Let Me Love You

She let out disgusted noise and rolled her eyes at me, “You probably don't even understand what the concept of loving someone even is, Justin. You keep me locked here in your house and don't let me leave. You don't take me anywhere. You barely communicate with me and you expect me to like you?” I watched her sit up in bed and swing her legs over the side as she looked into my eyes, “You're fucking beautiful, Justin Bieber, but you're fucked in the head. This?” She motioned around the room, “This isn't the way to get me to love you, or even like you for that matter. I've slept next to you every single night for the last how many days and we both lay awake, holding our breaths because you aren't even trying.”

I had to interrupt her, “I didn't want you to feel like I was forcing myself on you.” The frown didn't leave my face as she continued speaking, to say I was confused by her what she said would be an understatement. She wanted me to try?

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7. 07-05 - I want to do this right

~Justin's Point Of View~


I'm nervous. I've never done this before, but I want this to be perfect for her. Thank God for Karla knowing how this whole 'romance' thing works or I'd be shit outta luck. Thankfully, Karla helped me plan this whole night. We've spent the last few days moving Krystal's things into the house and getting her house put up for sale, so tonight, I wanna take her out to celebrate. It's taking everything in me not to pace the floor as I wait for her. The last thing I want is to screw this night up and have it go shitty. I mean, it's technically our first date and I just want everything to be perfect for her. She deserves it. Hell, she deserves everything this world has to offer and I wanna be the one to give it all to her. I never thought I'd ever find a woman that I'd feel this way about. I'm not sure if this is love yet, but if this is just the beginning, I can't imagine how amazing true love must really feel.

I fidgetted with my cuff links nervously before my attention was drawn to the top of the staircase. To say she took my breath away would've been an understatement. She was wearing a beautiful, black dress that came to her mid-calf and accentuated her curves in a way I'd never seen in real life and there was a slit that ended almost at her left hip; any higher and it would've shown her underwear. Her hair was down and straight, glistening off of her shoulder and her makeup was done perfectly. I've never seen her look more beautiful than she does in this moment and I wasn't sure that it was possible. She has literally taken my breath away and that has never happened to me before.

“You look so fucking beautiful, Baby,” I pulled her into my arms and took in the scent of her perfume as she reached the bottom of the stairs, “And you smell so fucking good.”

“You're looking mighty dapper yourself tonight, Mr. Bieber,” She offered me a smile as she absently brushed the lapel of my suit jacket.

“I'm almost afraid to take you out tonight,” I gave her a flirty smile, “I'm gonna have to fight the guys off with a stick.”

She let out her angelic laugh, “I only have eyes for you, Justin. No one else could catch my attention the way you have.” The sincerity in her eyes made me actually believe her and I smiled a little wider, realizing once again that she was mine. I held my arm out for her to take and she linked her arm in mine as I lead her out of the house and to the Range Rover. I opened her door for her and waited for her to get in before shutting it and jogging around to the driver's side. Once our seat-belts were on, I started the car and pulled out of the garage. There was a comfortable silence as I reached over and took her hand, bringing it to my lips for a kiss before resting our intertwined fingers on my thigh.

“I want tonight to be perfect for you, Baby,” I said quietly, almost afraid to admit it as I pulled into the restaurant parking lot.

“Anytime I spend with you is perfect, Babe,” She must've sensed my nervousness, “I'm sure tonight will be no different.” I offered her a warm smile and got out, jogging around to open her door for her. We linked arms again and headed into the restaurant.

“Reservation for Bieber,” I spoke to the hostess and she nodded, her eyes being the only sign of her fear. She silently motioned for us to follow and she lead us to the table I had requested. It was off in a secluded, dim lit corner so that we could have a little privacy while we ate. I figured she wouldn't want anyone staring at us, like they usually do when I go out in public. It gets rather annoying at times, but tonight, I was going to ignore them all and focus all my energy on her.

“This place is really fancy, Jay,” She spoke as she looked over the menu, “And apparently very expensive.”

“Money's no object, Princess,” I stated, opening my own menu, “Get whatever you want.”

“What are you gonna have?” She asked, looking at me with her beautiful blue-gray eyes.

“Prime Rib and Lobster,” I already knew what I was going to order. I'm not even sure why I bothered looking at the menu.

“I'll have the same,” She smiled warmly at me and closed her menu, placing it on the table. It was only a moment or so before the waiter came and took our orders and then quickly returning with our drinks within minutes.

“I've never seen anyone look as beautiful as you do tonight, Princess,” I reached across the table, taking both of her hands in mine and I could see the crimson start to enter her cheeks at her embarrassment.

“Well, you see yourself every single day, so I don't know how that's possible,” She winked at me and licked her perfectly painted lips, “Thank you for bringing me out tonight, Jay. I've never been on an actual date before.”

“I want tonight to be perfect for you,” I admitted, “You deserve nothing but the best and that's exactly what I'm gonna give you.”

“You've never done this with anyone before, have you?” She must've sensed my nervousness.

“I've never wanted to,” I couldn't help but shrug, “All the girls in my past were never anything more to me than just a fuck. You're different. You're special. I want more with you. I want a future with you in it. I've never felt that way about any girl I've ever met in my life.”

“Then why me, Justin?” She was studying me intently, assumingly not understanding why she'd be the one I'd choose.

“How can you even ask that?” I cocked an eyebrow at her, “You're beautiful and sexy and classy and you just...you're just...everything. I-I look into your eyes and I feel connected to you in a way I've never felt with anyone. Almost like I knew you in a past life or something.”

“Maybe we did know each other in a past life,” She bit her lip, “Because I feel the same way when I look into your eyes, Jay. I mean, the way things started is pretty fucked up, but I don't want this to end. I don't want us to end. There have been very few men in my life that I've ever considered a future with, but with you, it's like I just automatically see it. I'm definitely not looking to be a part of your gang, but I want you and if that's what comes with you, then it's something I'm willing to deal with. I have plans for my future though and even though you're the one I want that future with, I'm not sure where my plans fit into your lifestyle.”

“What do you mean?” I frowned, not understanding where she was going with this.

“Like, someday I wanna get married and I wanna have kids. I want that to be with you more than anything, but I'm not sure how that would fit in with your gang. Like, how safe would it be for us to bring a child into this world when you constantly have people who want you dead?”

I took a deep breath, thinking about her words for a moment before speaking, “If and when that happens, we'll figure it out. We'll move if we have to or run away. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to get out, but if it came to it, I'd protect you and our family with my entire life. I-I'd protect you with my life now. I can't imagine that would change in the future. Not to mention, no one's been able to beat me yet and I don't foresee that changing anytime in the future. Hell, it'll probably be safer than most families if we have the gang protecting our family. I don't ever want you to have to worry about that stuff though, Princess,” I reached across the table and tucked a stray hair behind her ear, “I want you to never have to worry about anything ever again and I'm gonna do my best to make sure that happens.”

Our food was brought out a moment later and we made idle conversation while we ate. I paid the bill once we were finished and it wasn't too long before we were pulling up at the beach, the second part of the date I'd planned for tonight. I put the car in park and instructed her to take off her sandals since we'd be walking through the sand, as I took off my own shoes and socks. It wasn't long before we were headed down by the water for a moonlit walk on the beach. I took her hand in mine and pulled her close to me.

“It's beautiful here, Jay,” She smiled and I could see the moon glisten on her face.

“You're beautiful,” I responded, pulling her closer as I wrapped my arms around her, “I'm not too great at all this romantic stuff, but Karla said you'd love a romantic walk on the beach.”

She let out a laugh, “I do. It's perfect. Thank you, Babe. I love the beach. You learn to appreciate it more when you haven't always had access to one. There aren't many beaches in Wisconsin and the ones that are there, are pretty disgusting. The water here is so much more clear and beautiful.”

“I know what you mean,” And I did. I'd grown up in the suburbs of Las Vegas and we had to drive all across the state of California to reach a beach. I never really took the time to appreciate it anymore though, but tonight, it was as if she was making me see it through her eyes again; exciting, beautiful and breathtaking. It was either that or that's how I was feeling about her. I wasn't quite sure.

“Ya know, since that night,” She looked deep into my eyes and I could tell she was about to tell me something serious, “The night you asked me to stay? I haven't felt depressed for a minute. And that's a big change for me. My world felt hopeless when I moved down here, having lost my family the way I did and feeling so alone. I didn't think I'd ever be able to smile again, but then you came along. You may have kidnapped me to begin with, Jay, but I want you to know that you've given me hope for the future in such a short time. I don't feel hopeless and alone anymore and I never thought those feelings would ever go away.”

“Do you mind if I ask what happened to your family?” I didn't want to bring up anything bad, but since she seemed to be opening up to me, I felt the need to ask.

“They were just at the wrong place at the wrong time,” She sighed, “I was out with a couple friends one night and when I got home, there were police and ambulances everywhere. Someone had broken into the house to rob us and had killed everyone in my family. He was never caught, but they're still looking for him, I guess. I stopped following their leads when they kept coming up with nothing. And the house was left to me in the will, but I just couldn't stay there, knowing what happened to my parents,” She paused to shake her head and I could see the tears start to glisten in her eyes, “So, I sold the house, pulled out a map and pointed at an unknown destination and this is where I ended up. I was already working at a diner in Wisconsin, and they had a chain down here. So, I transferred, bought a house and just decided to leave my old life behind. No one else knows this,” I could see her swallow hard as she met my gaze, “I don't want people's pity. So, don't pity me. I'm only telling you this because anyone might look at this situation and think I'm absolutely insane for wanting you after everything's that's happened, but they will never understand that you're the reason I don't wake up feeling hopeless every morning anymore. You're the reason I can smile and you've changed me, in a way. You've made me see a bright future again and before you, when I tried to look into my future, all I saw was darkness. It was to the point where I contemplated just ending it, numerous times, but I'm glad I didn't. I'm glad I'm here with you and I'm glad you're feeling the same way I am, because we're both really fucked up. Like, almost beyond repair, but I think we can figure this thing out together. As long as you're willing to try.”

To say I was shocked at her confession, was saying the least. I licked my lips and stared into her eyes for a moment, “I'm sorry that all of that happened to you, Baby. I don't pity you, but there's a reason you're here and there's a reason we met. Fate has a funny way of placing you in the right place at the right time and there's no doubt in my mind, after hearing all of this, that we're meant to be here right now. Together. We're both orphans and we've both lost our families in a tragic way, but somehow, we ended up here. Together. Maybe we're meant to fix each other. Maybe we're meant to create our own future that's full of happiness and create a family that the both of us our missing. I wanna be the reason for your smile, cause lately, you've been the reason for mine. I never thought I'd meet anyone who could make me feel the way you make me feel. I thought that my life would be all about crime and the gang until I died, but it's like the shades have been lifted off of my eyes and I see a world much bigger and much better than just all that. I see a world where happiness is really possible and it's really possible for me to love and for someone to love me. I've never felt that before. So, I guess I owe you a thank you.”

She wiped away a stray tear that had slid down her cheek and chuckled, “I think we're even, Baby. You've changed things for me too, remember?” I leaned down, capturing her lips in a soft kiss, unable to stop myself from tasting her. I pulled her closer to me and she wrapped her arms around my neck as I lifted her slightly off the ground, kissing her with a need I'd never known before. This woman was everything and more and I knew it was only a matter of time before I was madly in love with her, if I wasn't already there.

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