7. Dear Crush #4
Dear Crush ,
Today was fun :D You and I played around. You teased me , I teased you. We actually acted normal today. And I liked it. We talked, we played together , we hung out a lot. So I am happy. But of course all that fun and games comes to an end when I come home. Because like every afternoon.... you talk with her. And she makes you happy. She makes you feel nice while I sit here venting out my feelings to total strangers.
You like her and it's never going to be me. I've come to terms with that. But that doesn't mean I like it. I will still try no matter what. I know all this will just end horribly but I'm not a quitter.
During P.E. I was running and half way I got tired. Cramps and headaches started to take over my body. I slowed down letting you catch up to me. You slowed down and literally pushed my back encouraging me to keep going. I mentally smiled to myself and to you for your help. You made me really happy today.
My friend asked me if I still liked you even though you didn't like me back. Of course I still do. There was no point in lying to her. So I said "Yes." She looked at me like I was crazy and told me that you weren't worth it. And yeah... I kinda knew that. I know that you aren't worth my time or my efforts. So why do I still try? Why? ughhhhh.... I hate being a teenager sometimes.... -.-