dont let me go (larry stylinson)

Larry. It's more than a name. Thanks to the directioners Larry now has a meaning. It symbolises two mens love for eachother. Those men are Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson. The rumours are going out of control and neither of them can handle it anymore. They just want to be happy....


9. cuts?

harrys p.o.v


the twitter questione flashed up on screen

'harry, is it true you tried to kill yourself? if so why? xx' I looked at my fans. the fact that they were here, seeing me tonight meant that they already supporting me.

"yes guys. its true" I said and lifted the sleeve f my tshirt up revealing the many healing cuts. the fans gasped and I put my sleeve down.

"I met this person. they were amazing. I developed feelings for them. I grew to love them.but they didn't love me. they had their own relationship with someone else. I started to get depressed. its a horrid feeling depression. you feel as if the whole world is against you. you feel as if the sky is grey and there is no chance of sunlight. there are days where all you want to do is sit at home and zone out from the world. some days are great. you feel happy and everythings the way it used to be. but one little thing can send you back, deep into the world of depression. I got so bad and I couldn't handle it anymore. I put the blade to my wrist and cut. at first it hurt and I wondered what I had done. but the more and more cuts I did the better it felt. all the pain I was feeling mentally was being drowned out by the physical pain. my body went limp and I fell into a state of unconsciousness. but I was still able to hear. only for a while at least. I heard the door shut showing the boys were home. for the first time in this whole process I wanted to be saved. I heard the door get kicked open and Louis scream. it was only when Louis screamed and I heard their worried desperate voices that I realised what a mistake I had made. my whole life seemed to flash before my eyes. memories of my mum, my sister and my dad. memories of the boys. so many memories. happiness filled me and I felt a little happier. the happiest I have felt in months. then I thought of them. the person who I love so very much. I felt my heart beat harder as their sweet gentle face entered my head. they gave me a reason to fight. fight against my own demons and battle this. they gave me a reason to keep my heart beating. its their memory that kept me alive let this be a lesson to all of you. self harm and suicide doesn't solve anything. would I be with them if I died. I realised the effect my death could have on the boys and I would hate for them to have go go through this. don't let your familys go through that. be strong. don't let yourself go. remember that your biggest enemy is you. I love you guys and im so glad to be here to see you all." I said. Louis stared at me and I saw a tear roll down his cheek.

"im sorry, I have to um go" he said into his microphone before running off stage. what was wrong with him.

we had to carry on the rest of the concert without Louis. I was so worried about him. when we finally got off stage I ran to the place I knew he would be.

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