Like an illusion

Like an illusion (intro)
Intro: You're a 18 years Justin bieber's fan . You graduated from high school 2months ago. You're originally canadian but you live in California. You don't have any friends and cody ,your cousin, is the closest person to you. He's your age and you've been best friends since you were in diapers. He has a crush on you but he's never told u. You think of him as a friend and nothing more.You're suffering from a rare psychological disease . You have illusions from time to time depending on your mood. And it's always related to tour thoughts and feelings. Once you have an illusion You forget about everything around you and just live in the illusion like if it's reality.


1. Memories


    It was a sunday night and you were all alone by yourself , you didn't know what to do and you were bored so you grabbed your diary and a pen . Writing has been your main amusement factor , it always made u happy and it was a good way to kill boredom. You didn't know what to write about. You closed your eyes , took a deep breath and the first thought that came to your mind was writing your story and how have u ended up here . You liked the idea , you opened your eyes slowly and started writing. 


I don't know why or how did this happen to me but mom always said that it's my destiny and it's been written. I suffer from a rare psychological disease that made me a lonely desperate person who has no friends. I used to go to a psychologist and he helped me a lot. I actually felt like i almost healed. I felt like i was a normal person But this didn't last long. It all started few months ago at school when Brad , the soccer team captain , who is the most popular guy in high school , started being nice to me. Everyone at school used to look down upon me and treat me like shit. I felt so happy when brad treated me nicely. And one day he walked to me at the cafeteria and asked me to go out with him on a date. I couldn't believe myself , that was the best feeling ever , i accepted and i went out with him. We went out together for 2 more dates and they were all perfect. Life had finally started opening its arms for me. On the third date he asked me to be his girlfriend. I blurted a yes immediately. We stayed together for 2 months . At first he was being all sweet and amazing but then his sweetness started Lessening and lessening. He treated me rudely in the last month he even slapped me when i told him that he gotta change his treatment with me . Cody kept telling me that i should break up with him but i didn't listen. I loved him and i tolerated his awful treatment. Every time i thought of breaking up with him , something stopped me. I couldn't figure out what was it so i assumed it was love. But i think it's one sided love. He did the most horrible thing ever to me . He ditched me on prom. Since then my life has gone down. Justin and his music were the only thing that helped me go thro. My illusions doubled and i went deeper into them. One of them was about suiciding so i actually went to the kitchen and grabbed a knife and when i was about to stab myself, mom saw me and stopped me. My psychologist said that i should stay in the hospital . It'd be safer . I've been in this hospital for about a month now. I've tried to run away several times but i got caught every time tho. Now they lock me in a white disgusting room . The idea of staying in this disgusting hospital kills me. It's like i'm a prisoner. Cody visits me 3times a week and my parents visit me twice a week cuz they have work. They don't care about their only child who's thrown in that horrible place called hospital. Ugh .. they always put work first, anyway i got used to it. For the last couple of weeks i've been begging cody to bring me my iPhone. They took it away from me cuz they think it has something to do with my illusion's idea . They're just so stupid. Last thursday cody visited me and said he had a surprise for me. He kept teasing me with it but i didn't leave him alone till he told me what was it. I jumped from happiness when i knew he brought me my iPhone. I'm kinda the super energetic and loud type so i jumped on his back and we ran around the room. I thanked him a lot and gave him a kissy on the cheek. He kept laughing at how happy and excited i was. Once I took my iPhone from him , I played "play hard" and raised the volume to the max and started dancing like crazy. "Heyyyy they'll hear it and they'll take it away again" cody said as he stopped the song. "ughh i hate them" I gasped and hid my iPhone in my wardrobe. I've been listening to Justin's songs since then. I make sure to put my headphones so they won't hear anything. Every time i hear his warm voice , I feel .. it's a strange feeling.. it's amazing actually. I think of him a lot lately , i forgot all about Brad. Justin is the only one on my mind now. Even my illusions became about him. I see him everywhere , his picture doesn't leave my eye . I imagine him with me every single moment of the day. I think i became a belieber now. Now i don't have suiciding and violent illusions anymore , i have lovely illusions about Justin instead .

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