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Her husband will know sooner because he comes in to my room every night after work and i can still smell the liquor on his breath when he gets on me but by the time he comes I've passed out. Which is a perfect time to jump me because i can't get away.. You're probably asking "why don't you lock your door?" i used to but he got mad and took the lock away. "why haven't i called the cops on him?" I've tried but he's rich so he just pays them to go away and to not come back. Anything you thought of i have to and it didn't work.

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I've been at school for a while but no one really seems to notice me at all. I'm used to this tho and i pretend it don't bother me but it does sometimes i think to myself i could just see the red id feel better... but i thought that last week and it did help a little when that razor cut into my flesh but the truth is it don't help.... it's only a temporary fix. Sometimes i have to do it three times a day but i try not to but with all the bullies and the drama at school don't help plus the fact that i don't have loving parents to go home to at the end of the day dont help either i'm alone here i have been since my mom and dad died in a car crash seven years ago and the people who took me in hit me all the time but i don't say anything because it's not like people would care about what was going on with me.

I would love to be like a normal kid but the truth is i'm not i see things that aren't there i'm not crazy for all the new boy bands like one direction if any thing that makes it worse no i listen to the black veil brides, pierce the veil, and falling in reverse but that just makes me even more of a freak. I used to have friends but then when they found out about my problems they left me for the popular people not that i can blame them no one wants to be around me. I'm that "stupid sicko emo bitch" or that "whore" i don't see how because every one here has had more sex than i have. I only had sex the one time with my ex who is now also with the other people in the i hate rose group .... Everyone is in the group they just can't handle my problems that's why my ex left me his words where "do you know what it's like to walk around with someone who has scars on them? Well i do and it embarrassing and i can't do it any more i don't like you in fact i hate you and you should go kill yourself". I would like to say i was strong and just told him to screw off but i didn't that night i had tried to kill myself but the rope i had made a noose with was week and frayed at the ends so it broke. That was the only time i tried but not the only time i ever thought about it, nope that is a recurring thought for every day i mean it's not like anyone will miss me i'm just there chew toy. In two weeks ill be 17 and i'm gone ill be halfway around the world by the time my "mom" even notices i'm missing.

Her husband will know sooner because he comes in to my room every night after work and i can still smell the liquor on his breath when he gets on me but by the time he comes I've passed out. Which is a perfect time to jump me because i can't get away.. You're probably asking "why don't you lock your door?" i used to but he got mad and took the lock away. "why haven't i called the cops on him?" I've tried but he's rich so he just pays them to go away and to not come back. Anything you thought of i have to and it didn't work.  

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