Afraid *Luke Hemmings FanFic*

*5 Seconds of summer fanfic*

Ashlie has an overprotective dad. but when he is on a two week trip she meets Luke. Instantly she is in love but is also afraid. With her recently broken heart she doesn't want to hurt again. Can Luke fix that?


6. Ash

Ashlie's POV:

It became to much now. It had been 2 hours since Ashton kissed me. 2 hours since I found out he cuts. I hurt so much. But why? I was with Luke and no doubt did I love him with my body heart and soul to death. I sat on my bed curled in a ball crying softly. Why me? It feels like I was thrown into some unexplainable game. As soon as someone was brought in to my life, they were inexplicably ripped out of my grasp. No Ashton wasn't ripped from my grasp. But I feel like I was ripped from his. I don't know why. I was like a heavy brick in the middle of an ocean. Gravity wanted me and claimed I needed to sink. And drown. But I wouldn't let myself. I still held my head above water. But through all this I felt like a major hypocrite. I was wearing shorts. Slowly my fingers ran up my thighs. Running over the many bumps and crevices. I looked down and focused on the scars that criss crossed my thighs. I hadn't cut in 2 years. Slowly they were fading and I was glad about that. Never did I want to go back down that lonely path. Instead I  yanked my shorts off. I pulled on some sweatpants and tied my hair in a bun. No. I wouldn't allow myself to fall into that abyss. I am happy and that's all that matters. I knew then and there what I had to do. I would go talk to Ash. I know when I was in my pit of darkness all I wanted was for someone to hold me and tell me it would be all right. Ashton needed someone and I wasn't about sit by and watch as his cuts got worse and deeper. No way in hell. SO I trudged down the stairs and into the kitchen. Ashton hadn't moved. I sat down at the table and rested my hand on his. "Ashton." I said low enough for him to hear me but not to loud to wake anyone. I gripped his hand. I began again "Ashton. I'm not mad. Hurt, Yes. But never could I be mad at you. I, to, have harmed myself. I know what it's like to be on the other end. I remember I just wanted someone to hold me and tell me they were there for me and I wasn't alone. So that's what I'm doing. Ash your not alone. You will never be alone. For as long as I am here I will fight this battle with you and for you. Okay? I love you Ashton. Forever." BY the time I was finished I had tears in my eyes along with Ashton. He hugged me and kissed my cheek. He wasn't alone and he promised to stop. That's what mattered.

*****************************PLEASE READ AUTHOR"S NOTE

sorry for the recent not-so-long chapters but I hope I'm making up for it by updating frequently. SO this is just a filler sort of. Now guys if you ever feel like u need to hurt yourself please please please talk to me. I've been on both ends of it. The helpful and the harmful side. SO I know what it's like. IF you need me text me


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