Meant to Be

"Love isn't easy, and no one said it was. But now that she's gone, I have nothing to live for. No reason to wake up in the morning. No reason to go to work. I'm broken, and the only thing that can heal her."

"Leaving him was the hardest thing I could've ever done. But I can't go back now, everything is a mess, and I'll just make it worse"

Cover by: Beautifully Music Nerd
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•**Trigger Warning**•

The t.v turned to commercial's and I got up,

"I'm going to the bathroom." I said he stood up too,

"Alright, I'll make popcorn and we can watch a movie." I nodded walking in the direction of the bathroom. I walked I inside locking the door behind me.

I took the razor from under the sink and placed it on my wrist, cutting it open. I gasped from the pain I hadn't felt in so long, a few tears fell from my eyes, and I heard a knock on the door,

"Ev? You okay in there?" He asked, more tears fell from my eyes as I cut another place gasping again.

"I'm so sorry." I said full on crying,

"I'm so sorry. I'm really sorry Niall." I said,

"Ev? What are you talking about? Are you okay?" He asked again. I opened the door holding the razor to my neck, shaking furiously. It was if I had forgotten how to breathe. His eyes grew wide,

"Ev don't do this! Please Everleigh. Give me the razor." He said frantically,

"I'm sorry for the trouble I caused." I said,

"Give me the razor please." He said calmly. I shook my head,

"I can't" I said,

"Why not?" He asked taking a step closer.

"Because it's my fault." I whispered, he took another step closer, then another. Then he snatched the razor away from me breaking it in half and throwing it on the ground.

"No!!" I screamed sinking to the floor. He came over hugging me tight. I pushed him off of me.

"I hate you!" I screamed. He held on to me tightly and I hugged him back,

"I know, Everleigh, I know." Was all he said, I held on to him tight finally calming down. I was going insane,

Completely insane.

•**Trigger End**•

I laid on the couch by myself just thinking, the t.v was on but I wasn't paying any attention. What happened today was crazy. Was I really going to kill myself? Probably not. Right? I felt so powerless, like I had no reason to be here.

My mind then wandered to Ashton. He's been gone for three weeks, almost a month. And I had no hope he was still alive. He was dead. And well that was something to accept.

I then wandered to how he must've felt. Did he know it was the end there? Was he scared? Did he regret going? I guess I would never find out.

I heard a know on the hotel door. We were in Toronto now, they decided to finish the tour without him so they wouldn't disappoint fans.

I got up slowly, as I walked over to the door. I opened it to see Niall standing there all the guys behind him. They all seemed out of breath, their cheeks were flushed and red as if they had run a marathon.

"Hi uh.." I began.

"There's been some news, come with us." Niall cut me off grabbing my hand and pulling me out of the room and down the hall.

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