Burning Bridges (DIRTY)

There's a new girl at school, she's not a big Justin Bieber fan but they end up making a deal together which makes them want to be closer.

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26. Fuck Apologies

When I woke up, it was 7a.m. I didn't get a full amount of sleep, I never do. I got up walking into the bathroom splashing water on my face, brushing my teeth hopping into the shower. I could picture Adrian hopping in behind me, knowing how much I missed our crazy morning sex in the shower. Her touch, her smell, her taste. It all comes back to me. I got out, got dressed and went downstairs into the kitchen hearing Adrian and Amanda talking while fixing up breakfast.

"Morning" Amanda says kissing my cheek.

"Good morning Justin" Adrian says with a smirk on her face patting the seat next to her, telling me to sit down. I took a deep breath sitting beside her.

"What's wrong, you seem so tense" She asked.

"It's nothing, couldn't sleep"

"Well Amanda was telling me that she's trying to get pregnant. How come you didn't tell me, I'm happy for you"

"I don't know, just wanted to keep it a secret y'know. Not everyone knows that we're doing this"

"I'm sorry, it's just I was excited telling the news. We shouldn't keep this a secret Justin, maybe it's time to tell the world. I mean we are getting married" Amanda says.

"Alright fine" I said, she smiled widely jumping up and down.

"Yay! I'm gonna go call my mom" She says walking out.

"Wow, you're planning on having a baby and didn't tell me!" Adrian yelled.

"Adrian come on, it's been two months since Adriana died"

"Yeah, two months damn you're moving on from her that fast. Like it never happened? Like we never happened what the fuck is wrong with you? She's turning you into a whole different person. How old is she anyways? 45"

"She's 25 for your information and this is the reason I didn't tell you, because of this" I said.

"Because you knew I was gonna keep it real with you, that's what I've always been doing with you. And that is keeping it real whether you want to hear it or not. You don't want this, you don't want to be married to this girl. What we did 3 in the morning, it was more than just sex. We made love, and I love making love to you, you know that"

"Adrian please--"

"No! Admit it, you love it too"

"I took advantage of you, we took advantage of each other it's been a while" I said.

"Wow, so that's what you call that. Taking advantage of each other? You are so full of yourself, I don't even know who you are anymore. It's nice to know that Adriana didn't mean anything to you" She says leaving. Maybe she was right, I don't even know who I am anymore. Amanda is turning me into this completely different person and the one I love had to be the one to tell me that. Once I ate breakfast I went to find Adrian, she was no where in the house neither was Amanda. Everything is going downhill, Adrian is questioning about Amanda which leads me to ask myself if I really want to be with her. Calling off the wedding would make me a coward, but also humiliating her at the alter would make me a bigger one. I don't know if I love Amanda or not, Adrian and I have been through it all. I'm just afraid that since Amanda wants a baby and me getting married will push her away. I grabbed my keys, getting into my car going over Kathy's. I knocked on the door waiting for her to open. She opened the door and smiled at me opening her arms out for a hug. I hugged her tightly going inside.

"Graduation is right around the corner, are you excited" She asked.

"Yeah, most definitely. Getting married before graduation is a big jump huh"

"Oh yeah, how are you and Amanda anyways"

"We're good. Trying to make a baby it just seems early to do that. Y'know since Adriana passed away. Have you heard the news"

"Yeah, Adrian's alive. She came over and explained everything. I was so happy to see her. Now that she's back I'm still trying to figure out the chemistry about you two. It's just every chance that she gets or you get, you're with someone else or you either don't want to be more than that. So, do you love her still"

"Yeah, I love her and I love Amanda it's just crazy y'know. Dan wanted me to keep an eye on her, he told me that I before him and Kristie left for this big case they're doing. So I'm keeping my promise, keeping an eye out for her" I said with a small smile.

"Uh oh, you two fucked didn't you"

"Yeah, how did you know? Did she tell you?" I asked.

"She didn't have to, I know you. And I know my best friend you can't stand staying away from each other, sex is always what you two loved to do. I guess that haven't changed. Justin what are you doing? You and Adrian are slipping, you two want to be with each other just do it already. You love her, she loves you it's ridiculous"

"She loves me?" I asked.

"Duh, come on have you seen the signs. She doesn't want you sleeping with anyone else, it's all out in the open. You're just so blind to not see that. You're not happy, you're a different person. I miss that jack ass caring celebrity Justin, not this what you've become. I'm just giving you some advice that's all. But hey, I can't speak for you right? It's spring break have some fun, live a little. I like you, but as a fan and also as a friend. What you did about Tori, it took a lot for you to do that. And it wasn't out of anger-"

"It was out of anger. She killed my daughter, and almost killed Adrian. She couldn't breathe on her own you know that"

"Yes I know that. Besides I went to her place and beat the shit out of her, you're welcome" She said chuckling.

"Thanks Kathy, you're a good friend"

"Of course I am. Well I'm gonna get ready to have sex with Troy so, don't let the door hit you on the way out. Great talk"

"Wait, have you talked to Drew or anyone else from school. Does people know she's alive other than us" I asked.

"Well Drew does know, she went to see him and everyone she talked to. She's pretty open about it now, everyone's relieved that she's back. I'm happy she's back, I love her. And so do you so, figure this shit out, by the way if you haven't already noticed. Adrian hates Amanda" She says going upstairs. I sighed getting up leaving Kathy's place. I went back home tossing my keys onto the table, grabbing a bottle of beer sitting on the couch watching tv. I heard the door open Adrian and Amanda came in laughing and talking walking into the living room.

"Oh hey sweetie. Adrian was just telling me about your past relationships. I didn't know you had a thing for lunatics"

"Yeah, what's in the bags" I asked talking about both handful of shopping bags in both of their hands.

"Clothes silly, I invited Adrian for the party tonight remember. Oh and I got you something" She says sitting the bags down grabbing two ties out.

"Which one, violet or purple" She asked holding them up.

"Whichever is fine" I said, she scoffed putting them back in the bag. "What"

"Purple or violet" She asked again.

"Which one do you like"

"Violet"

"I'll wear violet then"

"Yay!" She says grabbing the bags going upstairs. Adrian chuckled sitting beside me.

"Wow, what a drama queen" She says taking the beer from my hand drinking it. "Y'know if you don't already know this, this is a big mistake you're making. But that's you and your life I can't stop you. I'm just giving you some friendly advice. It seems that she wears the pants in this relationship"

"You know what Adrian, mind your own business" I said, she scoffed standing up.

"And you know what Justin, I'm gonna say it even if you don't want to hear it. You're delusional you know that right. Stupid bitch is trying to turn you into one of these nobodies. Your career is going downhill. Yeah I said it, your career is at risk right now"

"And who's gonna make it better Adrian? You?" I chuckled.

"Better than her, I know you more than she does. Really purple or violet? Get real Justin, and I'm going to this party tonight and you're not gonna stop me"

"Why? So you can rub it in my face that I am making a mistake" I asked.

"You have to keep an eye on me right? And finally you admitted to making a mistake that took you long enough, I guess me coming back had to slap some reality into you. You've lost it"

"Adrian please. Just stop I'm tired of talking about this. What do you want me to do"

"Call it off"

"I can't do that, I'll be a coward" I said.

"And you'll be even more of a coward if you wait until your wedding day, I hate her. I'm just playing a role just to get to you"

"Wow, you had to die and come back to life and decide to want me" I asked. She scoffed, before she walked off I grabbed her by her wrist.

"Let me go, you are such an asshole"

"Look I'm sorry I said that, it was cruel and uncalled for. You've been through I lot I get that, but I have too. It shouldn't have went that way. You get me and I love you so much for that--"

"You don't love me Justin stop saying that"

"I do, I do love you and I'll say it a million of times. But, I'm stuck in this situation and I can't get out of it. I apologize for saying that and I apologize for whatever the hell else I did or said wrong. I missed you so much, I couldn't sleep and I still can't sleep. To be honest if you wasn't here right now. I don't know what I would do. I love the both of you but I love you even more it's just-- I don't know. God you make me go insane and that's something she doesn't do, it's always about a baby or the wedding. It's more than that with you"

"I make you reach your climax without sex, you said that. It's funny because you make me feel the same way" She said sniffling, I grabbed her face leaning in.

"Hey Justin" Amanda said coming downstairs, I quickly moved away from Adrian before she came into the living room. "Do you think I should wear a dress that matches" She asked holding up a violet dress.

"Yeah, that's a great color, it'll look great on you. I said she smiled and kissed me. I opened one of my eyes, Adrian rolled her eyes walking away. I pulled away and we both smiled.

"I'm gonna get ready, oh and I have to leave early in the morning for this flight but don't worry I'll be back home for brunch" She says going upstairs. I groaned hitting my head with my hand. I went upstairs to get ready for this party that I didn't want to attend. I took a shower walking into the closet to finding the perfect blazer to wear. I got dressed slipping on my shoes grabbing the tie Amanda wanted me to wear. I never knew how to do ties they're so complicated. I tried to find Amanda which I didn't see her anywhere in sight upstairs.

"Hey, Justin" Adrian called as I passed the room she was sleeping in. I turned around and went in. She looked amazing, her black laced dressed perfectly fitting her sexy hot body.

"Mind zipping me up" She asked turning around holding her hair. I walked up behind her zipping her dress.

"Thanks" She said with a smile, I kissed her shoulder softly. She turned around grabbing my face kissing me. "You look good" She says biting the corner of her lip. I kissed her again pulling away. "Come here, do you need help with your tie"

"I can't find Amanda, she's always running off" I chuckled.

"Well thank god, I'm here" She says grabbing the tie wrapping it around my neck. "By the way Amanda had an emergency call from the airport, she's outside if you were wondering"

"I'm not"

"Are you flirting with me, aren't you get married"

"Don't remind me. You've made me realize a lot" I said.

"Meaning you're calling it off"

"I don't know yet okay. Thanks for helping me with my tie, you look amazing"

"Thanks so do you. I love the new look, the blonde hair it fits you. You're a lot hotter"

"Are you flirting with me" I chuckled.

"Maybe. Maybe I would make it easier for you not to flirt with me. I'm so surprised Amanda is that stupid to not figure out what's going on between us. We did have sex in the kitchen, she's just so busy with you. She doesn't have time for you like I do, when is the last time you two had a real conversation"

"I don't know, she is a flight attendant though. They always travel what do you expect she's working and I'm fine with that"

"Okay picture that in your marriage, leaving every other day being gone for days and then coming back it's just not working for you. Maybe your career kicks back to where it was at first before you started school being away from each other all the time. And you want a family already, how is that gonna work"

"I don't know, you're right. You're right about everything. It's just I want to do this my way"

"Fine, I won't say anymore about it"

"Since Amanda is gonna be away tomorrow, how about we spend some quality time together. Y'know as friends, it is spring break. What do you say" I asked.

"I'll think about it" She smiled walking out. I smiled too and went downstairs.

"Hey babe sorry it was work, ugh I have to leave at four in the morning to catch an early flight"

"It's okay, I understand it's work"

"Thanks for understanding. You look so handsome, I love the tie. Ready to go"

"Of course" I said grabbing my keys. On the way to the party it was an awkward silence, I looked in the rear view mirror, looking at Adrian. A smirk appeared on her face, I smiled a little looking back at the road. Amanda intertwined her fingers through mines kissing my hand. I pulled up in Scooters driveway, we all got out going inside. Everyone was either dancing, getting drunk, or gossiping about each other lives. Adrian went over to the bar while Amanda and I went to talk to Scooter.

"Hey, there's the married couple" He says drunk out of his mind hugging me. "Adrian right" He says talking to Amanda which was completely awkward.

"Scooter this is Amanda"

"I'm joking" He says laughing. I rolled my eyes.

"You're just a jokester Scooter" Amanda says laughing along with him.

"Adrian's alive" I said.

"Holy shit, that's unbelievable. I'm gonna leave you two alone to talk" He says walking off.

"I can't believe he said that" I said.

"I understand. Everyone knew you and Adrian were together for a while"

"We were never dating, she was just carrying my baby. That's how everyone knows about her. Don't worry about that okay, it was just once" I said, she nodded. I kissed her head grabbing her hand to introduce her to everyone. Amanda was the type to be social with everyone, she knows how to start a conversation. From the corner of my eye I seen Adrian drinking, dancing around a couple guys.

"I'll be right back" I said to Amanda kissing her cheek walking over to Adrian grabbing her hand pulling her away.

"Hey, what are you doing. I was having fun" She says.

"I have to keep an eye on you remember" I said, she chuckled taking another sip of her drink.

"Justin I'm not a baby, I can watch out for myself. They're my friends they just wanted me to ride with them to their place"

"Are you fucking kidding me. No, you're not going anywhere with those douchebags. Remember what happened last time when you were drunk and went somewhere by yourself, you almost got kidnapped"

"Okay well I'm capable of defending myself now. I am not your girlfriend or your fiancé, I'm nothing to you remember I just fucked you and had your baby"

"I can't believe you just said that to me. Adriana meant everything to me, I was in that hospital by your side every damn day, every chance I go. I was fucking there don't pull that shit with me" I said.

"Fuck you Justin, and don't grab my wrist you'll make a big scene" She said walking away. I sighed running my fingers through my hair finding Amanda.

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