with your love.

I sat there watching the raindrops trickle down the window. Imagining they are racing. Then they combine into one, this is when i realize nobody wins. Nobody ever wins. Now i sit here staring at the wall as if it has the answers i am looking for. Everything is quiet in that moment. Until its not… its them they have returned. The voices, they are back.

this is a story about a girl named malyika a teenage girl who suffers from depression. she is helped by this kid named andrew. she has always had feelings for him. but what she doesnt know is he feels the same about her. so will andrew be able to help her slay her demons, stay with her to the end, or will it all be too much too handle?

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1. letting go...

Chapter 1:

 

Malyikas pov:

 

I sat there watching the raindrops trickle down the window. Imagining they are racing. Then they combine into one, this is when i realize nobody wins. Nobody ever wins. Now i sit here staring at the wall as if it has the answers i am looking for. Everything is quiet in that moment. Until its not… its them they have returned. The voices, they are back.

Voices: DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT!!!  Nobody cares. Do it. You are worthless. Your a waist of space. Do it. You know you want to. JUST DO IT ALREADY!!! It will make you feel better.

Malyika: What have i done wrong? Why am i treated this way? These thought just keep rushing through my mind on repeat. Its like when your favorite song is stuck in your head and thats all you can think about! Only this, this is not my favorite song this is a deadly song.  

Voices: DO IT DO IT NOW!

Malyika: As i sit there for a few more minutes, all these voices in my head telling me it will be better, that it will all be ok. I finally decide to just give in. I slowly rise from the hard floor. I slowly walk up the stairs. As i walk down the long narrow hallway to the bathroom I feel as though i have been walking for ages. As i finally arrive to the bathroom i turn on the light and look in the mirror. I did this to myself. It is all my fault. I stand there staring at the ghostly reflection in the mirror that stares back at me. Tears are running down my face.

Voices: do it now and everything will be better.

Malyika: i grab the shiny object off of the sink. I sit down on the floor. I pull up my sleeves. I hold the sharp object in my hand as i take it to touch the skin on my opposite wrist. I slice. 1 you are worthless, 2 nobody likes you, 3 slut, 4 waist of space, 5 die already, 6 why are you still living? That's when i hear the banging on the bathroom door. That's also when i remember i never locked it. The door slams open and in rushes Andrew. He's saying something to me but i can't understand what it is. Everything is getting dim. He grabs a hold of my face, he is shouting at me but i hear nothing but quit. Its pure bliss. Then everything goes black.

          hey guys im new on here. so um let me know what you think of this and if i should keep updating! i have a few more chapters already written... i will post more soon! thanks!
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