FemaleUnited StatesMember since 21 Oct 16Age 14Last online 10 months ago

¨Him. You thought about him, didn't you? That one word just brought back thousands of memories and emotions, didn't it? You were thinking about that one guy you're still in love with, weren't you? Why do you do this to yourself? Can you tell me that? Why are you hurting yourself so deeply by checking out his profile every minute of the day, by looking back to the times you were so happy, by making up a thousand situations in your head you know deep inside never will happen. Tell me: why? Why can't you just admit that he's gone, that he left you without a regret? Can you tell me why you can't admit the fact that he became the person he promised he wouldn't become? Probably not. And that's the hard thing about loving someone who doesn't love you back: no matter how much he broke you, how much he hurt you: you'll always remember the good things. Don't do that. You should be hating him, instead of that girl he's messing with. You should stop hating yourself for still loving him, but start hating him for not loving you, for letting you go, for choosing her over you. I know this isn't easy, I really do: but is it easy to live the way you're living now? To cry yourself to sleep every night, to fall apart every time you hear his name, to be constantly disappointed when he doesn't even send you a message? No. You have to let go, not because he left: but because you're fighting for something that would never fight for you, because you're holding on to something that would never hold on to you and especially this: because you're loving something that would never, ever once again love you.¨

  • MissMels

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    Hi, I'm a teenage girl.

    I have good days and bad days, and when it comes to the bad ones I sometimes take them out on others.
    When my music is blasting, the rest of the world gets tuned out.
    There's a boy that I can't seem to stop thinking about.
    (He's the reason I look forward to school every day.)
    I can't go one day without saying or doing something awkward.
    I honestly have no idea what I'd do without my friends.
    (They know how to make me happy and they're always here for me.)
    I can be stubborn, bitchy and a little clueless at times.
    And sometimes, in one day, dozens of things can go wrong.
    But when I take a step back, and look at things clearly,
    I realize how much I truly appreciate life, even with the imperfections.
    I know that I'm young, and I still have a lot to learn.
    And I don't want to grow up too fast.
  • MissMels

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    10 months agoReply
    I'm starting to miss you, and you're not even gone. I guess that's because you're slowly turning into the person you used to swear you would never, ever be.
  • MissMels

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    10 months agoReply
    Shoutout to the people who love others unconditonally while they're still figuring out how to love themselves. Y'all are appreciated and rare.
    MissMels
    10 months ago
    I don't love a lot of the things I do sometimes. I might love myself in general, but there's parts of me that I wish were different.
  • MissMels

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    10 months agoReply
    Remember, you were art long before he/she came to admire you. And you'll continue to be art even after he/she is gone.
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