Smile|A Joshler Fanfiction

Josh Dun and Tyler Joseph both know that they're gay. However, because of their fame, they both pretend to be straight, fearing that they would no longer be accepted. Josh and Tyler aren't only just gay, they're gay for each other, but they don't admit it to the other, so they're both scared to go for it. Especially Josh, who is scared that if he admits his love Tyler will become more depressed, and Josh couldn't stand to see the love of his life like that.


17. Who Would You Die For

Two Years Later

Fame had come and gone for Twenty One Pilots, except for perhaps the crazed fans that would never give up their love for the band, like those who longed for the My Chemical Romance Reunion. Tyler and Josh were madly in love as always, but for Tyler, things were changing. Blurryface wasn't exactly disappearing with time as he'd hoped, and the torture was getting worse. He didn't want to let Josh know, but he could tell and did what he could to protect him from his own head.

Despite his attempts, Tyler's representation of Blurry appeared in the kitchen more often than not.

Sometimes Josh would find him in their room repeating, "I have two faces, Blurry's the one I'm not. I have two faces, Blurry's the one I'm not."

He would often be seen crying in corners when he thought he was alone, and Josh felt so scared. He couldn't possibly work up the courage to tell Tyler, though, because he knew gangsters didn't cry, and he didn't want him to think of him as Mr. Misty Eye, what they'd nicknamed one of their middle school bullies when they saw him crying after the principal had told him off. He'd gotten suspended.

Perhaps it was the secrets that they felt they should keep that turned the atmosphere cold and sad. It was only Tyler's lullaby that helped Josh sleep at night.

"If you stick around, I will sing you pretty sounds, and we'll make money selling your hair... I don't care what's in your hair, I just want to know what's on your mind. I used to say I want to die before I'm old, but because of you, I might think twice."

He needed to know that Tyler was okay before he left.

However, even then, nothing felt quite right. The only highlight to things seemed to be their wedding.

Held in a field of flowers, adorned with bright colors, it wasn't the sort of place Blurry hung around. 

After that things were quiet.

And dull.

And rather sad.

Nothing looked right anymore.

One night everything changed.



No answer.


Josh crawled out of his bed and fumbled in the dark for the light switch, but when he reached it the lights didn't turn on. A crack of lighting got him thinking.

The power must be out. He thought. Slowly he grabbed a flashlight from under his bed and approached the door. 


He approached the stairs he too clearly remembered Tyler falling down.


The sound of a door closing came from downstairs and he ran down to see a note written on the knob.

Don't come looking for me. It read. 

Ignoring Tyler's rushed handwriting he ran outside into the freezing rain. 

"Tyler!" He called.

A trail of footprints on the soggy dirt road caught his eye and he ran after them hoping to find his husband. Finally, the footprints ended and there were words carved into the dirt. 

Go away.

He looked up and realized where he was. It was the beach, or more specifically, the rocks on the beach that he had tried to jump off of so long ago. And standing at the edge was Tyler Joseph. 

"Tyler!" Josh called.

Tyler turned, his face sunken and red. He was crying, and it appeared he had been doing so for a while. 

"Josh, I need you to leave," He said.

Josh approached him slowly.

"I don't think I can do that."

Tyler turned his back to him and watched the water.

"What are you doing out here?" Josh asked.


"Tyler please."

Tyler ignored him and continued to gaze out at the water.

It was silent for a moment.

"I'll jump."

Tyler turned to him with wide eyes.

"How could you say that?"

"I need to know why you're here," Josh said through gritted teeth.

Tyler glared at him and sat down. Josh did the same. 

"I came here because I can't take this anymore. This life, this world... I know I have you, but I also have Blurry and I can't live like this."

"What are you saying?" Josh whispered.

"I'm saying I'm ending it all," Tyler replied.

Josh felt a rush of pain surge through him, like a stab to the heart.

"Y-You're committing suicide."

"Don't say the word, Blurry will laugh more."

"Dude, you're just letting Blurry win if you do this, you know that."

Tyler looked down at the water and let his legs dangle over the edge.

"At this point, I don't care."

He leaned forward as if about to catapult himself into the sea but Josh placed a hand on his chest, pushing him back.

"Don't you want what's best for me?" Tyler cried, tears streaming down his face.

"Yeah, I do," Josh said, wiping Tyler's tears away with his thumb, "And that's why I'm going with you."

"No!" Tyler yelled, backing away from him, "I can't let you do that!"

Josh fought to remain calm.

"Please, Tyler. You once told me that you couldn't live without me. What did I say to you?"

Tyler looked into his eyes. 

"You said you couldn't live without me either."

"Exactly," Josh whispered. 

Tyler nodded, grabbing his hand. They stood on the ledge and looked down into the water. 

"I love you," Tyler said, his voice shaking. 

Josh pulled him close and replied, "I love you too."

He gave him one last kiss. 

"Hey, Tylo?"

"Yeah, Jishwa?"

"Promise me you'll smile on the way down."

"Of course."

With that, they looked into each other's eyes and jumped. 

They fell through the air, and as their souls shattered and their brains smashed they finally felt free of their blurry lives.


I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath. I wanna be known by you. Though I'm weak and beaten down, I'll slip away into the sound. The ghost of you is close to me, I'm inside out, You're underneath.





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