Goodbye My Lover | Harry Styles

"Turn your words into wisdom"


1. Dear Boys,

Dear Boys,

Im writing this because I care about you. I care about you a lot and I'm so sorry that I have to do this, but I can't take it anymore. Things have just gotten to much for me, I can't do this anymore. All the criticizing and people telling me I'm not good enough, it's getting to much, I need to get away from this. I can't even be around the people I love anymore. The fans follow me everywhere, I can't have any privacy at all. I'm so grateful for getting to live out my dream, but this was not what I wanted. You have to understand that I love you with more than all of my heart, but my insecurities have driven me insane for too long now. Louis, I love you. Your smile can always light up my world, no matter what. Your smile can turn any frown upside down. Remember that time we wen't into that bar and the waitress found out her boyfriend was leaving her and she was pregnant? You immediately turned her frown upside down just by telling her it was going to be okay. I admire you for that ability. Niall, you're the best. Your laugh is the best thing I can ever imagine, it's the thing that I would like to listen to for the rest of my life. Your laugh turns every sad situation into a funny one, I love you so much. Zayn. I know we didn't start off at the right foot, and I'm so sorry. You're still one of my best friends, and you always will be. The time we spent getting drunk while we we're on tour is the best memories I can ever imagine. Liam, you've always been like an extra daddy even though you're only 1 year older than me, you've always taken care of me and I want to thank you for that. You were always there for me when I needed you, you're fantastic Liam. I want you all to know that it's none of yours fault. It's my own, I shouldn't have let it get this far, I should've let it go while I still could, but it's to late now. It's not our girls fault. I love them with all of my heart, and it's not the haters fault. The only person I can ever blame for this is my self. I've been angry at my self for a while now. I can't control my feelings, if I fall in love with someone I do. And I feel trapped. I feel trapped between choosing the love of my life or my entire career. Management shouldn't be able to make people take these kind og choices. I'm in love with you and that will never change, but I won't lose my career either so I'll leave both and hope that I will finally find peace. I want you guys to go on as a band, I can't bear to see you guys drifting apart from each other, I want you to continue being One Direction without me. I know it's going to be hard, but I believe in you guys. I know you will be able to get it to work, and I'll be watching you guys. The experience of being with you guys have been incredible. I'll never forget all of this. The times we performed at the olympics, when we met the queen of England and when we sold out our stadium tour. You have definitely been the best part of my entire life. I know that with time you will eventually move on. You won't care about me anymore and you will forget me. Always remember to believe in yourself, we've all proved  that it's possible to live out your dream if you believe in it. I want to thank you for making me the person I am today, and I am sorry about leaving you this way. I love you guys.

Love, Harry xx. 

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