Lost In the Sea Of Darkness

This is the diary of a bullied girl. Her name is Ivy Danger Devious.She has no one to talk to but she writes everything down in her diary. Everything they say to her, do to her and how she feels. Will things brighten up or will they get worse?


1. 9/12/2006

Dear Diary 
Today was my first day at the juniors. I haven't made any friends but I think I made enemies? In class I went to sit next to my old best friend but she said nastily to me 

"Um what do you think you're doing? You're not welcome next to me."

Lily isn't coming to school for another two weeks. She is really ill and she is in hospital.I wish she was with me. I ended up sitting by myself all day while the other kids snicker and giggle. I could hear them whisper things about me. One of the girls had whispered to her friend saying

"Look at her tummy god shes so fat. Its a good job she doesn't sit on our table at lunch or the table would tip." 

When I looked at the mirror I would see my ribs but now I see me being fat. I wish I looked like the other girls skinny bodies, silky hair and bright blue eyes. I have the blue eyes but they don't suit me. At lunchtime I felt like I was being watched while I was eating I turned around to see girls giggling and pointing at me. One shouted to me 

"Oh my gosh your so fat! By the amount you're eating by 2010 England will have ran out of food!"

They all laughed at me hysterically. I felt sick but I ate a bit more and then ran off to hide in the girls toilets and cry.My eyes were a bright red and puffy. I wiped my eyes and made sure my eyes didn't look red anymore and went to the classroom.  On the way out of school one of the boys shoved me over. He just stood there and laughed at me.I stood up and walked away with my head down trying not to get noticed. Once I was out of the gate I ran home, chucked my stuff on the side in the kitchen, ran to the park and sat on the black seat on the that was attached to the chain of the swing.

I heard them. I turned around the girls where there giggling at me. Shouting things at me like

"You so fat" "Ugly" "Stupid" "Worthless"

They picked up tiny pebbles and threw them at me. I felt each tiny one hit the back of my head. Tears formed in eyes but I blinked them back. Then the leader came and pushed me off my swing. My knees scraped again the tiny, sharp pieces of gravel on the floor. I looked at my knees and tiny drops of blood dribbled down my knees to my ankles. I jumped up and ran home with tears in my eyes while I heard the ringing of laughter in my ears. Now I am hugging my pillow while crying.My head is pounding and it hurts so much. I don't know what I have done wrong? Do I not fit in with the others? Am I a freak, abnormal, weird and a loser? The thing is I don't know what to do to fit in? I am just being myself and everyone hates me. 
Ok Diary I have to go My dad just got home and we have to have tea.


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