Demi's mum runs off unexpectedly to be with her boyfriend and leaves Demi and her two brothers alone in a small run down flat in the suburbs of downtown Los Angeles and doesn't leave any contact or information. So Demi and her brothers are left with no food and no money and left to fend for themselves that is until Justin comes along.

How will Demi cope? Will Justin be her saviour? Will her mother ever come back?


6. Blades

After the troubles of last night we started the new day, same old pattern getting dressed eating breakfast but when Jackson came downstairs his tear-strained face broke my heart. 

"Please Demi I don't want to go to school, I don't want to get picked on again, please don't make me go!" he burst into tears on fell onto the floor refusing to get up. I couldn't make him go I knew what it was like to be bullied and I couldn't put him through that hell so I phoned the school and told them he was ill.

I took Adam to pre-school so that he didn't have to walk on his own, it was a good idea to leave Jackson on his own for a while so he could calm down and get himself sorted.

When I got back Jackson wasn't downstairs so I went upstairs I heard music coming from his room so I went inside. He had his back turned to me and was growling and seething. I opened the door and walked in front of him and what I saw broke my heart, he screamed and I screamed he dropped the knife on the floor just as a pool of blood gathered on his wrist.. how could things have got this bad for him? I didn't know that it was having such a bad effect on him. I picked him up and carried him to the bathroom. I raided the cupboards and got a towel and some bandages I sat with him pressing the towel on the wound. 

''Why have you done this you silly boy?! Jackson please never do this again, if you're upset talk to me self-harming is not the way to solve things, promise me you will never do this again, EVER!'' I pleaded as tears streamed down my face.

''I promise'' he mumbled guiltily.

Justin didn't turn up that day but he did text me saying that he wasn't going to see me today but he never said why he wasn't coming up but I didn't care I was too busy with Jackson and he couldn't of stayed if he came anyway. 

I sat with Jackson while we watched Cribs, he cuddled up next to me whimpering at his cuts. After a while, I turned the television off and sat him up so he was facing me.

''Jackson, I'm not mad I'm just upset that you've done this, I'm not upset with you I'm upset that you feel this down that you feel like you had to do this, what has happened that's so bad?'' I asked him calm.

''I told Carl that mum wasn't around a lot these days and she had gone away for a while and when I did Ma walked past and came up to me and told me that my mum was a slut and broke up his aunty and uncle because she was shagging his uncle behind everyone's back and then he carried on calling her a slut and a slag every time he walked past me and it got me mad'' he explained tear welling in his eyes.

"It will be fine soon mum is coming back soon and she is not a slag I'm sure he is just making up stories mum loves you and not matter what anyone says you remember that ok?" I told him and gave him a hug, I could feel his body shake with sobs against my chest and it broke my heart to see him upset but if I told him mum wasn't coming back he would be even worse and I couldn't do that to him.

"I know she does but where is she, if she really loved us she would be here and not some where else, has she got a new family Demi?" he asked.

"No! Don't be silly of course she hasn't, she would never do that to us she loves us to much she's just gone on holiday for a while" I lied through my teeth, he made me think, had she gone and got a new family and just left us? No she couldn't have she loves us, she'll have just gone away for a while and forgot to leave us a note of the note went missing, there will be a reasonable explanation for all this mess, I just know it.

I tried to ring her mobile but to no surprise it was turned off and she hadn't left it here so she must have it with her. Adam didn't really notice mum's disappearance he never saw her during the day because he was at pre-school but he knew she was gone, you see mum always used to read him a story at night and I couldn't do it because 'I didn't do it the same as mum', she did all the voices of the people in the story but I didn't know how to do it like mum did so it was useless to try because Adam just got mad and went to sleep anyway. 

I put Adam to bed that night with a recording that mum did before she went away of her reading his favourite book 'We are going on a bear-hunt' he laughed at the voices she did and it broke my heart even more that I had to play a recording of her, she should be here to do it herself. 

I'd never got angry about this situation before but suddenly my blood started to boil and anger rose up inside me I ran downstairs and picked up a knife and did a smooth clean cut across my wrist, it felt good like the blood trickling away was all my trouble's disappearing from my body. I felt stupid but I understood why Adam was doing it, it does help. I stood in the kitchen and did a few more some   deeper than others and just as I was doing a fourth one along the top of my wrist the door of the kitchen swung open and Justin stood in the door way with a look of horror across his face, I dropped the knife and the blood poured from my wrist, and that's when it all went black.

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