Saving aLife

Cam Parker has had it rough, and she has a dark secret that nobody else knows about, she is faced with all of these life decisions, and doenst know what to do! She is ready to just drop, and give up, but "something, or someone gives her the last ounce of hope that she needs to pull threw everything.

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2. Forgiving to much

When I woke up he was by my side, and laying down beside me.

"Baby, I am so glad you are okay, I didn't mean anything I said I swear" He said grabbing my hand, but I still couldn't feel anything besides the pain.

He did this to me every single time he hit me, or did anything to hurt me.

"Baby, please talk to me I love you?"

I couldn't stay mad at him no matter what I did I always forgave him, and I know I shouldn't of but I couldn'y help it. I think I was just more scared of what he would do if I didn't forgive him.

He hugged me tightly, and it hurt so bad I yelled in pain, it sounded something like when you step on a dogs paw.

We layed there all night in silence, and he didn't even move, not once. I hated him, I hated everything about him. He was selfish, and just an all around asshole, but he was right. Nobody wants me, and nobody really needs me. Without him, I would be just some trailer trash or homeless person wondering the streets, living off of nothing.

I had parents, but they weren't really an option. I grew up in a small family, it was me, and my younger sister. She was 6 years younger then me, she was only 10. I wasn't taken away from my family, I left them, and all I have been thinking about since the day that I left was going back to get my sister. My family was small, and we lived in a trailer park just a bit north of here.

My mom was either drunk or high on something for most of the time, and she had boyfriends coming in and out of the house on a nightly basis. A different man every night, until one stayed.

He was so good with me, and my sister, but he sure as hell didn't stay that way for long. When I was little, maybe around the age of 7, my step dad came into my room, for what he called, "Late night, fun times" He made so many visits, and they didn't stop until the day that I left that horrible place.

My own mother didn't even believe me, yet again she didn't pay any attention to really anybody. The only thing she cared about was where to get her next hit. I hated her with a passion, she let me get raped by that bastard, and didn't give to shits, about how bad he hurt me.

Sometime when I wouldn't listen to my step dad, he would burn me, and I swore that I would never let that happen to my sister, but she was coming up to the age that he preferred, and I know that I have to get her out of there soon, but here isn't so much better then there.

Calub says that he loves, me and I would hate to see what he did to the people he didn't care about, little own my own sister. God forbid if she ever made him mad, he would lose it.

I miss my little sister Kara-Bell more then anything, I love her, and she was the closest thing I will ever have to a real family.

I hated everything about my family, and I would never go back there, I would rather Calub shoot me.

I zoned back into reality, sometimes I let my thoughts take over, and zone out, according to Calub I did it a lot more then I knew about. I wish I could zone out like that when he is beating me, but I am fully conscious and aware of what is happening everytime. A few of the times I was lucky enough to get knocked out, but that's the only way that the pain stops. My favorite part of the day is sleeping, because I am aaway from this fractured, and imperfect world that is my life.

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