College freshman Kyah Edwards is guaranteed to be popular when she enters university thanks to her brothers. Two of them are seniors & the 'it bad boys'. With her bestfriend Rayne by her side it will be a year to remember but not for all the right reasons.

Things happen & secrets outed, secrets that some people want off the radar. Mainly Kyah who has a huge secret that not even her brothers know about. When Kyah finds out one particular secret about her brother Harley it welcomes her to a world of alcohol, sex, violence - which she hates for a good reason - & of course more bad boys.

Welcome to college life.


25. Depression.


-Kyah's Pov-



When I opened my eyes it the room was bright. I yawned as pushed myself upright so I was sitting up. I looked and seen Justin and Harley watching the TV but because I moved the turned to me. “How are you feeling?“ Harley asked me. “I’m fine, very well rested actually.” I smiled at him.









He looked at me confused and I frowned. “What?” I asked. “Are you okay?” He asked, I nodded. “Sure I am.” I said and he nodded but looked at me warily. “Are you okay?” I asked because he was acting a little strange. He didn’t reply as nurse Anna walked in.
“Hey, nurse Anna.” I smiled bringing my attention to her.
















She smiled back but I gasped when she looked at me. “Anna, what happened to your face? Who did that to you?” I almost cried.
She had a very big bruise on her right eye and her jaw was swollen. It looked so painful. Harley gaped at me as well as Justin who hadn’t spoke to me since I woke up. “Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked. Anna smiled. “Don’t worry about it Kyah, it’s nothing.” She said as she came around and checked my vitals.
















“Are you kidding me Anna? Look at your face it is to something, who did that to you?” I pressed and she sighed. “Hon, relax for me and I’ll explain.” She said and I nodded as she sat beside me.





“Yesterday you had a manic episode. You said and did stuff you didn't mean.” She said and I laughed. “No, I didn’t. I mean I was annoyed at Harley but I feel asleep during our conversation. I think physiotherapy wiped me out.” I said. “Why are you lying?” Harley asked and I snapped my head to him. “Lying? What do you mean, I’m not lying.” I frowned.
He looked a me with mixed emotions, I could tell the main one he was feeling was anger but I don‘t know why. “Anna, what’s going on”? I asked turning my attention back to her. She frowned at my confusion and brushed my bangs out of my face. “Like I said you had a manic episode yesterday. Something made you angry enough to become aggressive.” She trailed off and I put my hands to my mouth.
















“Are you saying… I…. I did that to you?” I asked and she nodded.
“I’m not angry with you.” She added quickly. I began crying. “Are you sure it was me?” I sniffled. “Yeah, we’re sure.” Harley grimaced. Anna hissed at him, actually hissed. “She can’t remember, it’s not her fault.” She stated to him. Doctor Chance came into the room and seen me crying. “Did I really do that to her face?” I asked him and he nodded. “I thinks she playing dumb, she has to know what’s she has done.” Harley snapped and that did it for me I burst into sobs. “Outside. Now.” Doctor Chance snapped to Harley and Justin who followed him outside the room. I heard bits of the conversation but not much over my cries. “I told you when she’s in an episode it’s not her. It happens in some people, they can’t remember a manic episode what they say or do…. You saying that has upset her further….. She is clearly upset over what she did to Anna and you going at her for something she cant remember will worsen the situation…. No, she doesn‘t recall any of what she did…. To her it will seem like we are making it up, she has no recollection of what happen to a certain point when her brain knocked off… her dosage needs to be increased” I could only hear what Doctor Chance said for the most part.

















“Anna, I am so sorry.” I balled. "What else did I do?" She hugged me tightly. “Don’t you apologize. You, um, just hit me, said a few mean things to your brothers and broke up with Justin but we explained it wasn't you ” She said and I cried harder, how can she said that when I did that to her face and When I broke up with Justin and said mean things to my brothers! I am a horrible person. “I want to be on my own.” I sniffled. She nodded and left the room. I heard her raise her voice to whoever wanted to come back inside. I laid on my side and cried for a long time. Who’s to say something like this hasn’t happened before if I can’t remember what happened yesterday. I thought of all the bad things that is wrong with me and then I thought of Anna’s face. Lovely nurse Anna who cared for me from day one even when I didn’t know she was around me because of the coma, she was still there. I hurt her, marked her, wounded her. Then Harley's anger towards me and Justin’s silence.

















I felt like absolute crap. I didn’t want to do that to anyone I cared about again. That’s when I first thought of ending it. I never ever thought about harming myself before but right now I really felt like just doing it. I sat up on my bed, the door was opened so people who walked past could see in. I frowned, they didn’t trust me which was probably a smart thing to so for what I wanted to do. I reached over to the vase next to my bed. I took the flowers out of them and sat them nicely on my bed. I knew I wouldn’t have much time when they heard this so I knew I had to just do it quickly. I let the vase fall to the ground and it smashed on the floor making a lot of noise. I reached down and picked up and big piece of glass. I held it to my wrist as bodies appeared the door. I looked up tears still blurred my vision. My eyes locked with Justin’s he seen the way my hands was positioned and he shook his head. “Baby, no.” He whispered. “I’m hurting people.” I said and he shook his head. “Please Kitten, no.” He pleaded again and took a step into the room I frowned then looked to Anna beside him, the bruise of her face stood out clear as day. I smiled at her and Harley screamed. I didn’t feel it as I dragged the glass across my wrist.

















I didn’t get a chance to try and to the same with my other wrist because a firm hand wrapped around my cut wrist. “Let go.” I said calmly. Justin forced me to look at him. “Never.” He said. I couldn’t feel pain but I was still wide awake. Bright red blood was everywhere but Justin kept the pressure on until Doctor Chance ran into the room. This dude is always on call I thought as I began to feel a little sick. I saw a needle in his hands. He ran over and pressed it into my other arm and the last thing I remember was Justin mouthing I love you as my eyes drifted closed.

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