Letters to My Idols

Just some letter that I would like to give these people one day, personally.

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1. Jacksepticeye

Dear Jack/Sean,

I hope you don't mind me writing you ><. I am writing to you for gratitude. You may not know, but you have helped so many people in this world, including me, just from being you.

Anyway my name is Lyssa and I am from New York. I watch your videos everyday without fail. Your videos make me smile and laugh, when there is nothing to be happy about. I have been a fan of yours since I could remember.

There is a reason why I am writing to you actually...you have helped me through of dark times in my teenage years. And well, this is my story.

Ever since I was a child, I was majorly bullied. I used to run to the restroom, crying because they would call me names and make fun of me. This was only in second grade. As the years went by, the worst it had gotten.

I didn't know what to do with life, at some points I would be in my room, decided if I was done with this world. But then I saw your video... Skate 3 to be exact. You made me do something I haven't done in a long time. You made me laugh. A true laugh. I watched all of your videos that night and I that was the first time I truly felt happy.

Things turned around again when I was reaching my pre-teen years. My brother left for the service and my sister was at college, my grandmother passed away. Which was the hardest part for me because we were so close. Also during this time, the bullying had gotten to the point where I stopped eating, I would get panic attacks every time I got ready in the morning. This happened for two weeks straight.

My mom would try to get me to go to school so many times, I would break down every time and I would go into a major panic attack. One time, I was yelling at my mother, calling myself worthless and that I shouldn't be here...

My brain was so overwhelmed, I started to self-harm. My bad thoughts came back and my anxiety was horrible. Around this time, I was diagnosed with Tourette's syndrome, which is a neurological disorder which causes involuntary, repetitive moments and vocalizations. It's a real pain in the ass. I was also diagnosed with ADD, OCD, insomia, anxiety, and panic attacks. Its a long list... I know.

I would be home alone and watch your videos all day. You made me feel like I was someone important and special. I felt loved. I wanted to just thank you, for making me laughing when I have nothing to laugh about. For keeping me company when I felt alone.

Once, someone told me "Your smile is the light that shines through the darkness of people. That is the gift God has given you."

Sean, your smile is the light that shines through the darkness people have in this world. We need more people like you. You're one of the special ones and please continue being you.

You're my hero Sean. You will always be my hero, no matter what. Just thank you for being you.

--Lyssa--

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