my new life (1D fanfic)

Have you ever felt alone? That's how Ariella felt. Her parents died when she was fourteen and her sister was eighteen. Ever since then her snobby sister abused her in every way possible. She has always gotten bullied in school, and has no friends. Her only one was when she was sixteen. But he moved away to go to the X-Factor and he never talked to her again. When she is seventeen, her sister gets married to a boy that she has been dating for a while, Ariella and her sister, Melissa have to move from Cheshire to London. The twenty-one year old man lives with four other friends. But when she finds out who they are, there is only one question left:

What will happen?


13. hangovers and questions

my new life:

hangovers and questions


Ariella's POV:

I wake up to Harry's arms around me and a killer headache. The memories of last night flood back. Shit! I cheated on Harry with my ex. WHO RAPED ME! Tears come to my eyes. I wipe them away. I promised myself not to cry over Tyler ever again.

I slip out of Harry's arms and go to the bathroom. I take off my clothes and hop in the shower. I look at my cuts. The ones on my arms are still VERY noticeable, because that's where I had the most. My stomach isn't scarred at all anymore, but I only had like three cuts there. My thighs are just a tiny bit noticeable.

I wash my hair, wash up then shave. I get out and dry up. I leave my hair with its natural waves/curls. I put on a gray long sleeve cropped sweater, ripped stockings to cover the few scars, dark red shorts, and dark red vans. I put on black eye shadow, black eyeliner how I usually do it, mascara, foundation, and dark red lipstick.  My painted black nails that I got yesterday go perfectly. I decide to put in my plugs, nose stud, and lip ring today. I always put in my plugs, because that'd be kinda gross if I didn't, but I usually forget about my nose and lip.

I walk downstairs and make French toast for everyone. Jenna comes down wearing a camo bralet, white high-waisted shorts,  a silver chain, black plugs in, brown combat boots and a camo snapback. She has on foundation, brown eye shadow, eyeliner, mascara, and pink lipstick.

"Babe why are you wearing shorts? What if they notice?" Jenna ask worried. I 'shh' her. I step closer.

"The scars aren't noticeable anymore." I whisper. Her face brightens, and she pulls me into a tight hug.

"That's wonderful! I love you girl, never make anymore scars." She whispers in my ear.

"I know! I promise I wont. I love you too." I whisper. I kiss her cheek. I had a few cuts back at camp when I met her. She noticed and took care of me. Back then I hadn't gone through a lot but I got bullied a lot. So it's a big deal for both of us. I've been doing it for five years.

"Sorry to break the love fest but I'm hungry." Niall say. He walks into the kitchen. He grab about ten pieces then walks to the Island in the kitchen. "What happened?" He ask.

"Just girl stuff." Jenna answers. Then the rest of the boys pile in and grab some French Toast, still half asleep. Jayde stumbles in.

"Fuck headaches." She whimpers. I give her juice and a Advil. I also give myself one and Jenna. We all eat in silence.

"Damn,  Ella you look HOT in those shorts!" He says pulling me into a kiss. I blush. "But why do you always cover you legs and arms?" He ask innocently.

"Be-because I want to." I stutter. What would he think if her knew?

"Why?" He ask.

"Cause she wants to Harry. Now shut up and eat." Jenna answers. She gives me an look to say 'sorry'. I just give her a fake smile. She knows me better and sighs.

"Damn what's up with you two?" Louis ask.

"Nothing." Jenna and I say at the same time.

"Tell us."  They all keep chanting.

"Shut up! We said nothing." Jenna snaps.

"Fine, be asses like that." Louis says. Harry, Zayn, I, and Jenna send him glares. Tears build up in my eyes. I'm just a stupid liar. Like my mum always said. A worthless piece of shit liar. I get up from the table and run up to my room. I go into the bathroom and lock the door. I hear Jenna yell at Louis then run upstairs.

"Babe don't do anything stupid. It's okay he didn't mean it. Open up." Jenna says trying to mask her panic with a calm front.

"My mum was right. I'm just a liar. A worthless, slutty liar." I cry.

"No she wasn't! You are not. You have to not tell them to protect them." Jenna panics jiggling the doorknob.

"SHE WAS! SHE WAS ALWAYS RIGHT! I'M JUST A FUCKING LIAR!" I yell sick of her lying. I go to grab the razor when she unlocks the door.

"Ariella Angel James! She was not right. She was a sick bastard to do that to you. You are just trying to protect them. It's a good thing." She soothes me rubbing my back. She holds me in her arms until I calm down.

She starts singing 'Guardian Angel' by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

"When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]" 

She finishes our favorite song. It basically fits us two besides for the true love part. We love each other but not like that.

"I love you Ellie." She says. "You promised you wouldn't do it again. You are worth so much. Please don't." She kisses my cheek in a friendly way. I just nod. She helps me get to my bed. Then I know what I finally have to do.

I have to tell the boys.









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