Love is like fire.It's beautiful and dangerous all at the same time.The perfect balance.That's what makes it the best thing a person could possibly feel.It's a risk,but it's worth it.
5SOS fanfic

Slight use of explicit language (sorry)


31. Chapter 31

Ashton's POV

I knew this was going to be hard.Not just on me,but her too.I knew I wasn't going to have long with her before we left I just didn't know how to tell her.When we got home she was all giggles and she was completely happy.The kind of happiness you would see in a child.Carefree.No worries.She just knew that everything was okay and she was happy.

It killed me to know I was about to ruin that.

"Hey Joci?"

"Yeeees?"She dragged out.

"I need to tell you something."Her face went from happy to questioning to concerned.

"Ashton what's going on?"

"Well...you see...I'm kind of leaving soon...and uh...we won't be able to see each other that much..."


Joci's POV

Wait WHAT?!

"What are you talking about?"I showed no emotion in my voice because I had no idea what I was feeling.The best way to describe it was numb.Static.

"The boys and I are going on this tour and well you and Tessa are going to be staying here..."

"You can't do this to me."

"You know I don't want to leave you.We just got back together after all,but this is our dream."

"Why are you just telling me this?!Why did you take my heart back just to break it again?! I just got you back!"

"Wait.I can't believe this your MAD?!"

"Yes!Ashton you KNOW how much this hurts! I JUST GOT YOU BACK AND NOW YOU WON'T EVEN BE HERE!"


"I'M UPSET BECAUSE YOUR DREAM DOES'NT INVOLVE ME!"I stormed off,but was pulled back by my wrist.Ashton pulled me into his chest and wouldn't let me go.

"LET ME GO YOU ASSHOLE!"I screamed pounding my fists into his chest while the tears ran down my face.He refused to let go and soon I got tired so I gave in."I can't do this."

"Shh.Joci it's okay.I'm here."

"But you won't be for long."I whispered.

"Let's make the most of the time we have left.I can still visit sometimes too."

"You don't understand Ash,I'm at my breaking point.I can't bend anymore."That was a lie.I had reached my breaking point a while ago.In fact I hadn't even had time to put the broken peices of my heart back together properly from our breakup.I just didn't want him to see how weak I actually was.

"I know,but we can get through this I promise,and when we do we'll come out even stronger."Somehow his words didn't reassure me.In fact I think they were meant for himself more than they were for me.

"I don't want to be alone again."I whispered brokenly.The worst part of all of this was that I wasn't feeling anything at all.I was just numb.It seems like numbwould be better than hurting,but it's not.Pain is just a way of knowing that your alive.Not just existing.When you can't feel anything,that's when you know you're beyond repair,and it scared me to death.

Maybe this was the point of no return.

Maybe my heart would never be whole again.


*Back at Macca's*

Michael's POV

It would be really hard to tell Dani,but I had to tell her.She deserves to know.We had been here since Joci left about two hours ago,just chatting.ani was a really fun person.She didn't take life too serious,but when she needed to be serious she could.She had a fun-loving personalityand really was pretty much a female Ashton.

"Okay my turn,would you rather lick a hairy armpit or a sweaty manboob."

"Ew."I said srunching up my face."Well the manboob thing would be gay,but a hairy armpit....probably the manboob."

"Good choice.Your turn."

"There's actually something I need to tell you."She instantly frowned and gave me a questioning look.

"Is something wrong."

"Well...The boys and I...we're leaving in a few weeks to go on tour..."

"Oh..."She was silent for a minute,probably debatingwhether or not to break up with me."We can make this work.I know we can.We just have to stay in touch,no matter what,because the second we stop communicating things will go downhill."

"Really?You're not gonna break up with me?"

"No silly I like you,if there's any chance this could work out I'll take it."Without warning I grabbed her faec and kissed her.

"I'm so happy."

"I don't see why this is such a big deal I mean if I did break up with you you could have another girl like that."She said snapping her fingers.

"She wouldn't be you though.You're better than all of those girls.You're perfect.And you're mine.Got it?"She nodded,a smile breaking onto her face.

"We should probably get going now,it's late."I nodded in agreement grabbing the keys and heading out to my car.

"Are you sure you don't want me to drive you home?"

"My car is here."I sighed and kissed her one last time before sliding in my car.

"I'll see you later."She waved as I put the car in gear and pulled out of Macca's.


Luke's POV

The car ride home was silent which was foreign to me.We always had something to talk about,but this time was different.The whole time I held her hand rubbing my thumb across the top of it.I just needed to touch her,to feel her warmth and know that this wasn't all a dream.Feeling her skin against mine was like breathing.I couldn't live withoutit and I didn't even have to think about.It was just subconcious.

I could tell by the way she refused to look at me that she was crying.

"Please look at me."She just shook her head and kept staring out the window,crying silently.It killed me to know that I couldn't do anything about it."Just talk to me.Do somethig to let me know you're okay."

"That's just it Luke,I'm not okay."Her voice broke at the end breaking my heart with it.I pulled over on the side of the road and unbuckled my seatbelt turning to face her.

"Look at me."Slowly she turned her head,making me wish that she didn't.Her eyes were red and sore-looking.They had faded from her normal bright blue to a gray,lifeless color.Her cheeks were tearstained and flushed and every now and then a hiccup would escape her lips.

"I-I don't want you to see me like this."She whispered looking down.I grabbed her chin and pulled itback up to where her eyes met mine.

"We're in this together.We can make it through this.It's just a bump in the road.I meant it when I said that we were made for each other."She searched my eyes tryng to see if I believed what I said.

"I just don't want to lose you."

'You won't I promise.It's not possible for you to lose me.I'm yours."She wrapped her arms around me still sniffiling."And you're mine."

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