The Runaway Meets the Rogue (Completed)

Zee runs away from her pack when she finds out she has to marry Cameron (the Alpha of the neighboring pack.) She ends up in Oregon, where she meets two other werewolves, Jax and Landon. Will she fall for Landon or Cameron? Which one is her true mate?


9. Chapter 9: This wasn't supposed to happen

Zee's POV

I walk back to my cabin after seeing Cameron. It was nice to see him again. I felt better now that I know why he was being a jerk to me. Guilt ran through my body. I had kissed Cameron- not once, but twice. I'm with Landon. I don't feel that fire when I'm kissing Landon. I don't even feel it when our hands touch. Maybe you're not supposed to feel fire with your mate? Stop making things up, Zee!

Why do I feel empty inside? I had felt complete when I saw Cameron. I felt complete when we were kissing. I shook my head. I don't want to be with Cameron. He's not right for me. I sat down on the couch.

Stop denying your feelings for Cameron. My wolf said. She's right. I have to admit that I do still have feelings for Cameron. But that doesn't mean I want to be with him.

My mind wondered back to that kiss. I'm sure you could write a romance novel on it. My heart started beating faster. I groaned. Why does it keep doing that? I'm not supposed to be feeling this way about Cameron. My heart's supposed to beat faster when I see Landon, right? I'm so confused.

I heard a knock on the door and I got up to answer it. Landon was standing there. My heart didn't beat faster when I saw him. In fact I didn't feel anything. That would change, right?

"I wanted to make sure you were okay. You left my house in a hurry." Landon said, sticking his hands in his jeans pocket.

"I'm fine." I said. I let him inside.

"Was there somebody back home you had feelings for?" He asked me. His question took me aback. I can't lie to him; he deserves the truth.

"Well, yeah, but it didn't last for very long." I answered somewhat truthfully. He nodded his head.

"I just wanted to make sure that you're serious about our relationship." I bit my lip. Hopefully he didn't know that much about me. I always bite my lip when I'm nervous or lying.

"I'm not really sure." I said. He deserved the truth. He furrowed his eyebrows. "The guy that I was supposed to marry-" I stopped. I couldn't tell him that Cameron found me and that we kissed.

"You have feelings for him?" I shook my head. I was trying to be honest, but I kept lying. "That's good." He leaned over and kissed me. I didn't feel anything. I didn't feel the fire or the passion. I pulled away and forced a smile.

"I might go back home." I said.

"Why?" I shrugged my shoulders. Was I really ready to go back? What would they think of me? Would they make fun of me? Would I even be welcomed back? I'd be in the Windwater pack because going home would mean that I accepted Cameron. It wouldn't be too bad.

"I probably won't; I just miss my family." I said. I missed Ryker and deep down I missed Cameron. I'm also worried about my dad.

"I understand, but you'll get over that soon. I can be the one to make you feel better." Landon said. I don't think he does understand. I thought that he could be the one to make me happy, but now I'm not so sure.

"I thought that this was what I wanted, but I'm not sure now." I said.

"You left because you had to marry someone you didn't love." He pointed out. I guess he did listen. "Don't go, please. I need you." He said. I sighed.

"I just wanted you to know that I might go back." I said.

"What does that mean for us?" He asked. He looked like the thought of me leaving caused him pain.

"I-I don't think we'll be together then." I said.

"I need to know more about you before you go then." I nodded my head.

"What do you want to know?" I asked him.

"What was it like in your pack?" I shrugged my shoulders.

"I guess overall it was alright. I got along with people well. It was okay until my mom died." I said. I didn't normally tell people this. I didn't like to seem like an open book. "It was hard for me after she died."

"I'm sorry about your mom." He said, sounding distant. "H-How'd your mom die?" I looked down at my hands. I feel like I can trust Landon.

"I don't really understand it. I walked up into her room, I needed to tell her something. She was there with another man. I could tell he was from an evil pack. He tried lunging for me, but my mom shifted. They started fighting and she ended up dying. The guy was after me for some reason. I watched my mom die right before my eyes and I couldn't do anything. I got really angry. I shifted and killed the man." I finished telling him.

"That must've been so hard; I can't even imagine." I nodded my head.

"After she died I never really felt like I belonged." I sighed.

"My mate died." He said. I looked over at him. "She was killed by the Alpha of the pack I used to be in. He thought he could do that because he's the 'Alpha'. He's obviously sick in the head. Anyone in their right mind knows not to kill somebodies mate. I left after that." He didn't leave because he lost a fight, he left because the Alpha killed his mate.

"What does it feel like losing your mate? I hope you don't mind me asking." He shook his head.

"It's hard to explain. It's the worst pain you can imagine times that. You never truly know how it feels until it happens to you. The same thing goes for rejection, but losing your mate is worse. In a way I guess it's the same thing." I nodded my head. "I wouldn't wish it on my enemies."

"I'm sorry." I said.

"Don't be," he said shaking his head.

"Can you ever find another mate?" I asked him.

"No, you can't. You might like somebody, but it'll never be the feelings you had when you were with your mate." I nodded my head. I guess that's why my dad never met anybody else.

"I'm glad we can be honest with each other." I said.

"Yeah, me too." I smiled. He was never going to be in love with me. I mean maybe, but I'm not his mate and he's not mine. You can't force feelings.

"I'm going to go."

"Okay." I said. He kissed me on the cheek and then left.

I walked up to my bedroom. I plopped down on my bed. Landon's a nice guy. Cameron is too. I have to make my mind up and soon.

Something felt off with Landon. I know that he was telling me about how he lost his mate, but it was something different. I'm sure he's fine. I turned over onto my side and fell asleep.

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