Let me help you

This story is about getting through tuff times. Lee Mi-Na felt broken when her life fell apart. She became suicidal and started to walk down a dark ally. Can EXO help her? Can her childhood friend Oh Sehun save her from herself?

- This is my first story on English and I'm not good at it. Sorry for all the misspellings and lack of commas :b I hope to update every week, so stay tuned :3 -

[WARNING: There is going to be thoughts about suicide, self-harming and anxiety. If you don't like reading about it, then please leave. I'm writing from my own experience and it is my words and thoughts that in this story. If you don't like my way of writing, then please leave. ]

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6. Chapter 5

I woke up in a dark room, while a strange body were in the bed in front of mine. I moved my feet a little and found life in my legs. I felt more energy in my body, and I slowly sat up. I was careful not to wake up the sleeping boy. I took my feet’s down on the floor and tried to stand up. It took some time for me to get up, but I slowly walked over to the door, opened it and closed it behind me. I looked around and saw that someone had cleaned the room. I looked down at myself and got to wonder. Who had undressed me in the middle of the night to give me this cloth on. Yes, I had a bra on, but it violated my privacy. I supported myself against the wall, walking towards the kitchen. I tried to breath normal but it was faster than I wanted it to be. I felt sweaty and hot, so I wanted water. I stopped in the kitchen, and started to open the cabinets. By the 3 cabin I found the glasses. I took one out and filled it with water. My legs started to get weak, but I stood still. I took the glass up to my lips and felt the cold water down my throat. I put the empty glass down on the counter before the apartment started to turn in my head. I slowly put myself on the floor, before taking my left hand to my head. It turned around and I began to sweat more. The tears started rolling and I could feel an empty space in my body. I was lovely. Yes, I had nine boys to take care of me, but it didn’t fill my need, my empty emotionless space in my heart. I didn’t want the boys help, they were still strangers to me. I could feel a bad habit taking over and I started to crawl out of the kitchen. An unhealthy pain gave shocks thought my right arm, every time it touched the floor. But I liked it. I didn’t deserve to feel well. I had done something so terrible, that I wanted to hurt myself. I wanted to live like hell, because that was what I deserved. I tried to cry as low as I could while crawling towards the door. I got up before opening the door.

 

Everything was dark but I managed to get out, without falling. I was afraid. I wanted to hurt myself, without them knowing. I slowly walked away from the door, down a hallway. I wanted to get away from Sehun and the others so I couldn’t hurt them. I hadn’t told them about my depression or my desire to hurt myself. The ones who had undressed me, knew my secret. I had scars all over my body. Before I knew it, I cried even more. I wanted to get help, but I didn’t want people to play smart on my feelings. People who never tried to commit suicide, shouldn’t try to play clever on the feelings that comes with it. I hated that kind of people. I stopped by the end of the hallway, looking to both sides. I started to hurry down to the left, then the thought popped up in my head. ‘Every 30 minutes’ I looked back before collapsing into another person. I looked right ahead to see a tall guy standing in front of me. His lips moved but I couldn’t hear him. ‘I’m Sorry’ I tried to move past him, but he grabbed my left arm. I looked at him with panic before shaking my head. I apparently did it to hard and I started to cry even more. I looked at his face and realized who it was. Super Juniors Donghae. He looked with be with a nervous experience before looking around. He talked again. ‘I’m deaf’ I cried my words, and I wasn't even sure he could hear them. I tried to pull my arm away from him, but I could see Lay and Sehun appearing from the end of the hallway. They were in panic, and was clearly not awake in their head. They were wearing loosely cloth. I pulled my arm again before he grabbed my right shoulder. I wanted so badly to get away. I was sure that I only would do bad things against EXO. I would destroy them mentally with my suicide thoughts. I closed my eyes, in the same moment I felt some arm closing around me. I was shaking and sweat rolled down my spine. I was sure I had a fever. I opened them again to see Lay talking to Donghae. Properly explaining the situation. I stopped thinking and pushed Sehun away from me. He looked at me nervous before looking at me with angry eyes. He knew he couldn’t yell at me. I shook my head again before backing away from him. He other members came running down towards us. I pointed at Sehun before opening my mouth again. I talked with all the power in me. ‘It was not an accident! I tried to commit suicide, and you can’t stop me! I don’t want you help, I want to die! UNDERSTAND ME!’ I yelled the last part before backing further away from him. I shook my head again, while looking at him. He was crying. My eyes were turning red, from all the crying. ‘I will never be healthy again. I can’t be saved anymore’ I wasn’t sure he could hear me, but I kept going away. ‘Please let me leave!’ He took a little step towards me, before he stretched his hand towards me. He looked just as miserable as me. I could feel my energy disappear from me before whispering ‘I’m sleepy’ My eyes began to blur, and Sehun closed in on me. I started falling over, before he grabbed me. I became heavy in his arms before losing consciousness.

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