'You can take this heart, heal it or break it all apart. No, this isn't fair love me or leave me here.' -Love Me or Leave Me by, Little Mix
Ever since Kendall called me this afternoon saying that she was coming over tonight, I’ve been so tense. I can’t believe she just invited herself to my house right off the bat when I specifically told her that I had company over and was busy. Never knew anyone could be so disrespectful and invite themselves over when they weren’t invited. Ugh, why did I decide to go out with her? I knew she was going to be trouble but since I was so attracted to her I didn’t know what I was thinking. I’m so stupid. I hate how decided to ask out someone I didn’t really get to know first. God, maybe if I was able to control myself and didn’t rush things maybe we wouldn’t be together.
But at the same time I’m kind of glad that I’m with her. Even though Kendall is rude sometimes but I have to admit I still like her. It’s not because she’s hot, it’s because she’s funny, a great kisser, and a good flirt. Every time I try to turn her down, she literally turns me on just so I can change my mind. It’s crazy but at the same time I find it sexy. I’m literally so confused right now. I like this girl but I also don’t. Is that normal? Probably not. I sigh and shake my head as I pace by the front door trying to stop over exaggerating. It’s later and Kendall is on her way over to my house. The reason why I know that is because she texted me saying she was on her way, along with tons of emoji’s which I hate.
Right now no one is home because my dad went home after lunch because he has work tomorrow morning and then after he left my mum, Katie, Gemma, and Alaina went shopping for the day. Alaina has no idea about Kendall because if she did then she’ll really get mad at me and I don’t want that to happen again. The last time she was mad at me, it was torture and I felt empty without her. So if she gave me the silent treatment again then I don’t know what I would do. Suddenly, I stop pacing when I hear the doorbell ring. Great, she’s here. I sigh and take a few deep breaths, calming myself down and open the door. There she was standing there in black leather skinny jeans, her black platform pumps, and a fluffy coat. She smiles when she saw me and invites herself in and gives me a hug.
“Harry Bear! I missed you so much,” she squealed.
I cringe after she called me that nickname again. She’s called me other cutesy nicknames but so far right now she stuck with “Harry Bear”. I told her that it bothered me and obviously she doesn’t care.
“H-Hi. I missed you too,” I replied and then she leans down to give me a passionate kiss.
I have to admit I missed that but still her kisses are nothing compared to Alaina’s. Kendall’s kisses are kind of rough but passionate while Alaina’s are soft, gentle, and meaningful.
“So…what do you want to do?” she asked once we broke free from our little session.
“We could go up to my room?” I suggested.
She looks at me for a few seconds. I guess what I said was weird to her. And by weird, I mean weird in a good way because whenever she comes over we don’t go into my room because I’m afraid that I’m going to get in trouble but since my mum is not home I’m able to take her up there whenever I want.
“Really?” she smirked.
“Really,” I replied.
“I thought you didn’t want me up in your room,”
“That’s because my mum was home then. She’s not home now so I can take you up there if I want to,”
She smirks again and comes over to give me another deep kiss. She groans as she runs her sexy fingernails through the back of my hair, gripping on it like she always does whenever we make out. Before things got too heated, I break free and she looks at me with lust and desire biting on her bottom lip. Damn, she’s so sexy.
“Let’s go then,” she whispered seductively.
I smile and then we go up the stairs to my bedroom. After turning on the light, I shut the door behind me and lock it and go over to sit on my bed. I look over at Kendall and she’s taking off her coat revealing her low cut long sleeved white crop top. I bite my bottom lip as I admire her beautiful skinny, but curvy body. She notices me staring and smirks before coming over to join me on my bed.
“You have a cute room,” she said.
“Thanks,” I said.
She smiles and leans down to give me a quick kiss and then she starts look around my room. Then she stops in her tracks when she finds Alaina’s bag that Katie brought for her this morning since the extra clothes she has here are being washed.
“Whose bag is that?” Kendall asked.
“That’s Alaina’s,” I said.
“Why is she here? Does she not understand that I don’t want her near you?” she snarled. “Ugh, she’s so immature,”
“Why do you hate Alaina so much? Ever since you moved here you two have been causing problems with each other,” I asked.
“She’s annoying and she keeps you from hanging out with me. Don’t you ever get tired of her annoying ass?”
I sigh. I can’t believe my girlfriend disrespects my best friend. Alaina never did anything wrong. It’s kind of obvious that Kendall is jealous of her and insecure because if she weren’t then she wouldn’t be making up excuses.
“No I don’t get tired of her because she’s my best friend,” I exclaimed. “I don’t know how to tell you this but if you keep disrespecting my best friend then I can’t be with you,”
“You’re going to break up with me over that? Wow. You’re so stupid I wonder who you get it from,” she laughed.
I roll my eyes and don’t say anything after that. All she does is make fun of me, Alaina, or makes everything all about her. No wonder she’s like that because apparently her mother stopped parenting her. I mean, that’s just ridiculous. What kind of mother does that? Kendall may be 17 but she still needs limits, rules, and boundaries. Whatever. I get over it and then I suggest if we could watch TV, which Kendall agreed on. I flip through the channels and she made me stop on the Lifetime channel just so she can watch Project Runway. Gross. I tried to tell her no but she threatened to leave if I didn’t let her watch it so I kept it on. She always has to have everything her way. After making through the episode I begin to pick up the remote so I can change the channel but Kendall gets it before me and turns the TV off. Then she pushes me on my back and sits on top of me, straddling against my groin.
“I’m bored,” Kendall said.
“We can go downstairs into the basement and play a video game,” I said.
“That’s boring. I want to do something else,” she said.
“And…what might that be?” I asked.
She smirks and starts to run her hands along my stomach, sending chills all over my body. I can also feel my dick starting to ache from how much she’s turning on.
“You know what I mean,” she whispered seductively.
I can see the look of lust in her eyes and I can tell once again that she wants to have sex. We’ve talked about going all the way before but we never did it because there would be times when I wouldn’t be ready. We’ve done other stuff that involves sex but nothing major. I’m still a virgin at 17 because I’ve always planned on saving it for someone special and I’m also not ready to do it with Kendall yet. But from the way she’s turning me on right now I think I am ready. Maybe I could-
No stop it Harry. If you do it then you might regret it!
Do it. She’s sexy and wants to feel close to you. Don’t be a wimp!
Side A is right because what if I do lose my virginity to Kendall and I end up regretting it? That wouldn’t be good if I do because I wouldn’t be able to take my virginity back. Once it happens, it’s gone and there’s no turning back. But Side B is right too. Kendall is sexy and I know she wants to feel close to me. I think for a few more moments and then I slowly shake my head.
“No…not tonight,” I said.
“Oh my god! You always do this!” she sighed angrily. “When are we going to officially do it?”
“I do this because I’m still not ready yet,” I exclaimed.
“Come on Harry. We’ve been together for almost 2 months you have to be ready by now,” she said, rolling her eyes. “I can also tell that you’re because you’re getting hard for me,”
“2 months is still too soon for me. Please, can we just wait to do this?”
“You’re such a wimp. No wonder you’re still a virgin,” she laughed. “Usually I can get any guy to sleep with me,”
“Well I’m not like those guys,” I said.
She sighs and rolls her eyes again. She’s really starting to get on my nerves right now and I want her to leave but at the same time I don’t want her to because I don’t want to be home alone. I’m sure the girls are on their way home but still.
“If you keep acting like this then you’re gonna have to go home,” I said.
“I’m not going home until you fuck me,” she said.
“I said no!”
Before she was able to say anything else, I hear a knock at my door along with my doorknob jiggling. Shit! The girls are home from shopping. Just great.
“Harry?” I hear my mum say.
“Yeah?” I asked.
“What are you doing and why is your door locked?”
“I-I was in the shower and I’m getting dressed,” I said, obviously lying.
I hear Kendall snort and she covers her mouth so my mum doesn’t hear. If she found out that Kendall is here she’ll freak out and it would be so embarrassing.
“Okay. Well, Alaina and Katie are leaving in an hour so you better come down to say goodbye. Oh, and bring Alaina’s bag down too, please,” she said.
“Alright,” I replied.
I hear her walk away and once I knew she was gone, I sigh with relief.
“That was close,”
“I can’t believe your mom still cares if you have girls over your house. My mom walked in on me having sex with my 20 year old boyfriend when I was 15 once and she didn’t care,”
“My mum is different than yours,” I said.
“You think?” she laughed.
“I’ll be back I’m going to take down Alaina’s bag and say goodbye to her,”
“You’re going to see her tomorrow. Just leave it outside of your door,” Kendall said.
I sigh and get up from my bed. I grab Alaina’s bag, unlock the door, and set her bag on the floor in the hall before shutting my door again and locking it. I lay back on my bed and Kendall comes back and sits on me.
“So what do you want to do now?” she asked.
“I don’t know what do you want to do?”
“If we’re not going to go all the way…. want to do what we usually do?”
I take a look at her and her brown eyes are glistening with lust again. I bite my bottom lip and nod. As long as if we’re quiet and not going all the way we’ll be fine.
“Alright then, let’s do it,” she smirked.
Wait…what? Did I seriously just agree on having oral sex with Kendall? I literally promised my mum that I would come downstairs and say goodbye to Alaina. But nope I decided to make out with my girlfriend and fool around. Before I had the chance to react, Kendall leans down to kiss me and I couldn’t help but kiss her back. The kiss deepens and before I knew it, we rolled over and I was on top of her, pulling off her clothes. This is it I guess. Goodbye Katie. Goodbye Shane. Goodbye Alaina.
Anne, Gemma, my mom, and I just got back from shopping and it’s only 7:30. We’ve been out almost all day today and I’m kind of tired. Even though I napped all morning but still, shopping can tire you out sometimes. After helping Anne bring her bags inside she goes upstairs, probably to check on Harry since he’s not downstairs. She comes down a few minutes later and sits down at the counter next to Gemma.
“Where’s Harry?” I asked Anne.
“He’s in his room getting dressed because he said he took a shower. He said he’ll be down in a few,” she replied.
I nod and then they start talking about women stuff that I’m totally not interested in but I decided to just stay and listen for a while. As they were talking the minutes slowly go by and Harry still hasn’t came downstairs yet. I wonder what’s taking him so long? Anne said he just got of the shower and is getting dressed so he has to be done by now. He’s probably just lying in his bed waiting for me so we can cuddle before I leave. Maybe I should go up there to see what he’s up to. I get up from the counter and start making my way down the front hall and up the stairs to Harry’s room.
Once I reached his door, I notice it was closed and my bag is sitting on the floor. Strange. Harry could have just waited for me to come in and get it. I sigh and begin to put my hand on the knob to open the door but all of a sudden I heard some noises. I put my ear against the door and I can tell that someone else is with him. I listen some more and I hear some moaning along with a few giggles, which I can tell were from a girl. What the hell? Who could be in Harry’s room?
“Ugh! Harry...Keep going...Just like that!”
I feel my stomach drop and my heart pound rapidly in my chest. Is he seriously having sex with some other girl behind my back? I can’t believe it.
“Harry! O-Oh my god! Don’t stop!” went the voice again.
(A/N: If you want more emotion while reading this part, listen to Love Me or Leave Me by, Little Mix.)
My mouth drops and I feel tears fill up in my eyes when I realize who is making noises in his room. Out of all people, it’s Kendall. Now I know the reason why he didn’t come downstairs. It was because he was busy fucking his side hoe. I feel a tear roll down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away before grabbing my bag off the floor and go downstairs. My mom, Gemma, and Anne are still talking so they don’t notice me coming down so I set my bag down and go to the basement. I quietly shut the door and sit down at the top of the stairs, putting my back against the door and quietly start sobbing. How could Harry do this to me?
He promised he wouldn’t spend time with her behind my back anymore but he lied! This is the third time he’s done this and I’m beyond hurt. He probably invited her over while I was out shopping just so I don’t find out but sadly I did. He had to invite her over when he has been kissing me, flirting, and telling me that he has feelings for me and I deserve someone better than Josh. He betrayed me; my best friend since I was a baby has once again ditched me for his girlfriend. Even though Harry and I aren’t dating but still. It’s obvious that he cares about that slut more than me because if he didn’t then he wouldn’t be with her at the moment. He would probably be with me.
But what if their relationship gets serious and he starts ditching me for her from now on and doesn’t want to be my best friend anymore? No that can’t happen, it can’t. Harry is too nice to do something like that. And we’ve also been friends for so long for someone to ruin it for us. I let out another sob while thinking about Harry leaving me for his girlfriend. The last thing I need is to lose him completely. I seriously can’t imagine my life without him it would be torture. The last thing I need is to lose my best friend. I guess some more time away from him won't be that bad though, just as long as he still remembers I exist.
I sniffle and try to calm myself down but more tears keep falling out of my eyes. My chest hurts from all of my crying and my stomach is literally tied up in knots. I usually never cry over guys because I’ve never felt so in love with one like I am with Harry. It’s stupid, I know but I can’t help myself. After a few minutes I finally start to calm down and wipe my tears away. I can’t believe my best friend betrayed me again. I hate him! I hate him so much. Once I fully calmed down, I continue sitting on the stairs. My ass is hurting from how long I’ve been sitting here but I don’t care. I don’t want my mom, Gemma or Anne to notice that I was crying over Harry. They will just ask question. Suddenly, I hear a soft knock at the door.
“Alaina?” went my mom.
“Yeah?” I mumbled.
“Come on, we’re going home. You have school tomorrow,” she said.
Finally, we’re getting out of here. After what I just heard I don’t want to be here anymore. I just want to be home in my bed so I can cry without anyone noticing. I wipe the tears that remained on my cheeks and then I stand up and open the door, walking into the front hallway finding my mom by the front door with Anne and Gemma. She already has her coat and shoes on so it’s obvious that she’s ready to go.
“Are you okay, Alaina?” Anne asked me.
“Yeah. I’m fine,” I said. “Where’s Harry?”
“Good question. He brought your bag down but then he went back to his room. I’ll call for him,” she said. “Harry! Alaina and Katie are leaving! Let’s go!”
We wait a few seconds but he still doesn’t come down. He’s probably still fucking Kendall. Who knows?
“I don’t think he heard you,” Gemma said.
“I don’t know what his deal is,” Anne sighed and turns to look at my mom and I. “I’ll tell him you guys left,”
We nod and then we give Anne and Gemma a hug goodbye. Then my mom and I walk out the door to the car. I look back at the house and I notice Harry’s bedroom window. His light is still on but I can’t tell what’s going because the curtains are closed. I sigh and then get into the car, shutting the door behind me. Goodbye Harry. Have fun fucking your side hoe. Not.
Poor Alaina, Harry ditched her again. Do you think she's going to forgive him again? You're going to have to wait and see ;)
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