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For 16 years she's lived in a foster home when she's told she doesn't belong in said foster home and is now forced to live with her real family she's never known in her life. She doesn't know what love is when in reality she's never received real love....

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​March 1st

 

​Hi, it's me. Life is hard you know? Pssh, of course you know. I tell you everything and pretty much everything has been pretty much shit. This is pretty much the only thing keeping my thoughts private. I never thought I would result to writing in a fucking diary when I need to talk about my feelings. In a way though, it's a good thing I am. I swear if "mother" found this and read one page out of this whole book she'd probably murder me, not probably she would because it's mainly about how much I hate her and how much I hate life.

 

​I already know I'm fucking adopted, you don't need to remind me everyday how I'm completely useless and won't succeed in life. Well, if you're so sure of me not going anywhere in life than might as well keep me locked up and force me to stare at a wall because that's getting nowhere. Yes, she 'adopted' me doesn't mean she wanted to, she was pretty much forced to by a hell of a boyfriend that's never home. Though when he is, he's part of the reason I'm still living. Thanks Troy...

 

​So today I failed another test in algebra and got another lecture/beating telling me that I'm a fail of a child, yelling me at how no kidding why my actual family gave me, I'm useless and can't do anything right. I've heard it all before, it's all nothing new. It's not that I wanted to fail, I'm actually trying believe it or not but it's just not settling, I really am but she thinks I'm not paying attention and constantly sleeping in the back of the room. Though that's partially true, I only do because no one is willing to teach a stubborn adopted child who can't even get a simple homework problem right. I don't have any friends either so that's great, though it doesn't surprise me though...

 

The only person who truly understands this is the friend that I've made inside my head, a friend that's not really real but I wish I had. Though even if I did have at least one friend, I wouldn't be able to vent to the said friend, so that wouldn't go over too well.  

 

​Anyway, I'm gonna go now just incase the devil were to walk in because she's known to just barge in, so this is goodbye for now...

 

​The troubled child,      Cierraxx

 

​{ Hey! This is the first chapter to my new story. I hope to update semi often. I apologize ahead of time if some parts seem a bit choppy because I'm sorta just making this up as I go, but have a rough plan in my mind. If you like it so far, let me know, I'd love to know your thoughts, anywaaaay see ya lovelies! <3 }

 

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