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  • mendeziosmells

    mumbled "Inner Demons"

    Today, every emotion inside of me came bursting out. one. by. one.
    I was so ecstatic that you're part of my life and talking to me, even though i already knew i wasnt enough for you, everytime you smiled and touched me, my heart did flips.
    Then i heard. The person who is good enough, is my bestfriend. and suddenly all hell breaks lose.
    First understanding and exceptance, then anger and selfhatred.
    Recently i got over self harm and an eating disorder, I have also fallen deeply in love with 2 boys who had no intention of catching me, even though i gave them my everything. This was my first attempt at being okay, and i failed, i realised while crying in the bath that i was pathetic and vile.
    and considered cutting. I t was a nagging urge, like someone whispering in my ear, horrible and twisted words, dragging me deeper and deeper.
    All it took was an accidental slice with my razor to realise what a mistake i was making.
    Sure things feel tough, but I am stronger than that now. I am the surviver.
  • mendeziosmells

    mumbled "Hello:*"

    My name is Ellen, im 15 and writing is my escape.
    I live in a small, boring bland town in the middle of no where, i dream of adventures and getting away.
  • mendeziosmells
    I really love this so far, can't wait to read more!x
    The Game of Life
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    What do you do when you're stuck in a world you can't get out of? When your brain is controlled by a society if you're poor. When a game show decides if you live. Or if you die....
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    The second i saw the word daddy, i knew this must be a sequel, and it made me so happy, keep updating it, you're brilliant!
    Daddy Won't See
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    SEQUEL TO DADDY WON'T KNOW You all know Krissy and Colton's story but you have never read them like this. Meet the new Krissy, or as everyone now calls her Evans, at her new boarding school. She's the...
  • mendeziosmells
    I love this so much, the tension is killing me, ITS PERFECT!
    Daddy Won't Know
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    Krissy Evans is a good girl. She always has been. Until she is convinced to come to her first end of the year party. Her image soon changes when she is thrown together with Colton Flynn in 7 Minutes In...
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