Break On Me

"Maybe it's not about the happy ending.. Maybe it's about the story."

Sometimes it’s hard to accept what is, and it’s hard to go along with something even though you know you could do better.. But how come it’s so easy to slip up? So easy to say the wrong thing, use the wrong words, or even make the wrong moves? Sometimes we just all need to break.. in more ways than just mentally. I want you to know, that no matter what, I will always be here for you.. whether you like it or not, if you want me here or if you want me to live.. If you love me, or if you hate.. You can always break on me baby.


We loose ourselves in the things we love, we find ourselves there too..


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33. Chapter 032

//Emmy//
All of my life I had doubts if angels really existed, but now I know they do because I’m staring at one right now. The little curls in her hair were growing more and more every single day. That giggle of hers brightens my world, makes me smile. Sometimes I think about what it would be like if she wasn’t here. And most of the time I come believe that I wouldn’t be with Harry. Things would be so different.
Katie keeps us together, it breaks my heart to say that’s the only reason, but it’s true. Harry and I will never be able to get away from each other. We have a child together, and every time we look at her we both see the other. Lately, though, I’m beginning to think that’s a good thing.


“I want you to promise me something, Em.” Harry says, his voice soft as he puts his arm around me. He adjusts his position a little beside me. In my arms was the greatest thing in the world, our little baby. She’s a few days old and is already spoiled.
“What would that be?’’ I whisper back, keeping my voice down so I don’t wake her. Harry’s hand rubs my thigh lightly as he talks, the gesture was soothing to be – it had been a long day and that was just the perfect way to relax – just me, him, and Katie.
“God forbid, but.. if anything ever happens between us.. we won’t let it ruin her life. Because, you know, I just don’t want her growing up.. the way I did. So if anything happens to our relationship.. just promise me we’ll be friends, even if you hate me, will you just please promise me this.. for her?’’ Harry’s words scared me a tad, does that mean he was doubting us? Is he thinking things are bad now?
I smile lightly to myself, trying to ignore my thoughts. He never said it will happen, he just simply said if. I look over to see his beautiful eyes staring at me. He lifts the corner of his mouth, even those half smiles he gives me make everything feel alright.
“I promise.’’ I say in a low tone, not risking waking our little angel up.
“I love you.’’ Harry whispers, leaning in closer to me.
“I love you.” I hadn’t realized how close we were until I felt my lips brush against his. Harry closes the small distance, pressing his lips against mine. It wasn’t much, but it was enough.


My bottom lip got caught between my teeth as I heard the bedroom door slowly creak open. I gulp softly as I await for words, actions, something. All I heard was the sound of shuffling across the carpet, Harry barley picking up his feet as we walked, a sign that he was tired.
Within seconds his arms snaked around my waist, his chin resting on my shoulder, my arms against his. Harry’s hands found mine and he takes them, holding tight as he pressed himself against me.
“Isn’t she lovely?’’ He whispers softly to me. A smile came to my face, he was right for sure.
“She’s beautiful.’’ I mumble back, gripping his hands tighter.
The silence returned, both of us beholding the sight. I stopped myself from thinking about that god damn letter, I just wanted to go a minute just observing the beautiful thing Harry and I created. I didn’t want to worry about anything else. I wish I could just focus on her for a while, but that’s hard. Life is so complicated.. and even the simple things for me are hard.
I just wanted to look at her.
“Are you okay?’’ Harry’s words sent chills down my spine, his raspy voice speaking right into my ear. The warmth of his breath made my heart skip a beat. There are some things that just won’t change over time, and the feelings he gives me are certainly those things.
“I don’t know.’’ I shrug gently, it was rather hard with his weight baring down on me. A sigh left my mouth, I just couldn’t hold it in anymore.
“You know.. I think you should go along with their idea.. I think it will ease you up some, make you feel a little better.’’ Harry states, lightly starting to rock us from side to side. He was perfect, he does every little damn thing perfect.
I can’t find the courage to reply to him, to tell him what I really want to say. I know I need to, but I just can’t get it out right now. Not this early into the situation, not here. If I tried anymore I might just lose it again, and I hate falling apart in front of Harry – I absolutely hate it when he has to witness me in a mess.
“It’s okay, baby, if you don’t want to talk.. just tell me to shut up.’’
My heart didn’t want to leave him hanging, so I just gave him a slight nod. He squeezed me tight, his arms holding me as if I was about to leave forever. I wonder how we can love one person so much.. I guess you can’t define love.

*

My eyes opened slowly as I felt the mattress sway lightly, along with the feeling of the covers being moved. The bright light coming in from the balcony made me squint some. The sound of Harry sighing filled my ears and I furrowed my eyebrows, I wonder if he’s okay? I stop myself from moving, I don’t want this to end bad.. He could be mad about something and I might make it worse. But yet, he could be upset over something and I could make it better.
Still, after debating quickly in my head, I make no movements. His footsteps are heavy against the floor. Just when I was going to worry about him even more than I already am – my questions were answered. Crying. Harry’s the best, most amazing father in the world, and that’s something that will never change.
Katie’s crying got louder as I heard the door open. Despite that, the house was so quiet – I could hear Harry talking to out loud to her before he even reached her room, which is right beside ours.
“Daddy’s coming love.’’ His voice echoed in the quiet hallway. A smile came to my face, he’s wonderful. At least Katie will know the truth when she’s older. There was never anyone else.. there never will be.
Instantly I stop myself from thinking those things in my mind, I shouldn’t let what happened distort my thoughts. It’s in the past, and it will be resolved. That’s it. But I can’t stop thinking about it, at least I pushed it in the back though, or else I would have lost my mind already.
“Now then, no more tears from those pretty eyes baby girl.’’ I heard Harry say, it didn’t take him long to go get her.
Usually she does well at night, however she does normally get up around six or seven, but that’s when Harry takes over. I’m not a morning person and I need sleep, or I’ll feel bad – mentally and physically.
As the door shut, I turned over onto my opposite side to face them. I couldn’t resist the smile on my face as I watched Harry hold Katie up in the air, bringing her down to give her a kiss on the cheek, sending her up again.
“Dada.’’ Katie says in her ‘I just stopped crying’ voice.
Harry smiles brightly at her as he gives her one last kiss before starting his walk over to the bed. He looks up, his eyes meeting mine.
“Good morning, sunshine.’’ He winks as he reaches the bed, sitting Katie down after pulling the covers back. Those beautiful eyes dart to me and she giggles as she crawls over to me. She’s still a little wobbly when she moves, but it’s an amazing sight to watch her do anything.
“Good morning.’’ I reply, my throat a little dry since I just woke up.
“Did I wake you?’’ Harry asks as he joins us on the bed, pulling up the sheet to cover the lower half of his body. Katie looks over in Harry’s direction, noticing his presence beside her. She gives him that adorable smile as well before reaching out to him.
He grabs her by her waist and lies her down beside him. Automatically she grabs a hand full of his hair as she looks up at him, beautiful.
“Not too hard, darling.’’ He says, wiggling his eyebrows at her. She grins big at him, giggling a little. She loved it when he done that, for some reason it just tickled her.
“Yeah.. when you were getting up.’’ I finally response his question, at least the things that were distracting me where wonderful, amazing.
“Sorry love, I should’ve been quieter.’’ Harry says with a light smile, his hand on Katie’s tummy to keep her in place, her little hands still pulling at the same bit of hair of his.
“No, it’s okay. I’m glad I woke up.’’ I say, smiling at him before giving my little angel a glance.
Since I have realized angels really do exist, then I suppose heaven and hell do to.  
Finally I Update. Hope You Like It My Lovelys. This Book Is Almost Ending. ~HellloooAngiee 
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