Just An Option - A Harry Styles Fanfic.

Being bestfriends with Harry Styles may seem like a dream come true for most girls, but for Annabelle Hastings, it might be like living a nightmare.

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22. Chapter 21.

*Anna's P.O.V.*

The first week of school had been terrible to say the least.

Watching Harry and Georgie talk on and on and on about things I didn't care about every morning, listening to Winona's amazing love life, having Conor be a proper asshole to me, seeing Harry at basketball practice every single day, playing COD with Liam and lying to him about my cutting, feeling insecure every time someone looked at for more than 5 seconds, TORTURE IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT.

To make things worse, the weird dreams haven't stopped, and sometimes Harry's part of them, and other times Liam is.

I just wish I could sleep for the next few years of my life, at least till college. College is literally going to be my escape, and I couldn't wait. But sadly, I had to have dinner with Georgie, Winnie and the boys tonight.

I could care less about what I wanted to wear, but for some reason, I cared. No matter how many times Harry showed me that he didn't care about me, there was always a part of me that would somehow be madly in love with him, or so I thought.

After hours of playing videogames, and ignoring the constant beeping of my phone, I finally made up my mind to go decide what to wear.

Within an hour of contemplating and looking around, I'd chosen a yellow tank top, black leather jacket and black skinny jeans to wear.

I walked into my bathroom, and untied my hair, letting the loose curls fall on my shoulders. I certainly didn't like how my hair ever looked, but I was too lazy to do anything, and it didn't look too crazy, so I guess this should do.

Not bothering with anything except a little eyeliner, I put some on and stepped into my bedroom, looking for as many bracelets as I could find. To make sure Liam wouldn't get suspiscious I put the same amount of bracelets on each hand covering the scars, scabs and cuts perfectly.

I glanced at the clock, realizing that I should have left 20 minutes ago, and so I grabbed my bag with all the necessities for the evening and stepped out of my house after wearing my white converse.

I checked my phone while walking towards my car but looked up for a minute, hoping Conor wasn't snooping around. A wave of relief washed over me as I discovered that he wasn't here.

The place wasn't so far away, so I probably won't reach there that late anyway, besides, the boys are coming from their homes, I'm sure they'd take longer than me.

As I reached there, I realized that I was wrong, since everyone except for Zayn was here.

"Hey, Anna! Come on, sit down." Harry gestured to the empty seat between him and Liam. As I neared the table, a chorus of "hi" and "hey" began, and I quietly waved at everyone and mumbled a feeble, "Hey, guys."

I looked around the table and saw Georgie next to Harry, with Winnie and Niall next to her respectibely and an empty space between Louis and Liam.

We were talking about really random things, and I wasn't really part of the conversation, just talking now and then.

"You seem really quiet, love. Is everything alright?" Liam whispered soothingly in my ear. "I'm okay, just a little tired from school." I mumbled, mustering up a fake smile.

Zayn arrived just as we were deciding our order, right on time.

"VAS HAPPENNIN'?!" Zayn yelled, rushing towards our table. "Hey, Zayn!" all of us said, somewhat together. 

We proceeded to order, and once the order had been placed, we all did some catching up, and Harry, Georgie, Winnie, Niall and I talked about school since we're the only ones who'd started.

After a while Harry had a serious look on his face, as if he was contemplating something.

"You okay there, Haz?" I said, itching a little closer to him, taking in his amazing scent. "Hm? I'm just, wondering if I should tell you guys about something." he whispered in his deep husky voice. "About what?" I asked, dumbfounded. "You guys might hate me." he whispered. "Harry, we're your bestfriends, we won't hate you." I said, trying to comfort him. "You might regret saying that." he said, before facing everyone else.

The food and drinks had arrived, so we were all silent, sipping our own drinks and eating our food. The only sound heard was the sound of ice being moved around in liquid, the slurping of liquid using straws, the sound of utensils being used, and the minimal sound of chewing.

For some reason, I had this weird feeling that what was coming, wasn't good at all. My stomach felt sick, and I wanted to run to the washroom and let it all out, but I knew full and well that there was nothing to let out of my empty stomach.

"There's something Georgie and I have wanted to tell you guys, please don't freak out." Harry started. "Did you both go all the way?!" Zayn blurted out, hoping to make the situation funny, it sort of did, and everyone laughed, except for me. All I did was let out a fake laugh.

"We've started dating, and we wanted to let you guys know before the paparazzi did." Georgie whispered, holding onto Harry's hand for dear life.

At that very moment, I literally felt my heart break, and I think heard the "snap" noise. I tried my best not to show any sort of emotion, but I couldn't help but feel pain. So much pain.

But nobody yelled. The silence was almost deafening. I looked around, hoping that I wasn't deaf, but I could hear the sound of everyone's breathing, the sound of my heart beating in my ears, the sound of my conscience, laughing at me and mocking me, for falling in love with my bestfriend.

"Guys, say something." said Harry, turning to look at me. I instantly panicked, realizing that his eyes were on me, and I quickly managed to blurt out a few words. "Wow, I'm really happy for you guys, congrats! When's the party?" I questioned, hoping I didn't sound hurt. "I'm happy for you guys too, I mean, I've always wanted you two to be together, ever since I've met you two!" Winnie said, finally finding her voice.

Harry remained silent. He simply looked down at his and Georgie's intertwined fingers. I started playing with my bracelets, as I felt hurt by his ignorance. Actually, who am I kidding, he never cared about me anyway, so why would he care now?

I felt like running away from this place, it felt like a nightmare that I just wish I could wake up from, but I couldn't. I thought we'd stay in silence forever, but I was wrong as I heard a weak voice from across the table.

"And you never, not even once thought that it was necessary to tell me?" I looked up to meet a damp-eyed Louis, he looked hurt. "Louis, I-" "Don't, Harold!" Louis cut him off before he could explain himself. "We're bestfriends, I knew you liked her, you talked about her all the fucking time, what happened to us telling each other everything, Harry? I tell you everything that happens in my life, even if it's a late night movie date with Eleanor at my apartment! I act like a teenage boy, and I tell you every detail, as if it was our first date, and what about you? You never even told me that you liked her, you never even told me that you've considered dating her, you never even told me that you're scared, you never even told me that you've talked to her about it, and you never even fucking told me that you started dating her!" he almost yelled, his voice cracking multiple times. I knew exactly how it felt, but I didn't want to yell at him, I didn't want to let him know how hurt I was, I didn't want him to know that I loved him.

"Louis, we're sorry, we were just trying this out, we're bestfriends, there was a lot at stake. We didn't tell everyone because we didn't want to ruin things with you guys, we know it'd get awkward if it didn't work out. We even had his fans to think about, and we're scared to death about all the hate. We didn't even start dating before last weekend." Georgie started. "Please, forgive us, we knew this'd happen, but it was a chance we had to take, we didn't want to be the cause of conflicts within our group." Harry explained.

"I may not have known you as long as Anna has, but I can tell that even she's lost, she doesn't have a single clue of what's going on. I get where you guys are coming from, but I wouldn't have been this pissed if you at least told us that you liked her. I don't blame you guys, don't end your relationship because of me, because obviously, my consent isn't needed. I just need some time to think about this. I'm done." Louis said, before getting up to leave.

I felt tears brim my eyes as Louis left, he almost spoke my mind, I was too much of a coward, I didn't tell the truth, I didn't speak when I had the chance, I blew it. I lost him.

Now I do regret saying that I won't hate Harry, because I do. I hate him, but more than that I hate myself.

Every other sound except for Zayn, Niall and Liam trying to comfort Harry, and Winnie trying to comfort Winnie was blocked out from my hearing.

Did I do something wrong? Didn't they trust me? Was I not paying attention? Why didn't they tell me before? Did they try, but I just didn't notice? Was I too selfish? Was I not important enough in their lives?

As all these thoughts ran through my mind, I suddenly felt overwhelmed by all of the emotions that I was feeling at that moment. It was getting harder and harder to breathe, and I was trying as hard as I could not to faint or start crying hysterically.

As I noticed that everyone had begun to return to their seats, I quickly decided to check my phone and pretend I got a text, and put up a really weird expression on my face.

"Something came up, I'm so sorry, guys. Harry and Georgie, please don't be sad, you guys are amazing together, I support Garry, stay strong, I will see you both soon, good night everyone!" I said, grabbing all of my stuff and leaving some money for my salad and drink before quickly scrambling out of my seat. "I'll come with you," Liam offered. "No, thanks! They need Daddy Direction more than I do." I quickly declined and smiled weakly before getting out of there, as quickly as possible, and just like every time, a stupid little part of me hoped Harry would come running after me, but he didn't. He never did, he never would.

Tears threatened to leave my eyes as I got into my car and started driving home. The radio kept playing love songs and that made me want to cry even more.

By the time I reached home, I felt completely numb. It felt like I'd turned off my emotions like Elena did in The Vampire Diaries. I simply did not care anymore.

I lcoked my front door behind me and slumped down against it. My phone was beeping like crazy, someone was probably calling me, but I just ignored it as I pushed my bracelets aside and took out my new bestfriend from my wallet and slid it through my wrists repeatedly. I felt nothing, and that's exactly what I wanted.

I thought I saw a man brought to life,
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified,
He showed me what it was to cry.
Well you couldn't be that man I adored,
You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for,
But I don't know him anymore.
There's nothing where he used to lie,
My conversation has run dry,
That's what's going on, nothing's fine I'm torn.

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel,
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor.
Illusion never changed into something real,
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn,
You're a little late, I'm already torn.

Everything I ever wanted, was gone forever, and there was nothing I could ever do about it, because he was never mine to begin with.



**(A/N): Hey guys! I was so intensely focused while typing this chapter that I forgot to drink my hot tea and I realized when I was halfway done and it was cold by then. :C
But that's alright, I was quite excited to type this chapter (hence the quick update), it's a really important chapter, and as you have noticed, it's a major plot twist. I'm sorry to break the hearts of the Hanna fans (I'm a Hanna fan myself, but that doesn't mean I favour Hanna, Lanna is adorable too) but it's a part of the story, and it's what I had in mind, I can't change that. Sorry again! But I'm sure you guys won't be disappointed later on in the story, hang tight!
As for Lanna fans, you guys will be in for a treat very soon, so don't worry.
To all of you reading this story, I'm very grateful to each and every one of you, your support has given me the inspiration to write more, and update more often, so please keep those likes coming!
If you see a update on any of my stories (this one or His Damsel In Distress, for which I'm working on an update) please let your friends know too, because I've come to notice that most of you don't know when I update, so it goes unnoticed for a few weeks.
That's all, I will shut up now, hit "like" if you like this chapter, thank you!xx**

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