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I'm sorry to the zero people that care about me

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    mumbled "Oh bother"

    I wish I was better at writing. That I stayed motivated. That I didn't go to bed every night giving myself anxiety attacks because I thought about death so often. Im so scared of dying I don't even let my body rest like it should. I'm so afraid of everything now. I've never been this panicky or paranoid in a looooong while. My obsessive-compulsiveness has gotten out of hand. And I've been alone through it all as well. I mean, to be honest, who could I tell? Not like anyone would listen or help. I'd just get ridicule, persecution, or another reason to panic and hate myself. That's why I'm putting it here. I know that it'll be spoken to deaf ears, which I find slight comfort in :) I've been trying to help my own self though. I've been happier, I guess. Things take time though. It's just a pothole in the road and the tow truck is on its way :) I'm terrified for school though. My human interaction is abysmal. All the things I wanted to do this year seem impossible for me now. Eh. C'est la vie. Wish me luck, I guess...
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    @[E.A Scarlet] it's very nice of you to care. Thank you :)
    he/him
    1 years ago
    Try the panic techniques I taught you. Practice going to sleep around ten now, because school starts soon. Even if you aren't tired, put your phone away and attempt sleep. Count sheep, read a boring book, count from ten to one slowly, anything.
    Things do take time and I am so so proud you're starting to help yourself.
    As for the phobia of death: Death is a thing that comes for all of us eventually. However, it cannot control you like this. Only YOU have the power to control yourself. Death won't come for you until later, unless you invite it in now (and God forbid you do that). And if this isn't about you, the person dying needs you to be happy. They need their last memory of you to be a smiling one, not a panicked and tired one. Death is turmoil, but there is also a haunting sense of peace in it. In the fact that all sense of pain is gone. You can finally relax, and stop praying to God that their misery is ended soon. Is it enjoyable? No. And I know that. But you have to face it head-on or else it will consume you. And I'll tell you something metaphorical now I wish I could literally do- you need to grow a pair. Man up. You can do this. (:

    (please dont be tumblr and get mad at me for making a gendered joke)
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    @[he/him] I'll try that. Thanks.
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    You guys are really good at drawing :)
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    Here are some of my drawings since 2008-2015 from my ages 9-16. Hope you like it. If there's a drawing you would like me to draw please comment what it is. I would love to draw for my friends and fans.
    Lozzie-san
    1 years ago
    OMG! Dil Howlter!!!! XD I am addicted to those series!! Hehe! XD
    夫人ミッドナイト
    Same! I hope they'll make a new episode soon XD
    Lozzie-san
    1 years ago
    Me too it's been well over a month now right? -_-
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    mumbled "Yes it is midnight. Yes I am dizzy with fatigue. Sleep is for the weak"

    Nothing like colouring books and letting my 10 year old brother marathon Doctor Who on the telly ✌��️
    3 SECOND LUKE
    1 years ago
    @[夫人ミッドナイト] Haha that sounds like an awesome 10 year old brother :P
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    mumbled "O M F Ging sINCE MONDAYYYY"

    AIGHT PPL I NEED TO LAY SOME STUFF DOWN

    YOU GUYS MAY NOT KNOW BUT IM PANSEXUAL (hence why I have a PANda bear as my profile hehehehheehheeh get it get it)
    AND
    SO
    THIS GIRL I HAVE LIKED FOR A LONG TIME ( [@potato.] is the she I be talking about) AND I WERE HAVING I TEXT WAR
    AND
    EHHE
    I TOLD HER HOW I FELT
    AND SHE FELT THE SAME WAY!!!!!!
    *insert intense screaming*
    AND I ASKED HER OUT AND SHE SAID YEEEEESSSSSS!!
    AHHHH WE ARE GIRLFRIENDS NOWW
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    I AM TOO OMG
    he/him
    2 years ago
    *tries to drink tea like a normal person*
    夫人ミッドナイト
    *can't calm down enough to be with other humans*
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