not any bitch

"i like you . I like . you . I'll admit it you're annoying as fuck , you don't stop bitching at all . sometimes you agitate me to the brink of insanity , But when you laugh , i want to laugh . when you smile , i wish that I'm the one who made you smile !" he spoke

1D fanfic


7. chapter 7

Niall P.O.V:


 I wanted to ask Barbara to go out with me , i really liked her her humor and that she is not afraid to speak . not like all the other girls . but but i try to tell her and something wrong always happens . that song Harry sang was properly for her . well she will have two songs one by me and Harry's let see who she likes . i just want her to be mine.  i looked around and saw her back stage . she smiled and waved . i waved back . 


  "don't ever think of her ,Niall she is mine" i looked and it was Harry kinda whispering . what the hell 

   "did she approve ? when she does i won't think nor talk to you and her" i fake smiled  . its does not mean any thing if he wants her and she does not ! i give him the nasty look ;i did not want a girl to split between us , but Harry could have any girl and he is a player he does it for fun and his dad won't approve . she came to the stage .

    "hello everybody , this is a little something i wrote . for my long gone friend Alex" she spoke with her beautiful voice of hers . is he dead ? or something 



  "He rolled up, asked him what he was sippin' on
He said lean, You want to hit it, dawg?
That's the same stuff
Weezy's sippin' huh?
And tons of other rappers that be spittin' hard
Yup yup five a bone
When he passed him that styrofoam the easter pink, heard it in a rhyme before
Finally got to see what all the hype was on
And then he took a sip, sittin' in the Lincoln thinkin' he was pimpin' as he listen to the system
Little did he know that it was just as addictive as bass
Not the kind of hit from the kick drum
Hot box, let the bass bump
Take it to the face, gulp
Months later the use went up
Every blunt was accompanied by the pink stuff
But Goddamn he loved that feelin'
Purple rain coated in the throat
Just so healin'
Medicine alleviate the sickness
Liquid affix and it comes with a cost
Wake up, cold sweat, scratchin', itchin'
Trying to escape the skin that barely fit him
Gone, get another bottle just to get a couple swallows
Headed towards the bottom couldn't get off it
Didn't even think he had a problem
Though he couldn't sleep without gettin' nauseous
Room spinnin', thinkin' he might've sipped just a little bit too much of that cough syrup
His eyelids closed shut
Sat back in the chair clutchin' that cup
Girlfriend came and a couple hours later said his name shook him but he never got up

He never got up, he never got up
We live on the cusp of death thinkin' that it won't be us
It won't be us, it won't be us, it won't be us
Nah, it won't be us

Now he just wanted to act like them
He just wanted to rap like him
Us as rappers underestimate the power and the effects that we have on these kids
Blunt passed, ash in a tin, pack being pushed, harassed by the feds
The fact of it is most people that rap like this talkin' about some shit they haven't lived
Surprise, you know the drill
Trapped in a box, declined record sales
Follow the formula violence, drugs, and, sex sells
So we try to sound like someone else
This is not Californication
There's no way to glorify this pavement
Syrup, Percocet, and an eighth a day will leave you broke, depressed, and emotionally vacant
Despite how Lil Wayne lives
It's not conducive to being creative
And I know 'cause he's my favorite
And I know 'cause I was off that same mix
Rationalize the shit that I'd try after I listen to dedication
But he's an alien, I'd sip that shit, pass out or play Playstation
Months later I'm in the same place
No music made, feeling like a failure
And trust me it's not dope to be 25 and move back to your parent's basement
I've seen my people's dreams die
I've seen what they can be denied
And "weeds not a drug" - that's denial
Groundhog Day life repeat each time
I've seen Oxycontin take three lives
I grew up with them, we used to chief dimes
I've seen cocaine bring out the demons inside
Cheatin' and lyin'
Friendship cease, no peace in the mind
Stealin' and takin' anything to fix the pieces inside
Broken, hopeless, headed nowhere
Only motivation for what the dealer's supplying
That rush, that drug, that dope
Those pills, that crumb, that roach
Thinkin' I would never do that, not that drug
And growing up nobody ever does
Until you're stuck, lookin' in the mirror like I can't believe what I've become
Swore I was goin' to be someone
And growing up everyone always does
We sell our dreams and our potential
To escape through that buzz
Just keep me up, keep me up
Hollywood here we come" she rapped tears coming down her face she whipped them . people loved it ! they cheered and said beautiful words .        "come here love , it all good" i spoke as i hugged her , it was just like haven she hugged me even tighter . while it was time to go because the class ended he told us that next class he will have the other 10 ; I'm one of them to sing . she was really sad tears on her face . she went out to her next class as Harry came closer and all the class went out . he held me from the collar .      "are you up for this?" he shouted . i just nodded and closed my eyes knowing he will beat me . he throw me to the wall and kept kicking me . i looked up at him as he looked back and i stood up and went for it it as i punched him in the face  then he punched me in the eyes . i held him from his neck and kicked him in the place and he falls on the floor as i was getting dizzy and I my self fell . 
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