The Doubt of Moving On

Liam Payne was once in love. He was head over heels for her. He'd take the moon for her. But she did something that not only hurt him but his friends as well. He doesn't know what to do. All he can do is hang on to the past. Hang on to her. But he knows he needs to move on.
Ruby Adams was once happy. She was head over heels for a guy. She loved her brother more than anything. But the guy she loved did something to her which made her do something to her brother. She's a mess. All she can do is mope around. Not care about anything else. But she knows she needs to move on.
When their fates cross paths, will they finally do what they need to do all along?
*Don't need to read Chasing the Sun for this spinoff*


23. Chapter 22

Chapter 22


"So you finally did it." Louis stated I nodded in answer and he whistled. "Do you feel like a man now?"

"Stop it, Louis. May I remind you how long it took you to 'man' up?" Eleanor teased with a smirk on her face. Louis narrowed his eyes at her. 

"I thought we agreed to make it seem like I did it straight away." He accused and she just shrugged her shoulders. 

"But, Louis, come on. It took you six months! Six! That's half a year." She replied. I suddenly got confused. 

"Wait, are we talking about the sex or the i love you?" I asked. 

"The i love you, you idiot. By the way, who waits for four months to have sex? I did it the first date." Louis teased. 

"He's lying. It took him a month." Eleanor whispered loudly. I chuckled. 

"Babe." Ruby's voice came from the bathroom and I smiled at the couple on my couch and went to go see what Ruby wanted. 

"Yeah?" I asked her as I walked straight through the door. It's been pretty normal lately, she's been half living at mine in the past week when we finally said it. I haven't Louis in a while since he and Eleanor went to Doncaster to visit his family. So he only found out about it today. But Ruby and I have gotten a lot closer since then maybe even closer before the fight. 

She was currently standing in front of the mirror in nothing but a towel that barely covered her body. She turned to face me when I walked in and gave me a smile before turning back to the mirror, applying some cream on her face. 

"Who's here?" She asked. 

"It's El and Louis." I told her and she nodded as she scrubbed the cream in. Then she stepped back and kissed my lips before walking across the hall to my room to put clothes on. I rolled me eyes at her as I followed her in. 

"Do you want to grab lunch with them?" She asked as she pulled on a light blue summer dress. 

"Um, I was kind of thinking of visiting Elise today." I said cautiously, watching her reaction. She froze in the middle of grabbing her shoes from the floor, with her back to me. I couldn't see her face as I say down, waiting for her reaction. To be honest, I had no idea how she would react and I was slightly nervous to know. But as I waited I started to feel relieved in some odd way. 

"Okay, I'll go with them and you can visit her." She said as she sat beside me on the bed to slip on her sandals. 

"I meant I want to visit her with you." I went on. I watched her reaction closely, looking for any sign of irritability or annoyance but there was none. She just pursed her lips and stayed quiet for a while, adjusting the skirt of her dress. After a bit she nodded her head and i tried to hide my surprise. 

"Yeah, I'll go with you." She replied. 

"Are you sure? Because you don't have to, I'm not forcing you to." I told her.

She shrugged. "I'm sure. I'm glad you're letting me see this."

I nodded my head and walked out while she did her hair and make up. I found Eleanor and Louis with a packet of chips in between them with my netflix on playing Orange is the New Black. "Guys, Ruby and I are going to the hospital."

"What?" Louis asked with a mouthful of food. Eleanor slapped his shoulder and gave him a look before he swallowed and repeated his questions. 

"Ruby and I are going to visit Elise." I told them. 

They both looked at me with surprise. "Are you sure?" Eleanor questioned and I nodded my head. "Well, okay then. We're going to stay here, if you don't mind, and finish this kickass show."

I shrugged just as Ruby came out and gave the both of them a hug before grabbing an apple and saying goodbye. We walked out of the building hand in hand, not saying a word. It wasn’t awkward, it was just silent; with me looking around and at her occasionally, and her looking straight ahead while munching on her apple.

“Liam!” A voice shouted from behind the desk of the reception in the hospital. The walk there was long, it stayed silent.

“Hello, Martha.” I greeted, smiling at the middle aged woman that called my name. I haven’t seen her since the last time I came to the hospital which was a little over a month ago. I said hello to her every time I came here which used to be everyday up until I starting being with Ruby. Then I rarely ever came to the hospital. I think in the past four months Ruby and I have been together, I’ve only visited Elise twice which is a big achievement knowing that I used to visit her everyday.

“You haven’t been here in a while.” Martha stated and I nodded.

“Didn’t feel like I had much of a reason to anymore.” I told her with a shrug and she beamed at me then looked at Ruby. “Oh, Ruby. Is this your fortnightly visit? You usually don’t come until fridays.”

Ruby shook her head with a smile. “No, I’m actually here with Liam.”

Martha’s eyebrows shot up. “Are you two together? Now that is news.”

I chuckled and Ruby smiled, gripping my hand tightly. “Yeah, we are.

“How long?” She asked.

“Four months next week.” I replied.

“Well, that’s a first; the guy knowing how long.” Martha chuckled and I smiled. “Well, I won’t keep you. She’s still in the same room and just to let you know,” she leaned in closer, “the doctor said that she’s been looking positive for the past week.”

“Oh, wow. Okay, thanks Martha.” I told her and she gave me a smile and a wave.

I towed Ruby through the maze of halls with the strong sense of familiarity in me. Once we got to her door, i briefly glanced at Ruby who had her lips pursed but her eyes looked confident and ready. I took a deep breath in and opened it. Elise looked exactly as I last saw her, motionless with her eyes open and the heart monitor beeping. 

"Why are her eyes open?" Ruby whispered as if she didn't want Elise to hear. 

"The doctors told me that her mind is too scared to be lucid. Like her body is awake but her mind is still in its comatose state." I told her then I added, "you don't have to whisper, by the way."

She smiled sheepishly before walking to a chair off to the side, avoiding the bed at all costs. I automatically sat in the chair beside the bed, just watching her. 

Her hair was long now, almost up to her waist and her hazel eyes were hazed over. Her breathing was still even and her hands were still limp. I looked over to Ruby and she was just watching Elise, not in a jealous kind of way but in a curious way. 

"Hey, Elise." I said, awkwardly. I usually knew what to say to her whenever I visited her but now with Ruby in the room, I felt like I can't talk to her. It had as much awkwardness as introducing your ex-girlfriend to your actual girlfriend. "Well, it's been a little over a month since I've seen you. And I've, uh, brought Ruby with me. I wanted to introduce her to you." I held my hand out for Ruby and she took it straight away, settling herself on my lap. “Elise, this is Ruby and Ruby this is Elise.”

Ruby didn’t looked as alarmed as I thought she would if she found out how I talk to Elise like she’s awake. But that’s the thing, when someone’s in a coma you talk to them until they wake up, you act like they are awake. “Hi, Elise.” Ruby said quietly.

Ruby looked at me, uncertainly and I gave her a reassuring smile and a kiss on her cheek then looked back to Elise. “Ruby’s really important to me, Elise. You see, I was the absolute worse when you did what you did. I was angry ninety percent of the time and I was just not myself. I was angry at you for so long. For hurting me and my friends; for betraying me; for lying. Then I met Ruby and my god, she changed my life.

“Ever since she bumped into my, she was all I could think about and it distracted me from you. She made me less angry, she made me laugh and smile. She made me feel alive again. 

“I brought her here with me to tell you that I’m not angry anymore and I’m over it. I’ve moved on from what you did and it’s all thanks to Ruby. i love her more than I’ve ever loved anything in my life. I just wanted to tell you that.”

I turned to Ruby and she looked at me with disbelief and something else that I couldn’t pinpoint. I beamed at her, letting her know that everything I just said was true. She helped me move on and not in a rebound kind of way. She helped me move past the hurt and the betrayal. She helped me feel like I didn’t have to be dead because of one incident. She helped me in every way possible. I love her so fucking much.

“Liam-” She started to say but was cut off by a groan. We both looked at the bed and saw that Elise’s eyes were closed and her eyebrows were furrowed, like she was trying to remember something. I was shocked and slightly scared. She just had to wake up just as I told her that I’m not angry anymore.

But then I remembered what the doctor said. Her mind is too scared to be lucid. Was she scared of how I was going to react when she woke up? Was she scared that of me not being able to move past it? Elise, and almost everyone, knew me well enough that I would never be able to live normally after what she did. Was that what she was scared about? What she was waiting for? For me to move and from what she did and be happy before she woke up? 

It was a coward act but somehow, I was grateful she didn’t wake up when she did. Because if she did, I don’t know what I would have done with all the anger I had in me back then. 

Elise’s eyes finally opened and her eyes scanned the room. For some reason I kept thinking that she was still in that state of mind where she wasn’t fully awake but then her body started to move and I knew that she was awake this time. The first thing she did was move her hands to her stomach, feeling for the wound that healed long ago. 

“Ugh.” She groaned as her hands went limp on her stomach. Then her eyes moved to Ruby and I.

I honestly didn’t know what I expected from her at that moment. But the least thing I expected her to do was give me a smile of relief. So I stayed silent, my face expressionless but my insides going crazy of surprise. 






Yes, yes I know how long it took me to write this and jesus I’m so sorry! I hope you all had a good christmas and I hope you all have the best year. 

Btw, I’m writing this in Ruby’s POV :))


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