Love is like fire.It's beautiful and dangerous all at the same time.The perfect balance.That's what makes it the best thing a person could possibly feel.It's a risk,but it's worth it.
5SOS fanfic

Slight use of explicit language (sorry)


54. Chapter 54

Tessa's POV

My heart starts pounding as I realize what I have just done.Everyone else starts cheering, but  I feel like I'm going to be sick.My eyes meet Luke's and I see something I don't recognize.He rushes upstairs but it seems that I am the only one who notices.

I make my way  through the celebrating people and follow Luke to his room.When I get there he is pacing back and forth with a distressed look on his face.Does he not want me to go?

"Why didn't you tell me?!"

"Tell you what Luke?"

"You just led me on.You made me think that you could forgive me?Why didn't you just tell me so I could move on?"

"What the hell are you talking about?!"

"I heard you and Joci talking.I heard you say that you won't forgive me because I hurt you."

"You heard that exact sentence come from my mouth?"

"No."He admits."But I heard enough to know that's what you were talking about."

"You can't just come to conclusions Luke.You are so far off."

"Then what did you say?"He asks, still not believing me.

"I can't tell you."I may have admitted my fear to Joci, but there is no way I am ready to admit it to Luke.

"And why not?I thought you could tell me everything."

"It's not any of your business."

"You have got to be fucking kidding me.It's not my business?! It obviously is because if it didn't have something to do with me you wouldn't be hiding it!"He was right, but I was not about to let him win.Luke's temper has become completely irrational in the past few days.He has never cursed at me like that and honestly there was no reason for him to.If I don't want to share something with him then he should respect my privacy.

"Just leave it alone Luke."

"Get out."

"Please just-"

"I said get out."

"You have got to stop acting like this."

"Whether you decide to accept it or not, you made me this way."He said coldly before shutting the door in my face.


Calum's POV

After a few minutes of celebration with Joci and the boys I realize Tessa and Luke are no where to be seen."Um do you guys know where Luke and Tessa went?"

"Probably off somewhere making up and/or making out."Joci replies.

I want to believe her, but I just feel like something is off."I'm gonna go check on them."I say heading upstairs.

"Okay but if you get scarred for life you can't say I didn't warn ya."I nod and then go straight to Luke's room.I knock, but get no answer so I decide to look inside.Luke is laying on his bed looking pissed off.

"What's wrong with you?"I ask.

"None of your fucking business."He grumbles.

"Alright what happened."I say, ignoring his swearing.

"I said it isn't your business Cal."

"You're my best friend.It's kind of my job to make it my business."

"I'm just tired."He sighs.

"Don't lie to me.What happened and where is Tessa?"

"I don't know and I don't really care.This is her fault."He says completely disregarding my first question.

"Tell me what happened Luke."I demand.My patience was starting to wear thin.

"She wouldn't tell me.She wouldn't tell me what she said and it pissed me off."

"Why does it matter?"

"I heard her say something to Joci and I think she said that she wasn't going to forgive me, but she won't tell me and it's frustrating because I don't even know what I did!"He gets louder with each word and I can tell that he is getting upset."I don't even know what I did Cal.How am I supposed to fix it?"

"Well you can start by not getting so angry at her."I say quietly.I can tell it's not what he wants to hear,but the truth hurts.

"I can't help it.She jut makes me so...crazy.It's like I can't help myself.Whenever she's near me my feelings are ten times more intense and anger is the only thing I can stand to feel right now because as soon as I let go of it I'll break."

"I don't know what to tell you."

"Don't say that.Please don't say that.I need help.I can't fix this by myself."

"You're the only one who can fix it Luke.You're the only one who can fix her."


Luke's POV

Somewhere deep down I know he's right, but every time I get near her I can't control myself and things end up worse than they already are.That's when I get an idea.


Tessa's POV

My tears have dried but only because I don't have any left.The past week has left me so broken and empty...My thoughts are interrupted by the sound of paper sliding across the floor.I sit down with my back to the door and I can tell Luke is sitting on the other side by the electricity coursing through my body.I'll never understand the way my body reacts to him.

I open the note that he slid under the door and start to read.



I'm sorry.I really am I just keep messing up.Everything has unravelled since America na d now I just don'y know how to react.This is all completely new to me.I'm not used to fighting with you.

That being said, I take all the blame.I was so far off when I said that you were the one who turned me into that monster because it was all me.I never wanted to hurt you and I know that it's my fault that you were ever upset in the first place.

Now that I'm done with that there are a few things I have never told you.I figured I'd put them in here to make the mood a little bit lighter.1)I watch everything you do so I know what makes you happy and how I can make you laugh. 2) I like it when you play with my hair even if it's not manly.3) I hate the fact that you have so much control over me, but at the same time I love it and sometimes I feel like it's the only thing holding me together.4) I'm scared to death that one day you'll find someone better.Someone who's smarter and has Taylor Lautner abs.5) I love it when you fall asleep in my arms because it's makes me feel like I finally have a purpose in life, to make you happy and keep you safe.6) I have cologne hidden in the house somewhere because I know how you like to steal the stuff that's in my room.7)I still have no earthly idea what to get you for your birthday so if you could drop a few hints every so often that'd be great.

I know this note is basically just me rambling, but the main thing I wanted you to know is that even if  this doesn't work out you're the only one for me and I won't find anybody else.You're my everything and  just the thought of having to live without you gives me unbearable pain.The fact is I love you and even though the words are over-used and not given much credit, I mean it with everything that I am and all I can do is hope that when you say them, you mean it too.Just come back to me, please.

I'm sorry for everything,



I can't seem to hold back the tears.I thought I was done crying, but who can blame me.I open the door and throw my arms around Luke.He almost falls back in surprise but he manages to catch himself.

"I missed you."I say quietly.

His eyes widen,"So does this mean-"



Sorry if this chapter is too (how do I put this) mushy.I feel like a softy now.I need to go break some stuff lol




Hello, friends. Yes I'm talking to my fans not Tessa because that's what we have the discussions page for. I don't write AN's very much because I like to get straight to the point and not worry about you having to read it unless it's totally important. But apparently Tessa's turning into a softy on me but that's okay cause the other day I turned into a softy on her. I have borrowed an idea from the author's I read and if you would like to ask my characters questions or me or Tess, then say who your question is for and what it is in the comments. I will answer all of them as soon as the next chapter comes. Sorry for bugging you with this long note and if you read this whole thing comment I love Joci's watch. Thanks for reading. I love you all. 


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