The Dealer

Calum Hood is a drug dealer. Jayde Mills is Calum's "friend". Jayde never realized how bad the drug thing was until she visited Calum in the city and he was high the whole time.


27. chapter 27





Things with Calum had been different lately. I wasn't sure what it was. We were both stressed from the move but we have now been settled for nearly two weeks. I was feeling great. My body was now pretty much back to where it was before I had Violet. Of course it wasn't going to be exactly the same but I could fit into my jeans now. 

I was feeling great and I think I was trying to get Calum to feel the same way but he just wouldn't show it back to me. I put Violet down to sleep for the night making sure her nightlight was on and that the baby monitor was on. 

I walked into the kitchen where Calum was washing the dishes from dinner. I stood behind him and ran my hands under his shirt and up his chest. I could feel his heart speed up and my hands roamed his body before sliding into the waist band of his sweatpants. 

"Please stop." I was a little confused at first but brought my hands back. 

"Is everything okay?" He had been so distant lately and it was making me lonely. We used to cuddle every night in bed watching a show and now he would rather play video games. We had sex roughly three nights a week. Four or less depending on what mood we were in but since moving here, we've only done it once. 

"I'm fine. I just don't want to have sex." I pouted a little but knew that I shouldn't shove it on him if he didn't want it. 

"Okay. Do you wanna shower with me?" I had a read a magazine on how to spice up your sex life since having a baby. It was difficult with a child in the house to have sex. Even though she didn't understand what was going on, I never wanted her to hear us and wake up. 

"You can't shower on your own?" 

"I was just offering." I mumbled heading to our shared bathroom. While in the shower I finally realized that we were acting like a married couple who had been together for 10 years. Maybe he didn't want to be this domesticated. Instead of going out drinking with his friends, he was feeding our daughter formula. 

When I got out of the shower I could hear him getting ready for bed in our room so I dried myself fully before walking into our bedroom naked. 


"Stop what?" He had obviously picked up on what I was trying to do. 

"I don't want to have sex. Put some fucking clothes on." I knew I shouldn't have pushed it but I did anyway. I sulked walking into our walk in closet to get clothes on. I did not want to go back into our room. 

"My parents yearly formal party is this weekend. Should we get a babysitter for Violet?" 

"Do I have to go?" He asked. I really wish you would. 


"I'll stay here with her." He commented. It would have been nice for us both to get out of the house together and spend a night together. 

"Okay. That's easier I guess." I turned on the lap on my bedside table and shut off the big light. I rad a few chapters from my book before laying down and shutting the light off. 

"Want me to turn the t.v off?" 

"No. I'm good." I mumbled. As much as I tried to get myself to fall asleep, I couldn't. It pained me to know that I was slowly losing Calum. I could feel it. My heart was hurting from it. I so badly wanted to reach over and touch him, to feel his warm skin against mine but when I looked at him, his back was turned to me and he had a pillow between us. 

I had no idea what I had done. 

"Calum didn't come?" Julia asked as I grabbed a glass of wine. 

"No." I commented. I was not in the mood to be here. I didn't want to talk to anyone. Last year at this party, I was pregnant. But I had two very fine young men attached to my arms. "He didn't want to leave Violet." I commented. I knew that wasn't true. He just wanted the house to himself. 

"Is something going on?" She asked grabbing something from one of the plates in the dining room. 

"I don't want to talk about it." I didn't want to think about what was going on. I didn't want to think about what Calum was thinking. 

"Sorry." She mumbled. I sighed. I did not want to be here. 

I was going to stay at my parents that night but I wasn't drinking much and I left early. When I got home Calum was in the hallway with a bunch of his shirts. 

"What's up?" I asked as casual as possible. I was taking my shoes off and trying to unzip my dress. It took a lot of convincing for him to zip it for me. 

"Nothing. Just moving some clothes around." He commented walking into one of the guest bedrooms. I followed behind him and all of his things were in there. 

"Moving out?" I joked. 

"I just need some space." 

"You don't wanna sleep in our bed with me anymore?" I started to question what I had done. Calum was so hot and cold it made my head spin. Some days he treated me like a queen and other days it seemed like he wanted to smash my head into the kitchen counter as awful as it sounds. 

"Not really." I then started to question if we had actually ever made anything official. I couldn't remember if he had asked me to be his girlfriend or if I had just started saying we were together. "I got a job at a landscaping place in town." 

"That's amazing! Congrats!" I smiled. 

"So Violet will have to go into daycare." 

"That's fine." I smiled. I was trying to hide how hurt I really was. I wanted to push the topic further. I wanted to know why he didn't want me anymore. I didn't want to make our living situation awkward. He took the room next to Violet's but down the hall from the master bedroom. That way we would both be able to get to her if needed. 

"Good night." He commented closing the door and locking it. He left me standing in the hallway. I walked to the door and was going to knock but stopped myself. I wasn't welcome anymore. I went to check on Violet before knocking on Calum's door. 

"Can you please unzip my dress for me?" I said softly outside the door waiting for him to open it. I heard him sigh before the bed creaked and he opened the door and quickly unzipped it. I was just his baby mama.

The next few weeks flew by. We made a few changes to the house. Contractors had been in and out for weeks helping to re-do the kitchen. Calum had finally started working Monday through Thursday so Violet had started going to daycare. Friday's she stayed home with Calum. 

I wanted to ask Calum so many things most importantly ask him if we were broken up. I was scared to think about it. I obviously wanted him here and I wanted him to live here because it's good for Violet to grow up with two parents but if we're not together that means he can see other people and I didn't want him to. 

When our kitchen was finally done, I took it upon myself to invite a few people over. I invited my parents, Calum's parents, Julia and Luke, and Ashton and Bryana. 

"What's all this for?" 

"Invited some people over for dinner. Figured we could have a little house warming party." I commented to Calum as I marinated the steak I bought. 

"Why wouldn't you ask me first?" 

"Well I figured you wouldn't mind. It's food and friends. I bought beer." My voice had become soft when I would talk to him. I was so afraid all the time that he was going to yell at me. It had been a few weeks since he had moved his things out of my room. It was weird to call it that now. 

"Well I have a date." He commented casually. He was standing at the fridge looking inside so he couldn't see my reaction. 

"That's nice." I covered the meat with plastic wrap and stuck it in the fridge for later. I tried my hardest to hold back tears. "Are we not together anymore?" I finally got up the courage to ask him and he turned to look at me. 

"No." He stated as if I had never meant anything to him. "Thought I made that clear when I moved my stuff." 

"I guess I just needed you to confirm it." 

"I still want to live here and be in Violet's life." 

"I know. I want that too. I'll just be your baby mama. It's okay." It wasn't though. Julia came in the house a few minutes later with Luke trailing behind her. Calum left shortly after. I was setting out chips and dip and other things to snack on. 

"What happened?" She asked. "Where is he all dressed up to go?" 

"On a date." I whispered. 

"What?" They both looked at me confused. 

"He broke up with me." 

"And he's already seeing someone else?" I nodded. 

"Fuck I don't want to be here." I commented. I did not want to cry. I did not want to annoy anyone. I didn't want Ashton to freak out that this would be a repeat of last time because I had already promised myself that I wouldn't drag him into this. 

Instead of dwelling on Calum, I focused on the party. 

"Where's Cal?" Ashton whispered in my ear about an hour into the party. No one else had mentioned him so I was wondering if Julia told everyone by the door. 

"He's on a date." I answered. 

"With who?" 

"Not me so why does it matter?" He seemed shocked by my words. I wanted to know what was so special about this girl. Why he would rather be with her than me. I had given birth to his child. I thought we were in love. 

"Fuck, Jayde. I'm so sorry." I shrugged. 

"He didn't even give me the respect to break up with me. He just moved all of his things out of my room." I had never been so heartbroken in my life. I thought we were in a great place. I had no idea what had gone wrong. 


I was in deep shit. I owed a guy money. A lot of it. And I didn't have it. I knew that things were about to get crazy and I did not want to drag Jayde down with me. She had just bought us an amazing home and I'm sure she couldn't just drop 30 grand because I was a fuck up. 

That's why I got the landscaping job. I told the guy I would give him all of my paychecks until I could pay him off. He said he take it but he did not seem satisfied that. I began to panic because I knew what happened when these types of things happened. 

People were murdered. 

I did not want anything to happen to my family so I needed to stay low and not cause any type of drama. It wasn't like I could call the police, I would be arrested for selling. 

I couldn't stand the pained look that Jayde gave me every single time she saw me. I tried to stay away from her as much as possible but that couldn't happen when we lived together and had a child together. 

I couldn't tell her what was going on so I lied and told her I was seeing someone. That was the farthest thing from the truth. I was still totally in love with her. I still wanted to be with her but if anything ever happened to her, I would never forgive myself for it. 

I wanted to tell her. I wanted to crawl into bed with her and cry and tell her how sorry I was that I ruined our family but I couldn't. I couldn't do that to her. I knew she was confused and she wanted answers. 

I could probably tell my parents. They would somehow get the money but I couldn't ask them for that. I was on my own with this one. 

I was sitting at the island eating dinner when Jayde came in with Violet on her hip and empty bottles in her hand. 

"Can you take her?" She asked holding Violet out to me. I took the baby from her and set her on my lap watching her wash the bottles. 

"I'm sorry." 

"For?" She didn't even bother looking at me. 

"Breaking up with you. There is so much going on right now and I wish I could tell you and I just can't." 

"Why can't you tell me?" 

"I don't want you to get hurt." It clicked in her head what was going on. I knew she had warned me to stop selling and to stop pissing people off. I just couldn't stay away from the life and she knew it. 

"What's going on?" I sighed running my free hand through my hair. "Just tell me, Cal. I can help you." She teared up and it broke my heart knowing how much I was the reason for her pain. "Please." She begged. 

"I owe someone 30 grand." Her eyes widened. 

"How?!" She shouted. 

"He supplies me the drugs I sell. I give him the money, he give me a profit. I didn't do so well the last few weeks." 

"And that adds up to 30,000$!" She shouted making Violet's eyes widen. "What are you gonna do?" She asked. 

"I told the guy I would give him all of my paychecks until it's paid off. He agreed but I don't know if he really is satisfied with that." 

"Does he know where we live?" 

"No." I had no idea if he would be able to find me. Jayde's name is on the house. 

"Is that why you broke up with me?" 

"I couldn't stand to see something bad happen to you." I whispered. I would never be able to live with myself. She came around the island and wrapped her arms around me. 

"You're so stupid." She buried her face in my neck. I could feel her tears on my neck which made me cry. 

"I'm so sorry." I had no idea what was going to happen now. 

"We'll figure something out." She sniffled. "My annual bonus comes in soon. We can give him that." 

"I'm not taking your money." I held her with my free hand. 

"I can help you. What if something happens to you?" 

"I will be fine, Darling." 

We were quiet for a very long time besides the sounds that Violet was making. We hadn't let go of each other. I knew she just needed to be held. I did too. 

"Are you actually seeing someone?" She questioned. 

"No. I lied about that." I answered honestly. "You are the only woman I could ever love." 

"Then why'd you leave me?" 

"I thought it was best." 

"It's not." She answered. "Please. I miss you." 

"Are you sure? What if something happens?" 

"I'll be right here."

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