked softly, so much worry present in his eyes.

I nodded. “Yeah, I’m fine.”

Harry kept my hand in his as we continued to look at each other. I felt myself faltering under his gaze so I looked down at the ground.

“Thank you…for doing what you did,” I said.

He slightly chuckled, causing me to look back up to him.

“I would’ve done way worse if I could.” His face softened as I locked eyes with him. “I’m just glad you’re okay.”

I smiled at him. “Yes, I’m okay. Thanks to you.”

He smiled back at me and I took this opportunity to go on my tiptoes and give him a quick kiss on his cheek.

His face reddened and he tried to hold back a smile. However, I couldn’t hold back mine as I smile back at him.

“Shall we go join them?” I asked as I squeezed his hand before letting go.

He just nodded, a huge smile now present on his face. He grabbed the rest of the food before we headed out to the backyard. Everyone was already seated on the two picnic tables joined together in the middle of the yard. Me and Harry took the two empty spots at the end of the table beside El and across from Liam.

We ate our food while having light conversation before we cleaned up and set up lawn chairs around the bonfire that Harry lit up. Everyone was drinking except me, Liam and Perrie, as we were the designated drivers for the night.

Louis, Niall and Ed were already pissed drunk and singing obnoxiously from the other side of the bonfire as I sat there and laughed at them.

Throughout the night, Louis, Niall and Ed seemed to have gotten more drunk before they looked like they were about to pass out.

“I think it’s time we call it a night,” Liam said, getting up from his seat.

“I agree,” Perrie said, chuckling.

“Let’s go, Niall,” Liam said, pulling him up from his seat and supporting him.

“Let’s go, lovebirds.” Perrie was going to take Louis and El home so Zayn, who was only buzzed, helped him up.

“We’ll see you guys soon,” Perrie said. I stood up and hugged her before saying goodbye to everyone else. We walked them to the door and waved to them as they drove away. Me and Harry went back into the house and saw Ed passed out on the couch.

“Did you want me to help you put him in the car?” Harry asked, amused.

“Yeah, sure,” I laughed. “But I’ll help you clean up first.”

“No, it’s okay. I can do it. You should go home and rest. It’s late.”

“It’s fine. I’m not that tired anyways.” I proceeded to walk back out to the backyard and grabbed the garbage bag.

“Thank you,” Harry said with a smile before he started folding up the lawn chairs.

I started putting all of the garbage into the bag before grabbing the cooler that used to be filled with ice but has now since melted and threw it into the fire to put it out.

I tied up the garbage bag and put it by the side of the house before helping out Harry put away the chairs.

“This would have taken me all day tomorrow. Thank you so much for helping.”

I chuckled. “No worries.” We walked back into the house and headed over to Ed’s still sleeping body.

“I’ll try and wake him up,” I said as I walked up to the couch. I crouched down and nudged his shoulder.

“Ed. Wake up. We have to go.” I nudged him again.

He grumbled before moving closer to the back of the couch, getting more comfortable.

“Ed, come on.” I nudged him again.

“Go away. Let me sleep.”

I sighed before standing back up. I really didn’t want Harry to worry about having to basically carry Ed to the car.

“You guys can stay here for the night. I don’t think Ed is capable of moving right now,” he said laughing.

I looked over at him. “Are you sure? I don't want to be too much trouble.”

“Of course not. I crashed at Ed’s all the time. It’s the least I could do.”

“Okay. Thank you.”

He nodded before turning around. “I’ll get him a blanket.”

He disappeared into the hallway before he came back a minute later with a thick blanket in his arms. He opened it up and covered it over Ed.

“He should be fine,” I said. “Maybe just have a waste bin beside him just in case.”

“Good idea.” He went into the bathroom and brought the garbage can with him before placing it in front of the couch beside his head. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a glass of water to put on the coffee table in front of the couch.

“I think he’ll be okay,” Harry whispered. “Come on, I’ll show you the guest room.” I nodded before following him to the stairs. Harry turned off the lights on the way, leaving the living room in darkness except for the light coming from the moon.

I followed Harry up the stairs and to the end of the hallway before he stopped at the last door on the right. He opened the door and walked in, turning on the light.

“Is this okay?” he asked. It was what a guest room would be expected to look like. Plain white walls, a painting on one wall, a queen bed with two side tables and a dresser on the side with a TV placed on top.

“It’s more than okay, Harry. Thank you.”

He smiled before putting his hands in his pockets.

“Um, there’s extra toothbrushes in the bathroom here and a towel if you wanted to take a shower.”

“I’m okay. I think I just need the toothbrush.”

He nodded while swaying back and forth on the balls of his feet.

“So…I guess this is good night?” he asked.

I really wanted to spend more time with him. But he was probably tired.

But it wouldn’t hurt to ask.

“Unless you want to…watch TV or something,” I said nervously. “I’m not sleepy yet. But if you are, that’s totally fine. You can sleep if you are.”

He smiled at me before walking over to the bed and plopping down on one side.

“I’d love to watch TV.” He grabbed the remote from the table beside him and turned on the TV.

I nervously walked over to the other side of the bed and sat down, leaning against the headboard beside Harry. He flipped through the channels before he stopped it at a channel playing ‘I Love You, Man’.

We watched in silence except for the occasional laugh at funny parts.

I don’t know how we ended up moving from our position but next thing I knew, I was resting my head on Harry’s shoulder with his arm around me. I was about to pull away but then he started rubbing my arm. Once the movie ended, I found my eyes starting to droop. It took a lot of energy to look up at Harry to see him already fast asleep. I carefully took the remote from side table and turned off the TV before burying myself back against Harry’s body and resting my head on his shoulder.

I never would’ve thought that the night would’ve ended like this, being in Harry’s arms, but I was happy. Today was a good day and I was glad that I got to spend it with all of my friends. It was good to finally move on from Marcus and not have to be affected by him anymore.

I’m happy again.

I carefully sat up to grab the blanket at the foot of the bed, which had caused Harry to stir in his sleep. He kept his arm around me as I opened the blanket and placed it over the both of us. I settled back into the same position and felt sleep already starting to pull me under.

But not before Harry turned to his side and wrapped his other arm around my waist. He pulled me closer, causing my head to rest in the crook of his neck.

I smiled in semi-consciousness before I rested my hands on Harry’s chest. I could feel his every breath. I could hear every beat of his heart.

And just before I was pulled into a slumber, I thought I heard the faint whisper of my name escaping Harry’s lips.




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