Change My Mind

I don’t know if I’ll ever love someone as great as Harry so that’s why I never want to forget this feeling. That’s why I’m scared of moving on. I don’t want to forget what it feels like to be in love with Harry Styles, especially the feeling I got when Harry Styles used to love me back.


88. First Day

Lily’s POV

“Lily, it’s time to get up. We’re going to be late.”

I groan as I hear El’s voice ringing from somewhere in my room.

“Too…early,” I whine. I peek an eye open but immediately close it. “And too…sunny.”

El laughs. “I made you coffee but there’s nothing I can do about the sun. Now, you really have to get out of bed.”

I hug the covers closer to me and sink further into my pillow. “Five more minutes.”

I hear silence and then footsteps coming closer to me. A second later, I feel the blanket being yanked from my body, the cool air quickly hitting my skin and making me jolt up in bed.


“Get out of bed now or I’m going to throw water on you.”

I narrow my eyes at her but she just crosses her arms and raises an eyebrow at me, letting me know she’s not joking.

I groan one last time before sliding out of bed. “It better be a damn good cup of coffee.”

She smiles and turns to grab a mug off of my dresser, walking up to me and handing it to me afterwards.

“Be ready in 45 minutes, we’re leaving in 50.”

“Yes, sir,” I say, giving her a salute before she turns and leaves my room.

I take a shower, quickly letting a bit of cold water to wake me up. I wrap a towel around my body and trudge to my closet to decide what I’m going to wear.

Once my eyes land on a certain shirt, my smile widens. I grab Harry’s plaid shirt from the hanger and place it on my bed. After checking the weather forecast and seeing that it’s going to be warm today, I decide to wear jean shorts. I grab a plain white tank top to wear under Harry’s shirt and I change into my outfit for the day before I slip on a pair of Toms. I roll up the sleeves on Harry’s shirt, seeing as how they reach completely past my fingers. I leave a couple of buttons at the top unbuttoned, my white shirt peaking out from underneath.

Just as I’m about to leave my room, I pass by my dresser and Harry’s cologne catches my eye.

I pick it up and don’t even hesitate to spray myself with it. His smell overpowers me and it instantly relaxes me. I place it back before I go to my side table to grab my phone.

I see a text from Ed telling me that he would be home by the time El and I get home from school. He had went out to the pub with some of his friends here last night and he said he would crash at their place because he didn’t want to wake me up when he got home in the early morning.

I open another text from Harry.

*Good morning, beautiful. Hope you have a great first day of classes. Text me when you’re done. I miss you. Love you xx*

A huge smile erupts on my face as I start to type out a reply.

*Good morning, handsome. Thank you. Have a good day at work. I miss you more and I love you more. PS: thought I’d send you this pic to show you how much I miss you*

I take a picture of my outfit and attach it to the text. I know how much he likes it when I wear his clothes so hopefully, it’ll make him happy.

I send the texts and walk over to the floor length mirror, giving myself a lookover to make sure I look decent.

Seeing Harry’s shirt on me makes my smile widen even more and it instantly brings back memories of the night that Harry gave it to me.

When he got the moon and the quote tattoo. That was one of my most favourite nights I’ve ever had.

I take a deep breath before I pick up my shoulder bag from beside the door and head out to the living room.

“Here. Eat on the way. We’re going to be late. I completely forgot it’s the first day of classes and it’s going to be a nightmare to find a parking spot.” El hands me a bagel and a water bottle before she pulls me out of the flat.

I eat my bagel in silence as El concentrates on driving. She curses a million and one times as we pull up onto the campus and wait in line for a parking spot. We find one 10 minutes later and we practically jog to the Schuster building. We separate ways once we walk inside and I told her we’d meet up at this spot after class.

I push through the crowd of people, keeping an eye out for Marcus. I spot him a few feet away, sitting on a bench by the stairs.


He picks his head up and his eyes scan the crowd until he sees me. We exchange smiles as he stands up and walks over to me.

“Hey, you. Long time, no see,” he says as he wraps his arms around me.

I hug him back. “It’s so good to see you. How are you?”

We pull away and we start to make our way to our class.

“Good, good. Dreading going back here but at least it’s our final year. How are you?”

“I’m good. I did not want to get out of bed this morning but El threatened me.”

“I’m scared to meet her. From the things you told me about her feelings towards me.”

I laugh as I look up at his frightened expression. “You’ll be fine. I told her to be nice. But you’re gonna have to earn her trust.”

“Girls are complicated. I know that's going to be a challenge.”

“Hey, if you can earn mine back, you can earn her’s.”

I smile up at him and his expression softens.

“Yeah,” he clears his throat. “I guess you’re right.”

We reach the classroom and he opens the door for me before we make our way inside. The class is already half full but two seats in the back at empty and we quickly walk up to them to claim them. I’m about to take the edge seat but Marcus grabs the back of my shirt and easily pulls me back. He steals the edge seat and I narrow my eyes at him as I take the one beside him and a girl with brown hair and a mix of hazel brown and green eyes.

“Do you have a pen I can borrow?” Marcus asks from beside me.

I look over at him and furrow my eyebrows. “It’s the first day of class and you aren’t even prepared? Since you stole my seat, I’m not giving you one.”

“Oh come on. How am I supposed to take notes?”

I shrug. “I don’t know. Just memorize it in your head.”

“Lily, please.”

I ignore him and, to make it even more overdramatic, I turn to the girl beside me.

It’s a new year. No more overprotective boyfriends. I need to make some new friends.

“Hi, I’m Lily.” I stick out my hand towards her and she gives me a sweet smile, shaking my hand afterwards.

“Hi, I’m Mattison but you can call me Matti.”

“Nice to meet you, Matti. Do you--”

“Hi, I’m Marcus.” I see his arm appear from beside me and Matti laughs as she shakes it.

“Nice to meet you, Marcus.”

“Do you have a pen I could borrow? This mean girl beside us won’t give me one to help aide in my education.”

I roll my eyes as Matti laughs again. She goes into her bag and takes out a pen.

“Here you go. But I would do the same if you had stolen my seat, as well.”

I smirk as I look over at Marcus to see his smirk disappear.

“See. I had a good reason to not give you a pen. Now go away and go back to your education.”

He makes a face at me before he turns back in his seat.

I turn back to Matti and we get to know each other as we wait for the professor to show up. It turns out we’ve actually had classes before but I hadn’t even noticed her.

It wasn’t really my fault though…

It’s her final year, as well, and she’s going for the same major as I am. We talk about our summer, her telling me about her spending it in Florida with her family. I start telling her about my time in London with Ed. I was hesitant to talk to her about Ed. I always am with anyone, really. I don’t know how their opinion of me will change into or whether they would take advantage of that.

Once I bring up Ed’s name, she gasps and her eyes widen.

“That’s why you look so familiar! I mean, other than having classes together last year. You’re Ed Sheeran’s best friend! I’ve seen you in so many pictures with him.”

I clear my throat. “Um, yeah.”

“I love Ed Sheeran. He’s my favourite artist.”

I start to get uncomfortable as I anticipate her next words.

“And you’re going out with Harry Styles, right?” Surprisingly, she whispers and I’m thankful for that. I know she doesn’t want anyone around us to hear. I was also surprised that she didn’t automatically ask me if I could let her meet Ed. Everyone does once I tell them that I know Ed.

Maybe she’s not like everyone else. She seems genuine and she seems like a sweet girl. It would definitely be nice to have her as a friend this year.

“Yeah, I am.” I smile.

“I saw that interview yesterday with him and the others. That was the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen. I would’ve died if I was you.”

I laugh, instantly feeling relaxed around her. “I did, actually.”

We laugh together just as the professor walks in and up to the front of the room.

Matti and I quickly face forward and we pay attention to the typical first day speech that every professor goes through.

“Alright, so one of your big assignments this year is to partner up with someone you haven’t met before today and take the next four weeks to get to know each other and write a paper on your first impressions of them. However, you can’t tell your partner what you’re writing about them until your paper is finished. This will teach you to write about something that you are unfamiliar with and it will help you to really take the time to get to know something that you may be scared to write. This paper will be due on the 7th of October. I trust you to be truthful and pick someone that you don’t know or I may have to choose partners for you. I’ll give you ten minutes to choose before we start with the first lesson.”

Matti and I immediately look at each other and smile.

“Hey, we didn’t actually know each other before today so we can be partners,” I say.


I turn to Marcus and see him looking around the class nervously. I see another girl looking exactly like Marcus is looking and I decide to help him out a bit.

I turn to Matti. “Hey, do you know that girl’s name?”

She looks over at her and nods. “Yeah, her name is Milly. She’s a nice girl.”

“Do you think she would be okay with being partners with Marcus?”

She nods again. “Yeah, she’s very friendly. Just a bit shy.”

“Okay, thanks.”

I stand up and grab Marcus’ hand. He looks at me confusedly as I pull him towards Milly. She looks up at us wide-eyed when we stop in front of her.

“Hi, Milly. Do you have a partner for the assignment?” I ask.

She shakes her head. “No, not yet.”

I pull Marcus to stand beside me. “Would you like to be partners with Marcus? I promise, he will be a good partner and if he doesn’t, I’ll shave his hair off.”

Milly smiles as she looks from me to Marcus. She nods her head. “Yeah, I don’t mind. I mean, if it’s okay with him.”

I wait for Marcus to answer and I look up at him when he doesn’t. He’s looking at Milly with wide eyes and I nudge him to snap him back to reality.

He clears his throat. “Um, yeah. I would love to be your partner. For this assignment, I mean. You know, not…not in any other way, um…being partners. Yeah…”

I roll my eyes and look back at Milly, who has amusement written on her face.

“Alright. Well, I’ll leave you two to get to know each other. I’ll see you later, Marcus.”

Marcus nervously sits down beside Milly’s empty seat and I go back to mine.

“Why don’t you come over to my place today? We can get to know each other and I’ll introduce you to my friend, El.”

Her eyes widen again. “You mean Eleanor Calder? You live with her?”

I laugh at her excitement. “Yeah, she’s a good friend of mine.”

She nods feverishly. “Of course I would love to meet her. Oh my gosh, I can’t believe I’m hanging out with famous people.” Her eyes widen and she freezes in her seat as she looks at me. “I mean, not that that matters. I’m not some crazy psycho fan. I’m just a normal One Direction fan and I love Ed Sheeran even more. So, yeah, I promise I won’t freak out.”

I laugh. She’s adorable. “It’s fine. I would be the same way if someone told me they would introduce me to David Beckham.”

She visibly relaxes.

She seems like the type of person to just use me to get to know Ed and El. Even if I hadn’t told her that, she would still be friendly.

That’s why I’ve decided to bring her back to our place to introduce her to Ed.



Yay to introducing new characters! I've decided to have Max Irons play Marcus :) I'm starting to make the officlal cast list for the story!

Anyways, please let me know what you think so far! I would love some feedback.

35 votes and 15 comments.

BTW the song from the previous chapter was 'Tenerife Sea' by the wonderful Ed Sheeran. Go listen to it, It's amazing.

Thanks for reading! Love you guys <3

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