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  • cyrah

    mumbled "ALMOST GONE...."

    6 years agoReply
    10-16-11
    He almost broke up with me… hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko the moment I received and read the text message that he sent “malamig ka na rin? Ok, wala na patutunguhan to.. bye.” (10-16-11 21:37) It really broke my heart… I almost can’t breathe… I broke down and cry…

    For that moment, I realized… I can’t bear to lose this man, this one man that showed me what true love is… what’s life beyond imperfections, what happiness is all about… This man who have seen my flaws and all.

    I admit, it’s not love that I felt when we committed to be each other’s, it’s just attraction. But as time goes by, everything changed… on our 5th monthsary.. I’ve realized, ah! I’m in love with this man… And I’ve told him these things… There’s just this mistake that I’ve never told him but in a short while he just got to know everything … I’ve entertained two more guys, while I’m in a relationship with him… two guys whom I never really loved… maybe because of the reason that we just lacked communication and time for one another that’s why I entertained this guys… yes, we argued, but we made it through…

    Days passed, at school we have this wedding function … so there’s this picture stuffs… what I don’t really understand about him is that… of all the boys we argued with, this last guy whom he saw me with in a picture who just used to be my friend became the worst arguments we ever had?

    I know he’s hurt but, hey! We’ve passed through the other two whom I really have an affair with but why this last who is just my friend, will pull us apart? I don’t really know what will I do now…

    After sometime of talking, he said we’re ok now… but I can feel the coldness in his voice, in his text and in his actions… he don’t even call me “BABE” which supposed to be our endearment for one another.. he don’t even say and text “ILOVEYOU” anymore … I’m really not used to this kind of scenario… because he used to tell me every minute every hour he can that he loves me and he call me babe whenever he text or whenever we’re together.. Everything had changed… and I don’t know what the future brings us if this will continue..

    Ok, at this moment, after the break up message, I managed to beg him not to leave me, because honestly I really can’t… and he says “OK” … What’s hard in all this argument we have… we’re far from each other… but I’m still hoping.. We’ll be ok soon… I mean, the really ok thing that the endearment was there and the trust may come back again… I know it’s all my fault from the very start but I’m facing all the consequences now… I just really can’t afford to lose him… I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! THAT HONESTLY, I WILL DIE IF I LOSE HIM… I LOVE MYSELF BUT I LOVE HIM THE MOST…

    So please babe, let’s fix this thing now… I will change all the things you want me to change just to make you stay… Cyrus, you’re all that I want and no other else… please babe.. stay.. let’s face all this problems together… I LOVE YOU CYRUS… TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!
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