Things seemed to go back to normal after I forgave Harry for ditching me for Kendall. We literally picked up right where we left off just like we usually did whenever we were finished being mad at each other. After that day he stopped hanging out with her, but she still continued to tag along with us at lunch or if we were hanging out with the others. Like usual they would flirt and she would hold his hand like they were a couple. I know she was doing that on purpose to make me jealous but to be honest I don’t really seem to care anymore. I may be in love with Harry but if he wants to be with her then I’m just going to have to accept it. I can’t always get what I want. But to be honest, I really hope their relationship doesn’t last because I’m sick of her. I know I say that so many times but still. She treats everyone with respect but me.
I still don’t know what I did to make her hate me. Sigh. Maybe her bitchiness will stop once we finally get to know each other. Hopefully that’s soon because if it doesn’t happen then I don’t know what to do. I guess I’m going to have to deal with her being a bitch. It’s now been a month and it’s finally one of my favorite times of the year: me and Harry’s birthday. (Well, our actual birthday’s passed but we just never really celebrated yet.) When we were kids we used to celebrate our birthdays at the same time since we’re only a week apart. We would have birthday parties with our friends and then we would open our presents together at home once the party was over. We used to get a lot of stuff; it drove our mother’s crazy. But once we got older we got smaller things instead board games and toys and that made them happier.
This year, Harry and I are turning 17 and we’re having a party at one of the teen clubs. We literally saved up our life savings for this party and we’re so excited. Last year for our 16th birthday my friends planned a surprise sweet 16 for me but made it Harry’s day too so it could be fair. He really didn’t mind about not really having a 16th birthday party because sweet 16’s are kind of girly. But we still had a great time. Our party this year is not really “special” like our 16th birthday party was. We just invited our friends from school and our family. We handed out invitations a few days before winter break and a lot of people are coming. Thankfully Kendall wasn’t at our school yet because then Becky would have immediately invited her.
Or she probably has already. She better not have or I will kill her. Not literally though. Right now, Harry and I are sitting in the living room at my house watching TV. We spent most of the day doing homework and making sure everything was ready for our party, which is this weekend. So I guess you could say we’re tired. I’m laying my head in Harry’s lap as he gently runs his fingers through my hair while I try to concentrate on watching a rerun of last night’s episode of The Vampire Diaries. I made Harry turn to the channel since I didn’t get the chance to watch it last night and that kind of ticked him off.
He hates that show more than anything in the whole world. He thinks girl’s watch it just so they can drool over the sexy vampires. Which is kind true but the real reason why we watch it is because there’s a lot of drama, cliffhangers, mysteries, and it has a great plot. My eyes are fluttering here and there while I watch the episode, due to Harry pampering me, and it’s driving me crazy. He’s probably doing this on purpose because once I fall asleep he’s going to change the channel just so he can watch one of his stupid shows.
“Ugh! This show sucks!” Harry groaned with frustration.
“No it doesn’t. You just have to get into it,” I replied.
“I’ve tried but I can’t seem to,” he said. “I don’t understand the point of this show,”
“I’m not explaining it again, I explained it to you so many times,” I sighed.
“Can I please change the channel before I go crazy?” he asked.
I sighed and grabbed the remote from his hand and changed the channel for him. We decide to watch The Big Bang Theory, one of our favorite shows. There’s marathon on today since there’s a new episode tonight so Harry and I spend the rest of the afternoon watching it until we got bored. Just as he turned off the TV, Harry’s phone starts vibrating on the coffee table.
“I’ll be back,” he said, grabbing his phone off the table while getting up from the couch.
It’s obviously Kendall calling him because who else wants to talk to him other then me, his sister, father, and Louis? I sigh and sit up on the couch and decide to play on my phone. He may not be hanging out with her much but he still tends to talk and text her. It may hurt me deep down but I know I can’t stop him from talking to his girlfriend or whoever he wants people to call her. After listening to him laugh at everything Kendall said for a half an hour, he finally hangs up and comes back into the living room. I try not to show the jealously on my face because then he’s just going to complain and we’re going to fight again, which I don’t want to happen.
“Sorry. That girl talks a lot,” he said as he sits down beside me.
No shit. I wanted to say but I kept my mouth shut.
“It’s fine,” I said, giving him a fake smile. “That’s what happens when you have a girlfriend,”
He gives me a look and starts to laugh.
“She’s not my girlfriend. We’re just seeing how things go first,” he said.
“Oh really because every time you’re around her you tend to blush,” I teased.
“Shut up I do not,” he laughed again.
I laugh back and playfully roll my eyes at him before lying back on the couch, putting my feet in his lap.
“What time is it?” I asked him.
He reaches for his phone again to check the time and puts it back on the table.
I sigh. This day has gone by so slow. I just want to go to bed because I’m exhausted.
“What time do you have to be home?”
“I don’t know. My mum is going out with her new boyfriend so she probably won’t be home until late,” he replied.
“I know it’s a school night but do want to spend the night?” I asked.
“I guess. I’m not in the mood to sleep in my bed alone while my mum is out,”
I giggle from what he just said. He doesn’t want to admit it but he such a mommy’s boy. Whenever she’s not home he can never stay at home for more than a few hours, especially when it’s at night. He always misses his mama when she’s not home.
“Okay. I’m sure my mom won’t mind. She’s working until 11:30 and she’ll probably think that we fell asleep while watching TV or something,” I said.
“All right, I’ll just text my mum and let her know,” he said.
I nod and let him text his mom and then we decide to order dinner since we’re both starving. We haven’t eaten since noon. We agree on having on Chinese food and it got delivered in 20 minutes. After we finished eating, I box the left overs so my mom can eat some when she gets home and then Harry and I decide to go up to my room since we’re pretty tired from today. We change into comfortable clothes and then we get into my bed. Harry turns on the TV and starts flipping through the channel and stops when he notices that Modern Family was on. He literally watches this just so he can drool over Sofía Vergara but he doesn’t want to admit it.
“She’s so hot,” Harry mumbled when he saw Sofía on the TV.
“You say that every time we watch this,” I laughed.
“Excuse me Alaina. You do the same thing to Ian Somerhalder when we watch The Vampire Diaries,” Harry said.
I give him a look, pretending to not know what he’s talking about.
“I do not,”
“Okay. Whatever you say,” he shrugged and turns the channel. “Want to watch The Big Bang Theory?”
“Sure,” I replied.
He nods and goes to the channel. I manage to watch the show for a few minutes but after I snuggled up next to Harry under the covers, I suddenly fall asleep.
“Alaina! Alaina, wake up. We have to get ready for school,” I hear Harry say while he shakes me awake.
I open my eyes and I find him sitting beside me on the bed, shirtless while wearing his soccer sweatpants. Why does he have to be so hot?
“No,” I groaned and hide my face under the pillow.
“Come on. Let’s go. I don’t want our mother’s to get mad at us for being late for school,” he said.
I sigh and start to get out of bed. I’m literally not in the mood to go to school today but I know I have to go. I take a quick shower and then I put on black leggings and a t-shirt. Then I tie my hair up into a messy bun before putting on some light makeup. I still kind of look like a total dyke but I want to be comfortable today.
“You ready to go?” Harry asked, peeking his head into the bathroom.
“Yeah. Let’s go,” I replied.
I put on one of Harry’s sweatshirts before putting on my coat and grabbing my backpack on my desk chair. We walk down the stairs and we find my mom in the kitchen making herself a cup of coffee.
“Hi Mama,” I said.
“Hi sweetie. Hi Harry. I didn’t get to see you last night. You both were asleep,” she said.
“Sorry, we were kind of tired from homework and planning our party,” I replied.
“It’s okay, sweetie. Just have a good day. I’ll see you later,”
I nod and I give her a hug goodbye. I follow Harry outside and right away I start shivering. It’s a really cold winter this year. I heard that it was supposed to snow today but hopefully it doesn’t happen because I’m getting really tired of it. Harry waits until his car warms up and then he drives off to school. Like usual, the car ride was full of conversation and laughter and not just quiet and boring. When we arrived to school, Harry parks his car and we go inside. I was expecting Harry to walk with me to my locker but my hopes soon faded when he told me that he had to meet Kendall by hers. I was literally fuming with anger but I tried not to show it around him. I tell him to have fun and I’ll see him in algebra. He gives me a quick kiss on the forehead and then he was off. I sigh and go straight to my locker. Just as I got there, I find Lauren, Bailey, and Niall waiting for me.
“Hey,” I said.
“Hey. Where’s Harry?” Bailey asked.
“Where do you think?” I asked with sarcasm as I begin to open my locker.
“I’m guessing he’s with Kendall again,” Lauren said.
I nod and start putting the books I didn’t need into my locker.
“Damn. It feels like I haven’t seen him in forever. He’s always with that girl,” Niall explained.
“I know,” I said as I shut my locker.
“I think he’s pretty serious about her if you ask me,” Bailey said.
I sigh and roll my eyes. I highly doubt they’re serious about each other. It’s been a month. My friends act like they’ve known each other for 2 years. Harry told me that he and Kendall are seeing how things go before they go any further in their relationship. Harry usually likes to take things slow when it comes to that.
“Nah I doubt it. I think they’re just seeing how things go,” I said.
“Not the way everyone else sees it,” Lauren laughed. “You can tell that he’s nuts about her,”
I try not to show the hurt that I feel in my chest. I can’t believe my friends actually think he’s in love with that girl. I mean he barely even knows her. He can’t be serious about her. My friend’s just love to over exaggerate and make up things when it comes to couples. I manage to listen to my friends talk for a little while longer and then I tell them that I have to go to my first class. This day better go by fast.
It’s the end of Algebra II class, which means that it’s finally my favorite period of the day: lunch! I spent the whole morning starving since I haven’t eaten breakfast this morning before Alaina and I left her house. Speaking of Alaina, I actually felt bad that I left her alone this morning while I went to meet up with Kendall. I really didn’t want to meet up with her to be honest but I did it to be nice. I admit, I like Kendall but she’s starting to annoy me a little bit. Yes she’s hot, funny, and charming but she’s very clingy and talks way too much. But for some reason I can’t seem to stay away from her. I don’t know why, I just can’t. I’ve been with a few girls before her but I never felt that way before. We haven’t gone far but we have made out a few times. I can tell that she wants to go further in our relationship…if you know what I mean.
Don’t get me wrong or anything I want to do it with her but at the same time I don’t want to because I’m afraid that I might regret it after. My parents told me that if I wanted to have sex I had to do it with a girl I was serious about and not do it for “fun” like most boys my age do. To be honest, I kind of am serious about Kendall so I guess we should do it. I thought about it long and hard ever since we actually started hanging out. I haven’t hung out with her in a while but I hope we do soon. I just hope Alaina doesn’t find out. I just hate how I got her upset when I ditched her for Kendall the last time and I seriously do not want my best friend mad at me again. Usually Alaina forgives me but if I ditch again, I highly doubt she will.
“Come on, let’s go to lunch. I’m starving,” Alaina said to me as we walk out of the classroom together.
“Okay. I’ll meet you down there. I have to stop by my locker to get some money. I left my wallet in my coat pocket,” I said.
She nods and makes her way down to the cafeteria. God she’s so beautiful. I love her so much. I may be kind of serious about Kendall but I still hate how I’m with her and not with my best friend. I sigh and make my way to my locker.
I make my way down to the cafeteria and just like I expected, it’s crowded. The lunch line is stretched out across the room. It’s Wednesday, which means they’re serving nachos today. It’s one of our best foods on our school menu. Thankfully I brought my lunch with me because I don’t think I would manage to wait in that long line. I find the usual table that I sit at with my friends but for some reason the table was empty. What the hell? Usually they’re down here before me. I wait a couple of minutes but they still haven’t come down. I sigh and take out my phone and decide to text Becky since she’s the fastest texter ever.
Where are you guys? I’m in the cafeteria waiting
I’m in the computer lab with Bailey because we’re working on a project for Graphic Design class and Niall and Lauren are taking a test that they missed last week. I guess it’s just going to be you and Harry today.
I sigh with frustration. Just great. My friends have stuff to do so it looks like I have to sit here and eat, looking like a total loser while waiting for Harry to get down here. Or he’s already down here but he’s sitting with Kendall somewhere. I sit down at the table but instead of eating, I put my head down on the table and try to rest my eyes a little. Hopefully that would make the time go by faster.
“Hey Lainey,” I hear Harry say.
I put my head up and I find him sitting across from me with a tray of nachos. I got down here before him. How did he get lunch so fast? He probably went to his locker and went the shorter way here. Wish I thought of that.
“Hey,” I replied.
“Why are you sitting all by yourself?” he asked.
“Becky and Bailey are in the computer lab doing a project and Niall, Lauren, and Louis are taking a test,” I said.
He nods and starts eating his nachos. Next to fajitas, nachos are his favorite food. I think every Mexican food is his favorite.
“Why aren’t you sitting with Kendall?” I asked.
“She had a doctor’s appointment out in Philadelphia. She won’t be back until tomorrow,” he replied.
I nod and decide to start eating my lunch in silence. I hate this. I hate how our conversations are getting more awkward. It feels like we don’t even know each other anymore.
“You okay?” Harry asked.
“Not really,” I said.
“HARRY!” went a high-pitched voice.
I look at the entrance of the cafeteria and I feel my blood begin to boil when I see the one and only Kendall Jenner running over to Harry. I thought she was at her doctor’s appointment but I guess I thought wrong. Once Kendall reached the table, she wraps her arms around Harry and kisses his cheek multiple times. Geez it’s not like you haven’t seen him in 2 years.
“Kendall, I thought you had a doctor’s appointment,” Harry said.
“I did but then my mom texted me during my fashion class saying it got postponed,” she said.
I roll my eyes as she hugs him again. Kendall finally notices me and gives me a snobby look before whispering something to Harry.
“Actually can we-?”
“No!” she replied, cutting him off.
Harry sighs and looks at me again. I obviously know what he’s going to ask. He’s going to ask if he can leave me and sit with Kendall somewhere else.
“Just go. I’ll see you in-“
“Great! Let’s go, Harry,” Kendall said, cutting me off.
She gets up from the table, literally pulling Harry up and dragging him behind her like he’s some dog on a leash. Harry turns his head to look at me and shrugs his shoulders before mouthing “Sorry” before walking to the back of the cafeteria. I sigh and then without thinking I throw out my lunch and go to the bathroom. I hide in a stall and sit on the toilet while I wait for the period to end. Can’t believe he did this to me again. But to be honest, I don’t think it was his fault. It was Kendall’s. She literally made him leave. I don’t know why he let’s that fake bitch control him. He hates those types of girls but I don’t know why he continues to hang with her. I don’t know what’s going on with my best friend.
When lunch finally ended, I quickly get out of the bathroom and start making my way to my next class. Thankfully Harry, Kendall, or my other friends aren’t in there with me because I’m in no mood to be around them right now. The rest of the day goes by and then it was time for my bio class. Instead of taking notes today, Mr. Baker let’s us get into groups. Before Harry could ask me if I wanted to be his partner, Kendall comes over and literally drags him off his stool and over to her table. What the fuck is her deal? I find a girl from my Italian class, named Maggie, with no partner so I decided to work with her. We finish up before most people and then we talk a little bit before class is over.
Just as the bell rang, I literally run out of the room without even waiting for Harry. I know he drove me here but I don’t care, I’ll walk since I don’t like taking the bus. I put my stuff that I didn’t need in my locker and then I was out the door. Just like I expected, it’s starting to snow outside and a lot of it is sticking to the ground. I make my way down the sidewalk, ignoring my phone vibrating in my pocket. It’s probably Harry looking for me. I guess he finally managed to get away from Kendall and he’s wondering where I am so he can take me home with him.
Instead of texting him back I just leave my phone in my pocket and continue walking. Just as crossed the street that leads to my house, I hear a horn beep behind me. I turn around and my heart flutters in my chest when I realize who it’s. It was Josh. I haven’t seen him in a while. It’s probably been like a month. We have texted a few times; we just never hung out since we’re so busy with school. I stop walking and make my way over to the window and Josh rolls it down.
“Hey stranger,” he joked.
“Hey. Long time no see,” I smiled.
“What are you doing walking home all by yourself?” he asked.
“Oh, I just need the exercise,”
Okay, I lied. I didn’t want to tell him that I’m having problems with my best friend and his bitchy “girlfriend” because it’s really none of his business.
“It’s cold out here and snowing. You must be cold,” Josh exclaimed.
“No, I’m fine,” I replied, lying again.
“Here, get in. I’ll take you home. You’ll get there much faster,”
I pretend to think for a moment. I don’t think I should get into a car with him because I really don’t know him but at the same time I want to because I’m cold and I want to go home before the snow starts to get worse. It’s getting a little heavy but not as bad.
“Alright,” I said.
He smiles, showing his straight white teeth. God I miss that smile, I literally almost forgot what it looked like. I get into the front seat and right away I begin to warm up in his nice car. Soon we were off and we immediately start talking. This is nothing like the recent car rides I had with Harry. After we caught up on things I gave him the directions to my house, which he followed. Once we got there, he parks the car in his driveway and turns off his car. What is he doing?
“Um…. why did you turn your car off?” I asked him.
“I hope if you don’t mind if I could stay a little bit,” he replied.
“Oh, I don’t know. My mom isn’t home and I’m not allowed to have boys over without her supervision,”
I scold at myself after I said that. I just made myself look like a total loser in front of senior. A hot senior boy. What is wrong with me?
“I’m sure she won’t mind. I won’t be long anyway,” he said.
“Okay. But just for a few minutes,” I said.
I unbuckle my seatbelt and get out of his car before going up the sidewalk that leads to my front door. I unlock the door to my house and then Josh and I walk inside. After taking off our coats and shoes, we go into the living room and sit on the couch.
“So…how’ve you been?” he asked me.
“Fine,” I smiled. “How about you?”
“Good. I missed your face. There’s barely any girls at my school who are just as beautiful as you,”
I blush after he said that. I heard those words a few times by a few boys but I never really blushed because I was able to tell that they didn’t mean it. But after hearing Josh tell me that, I can tell that he does. I may not know him a lot but I think I actually like him.
“No stop,” I giggled.
“I mean it,” he smiled. “Ever since I last saw you, I couldn’t stop thinking about you. I wanted to ask you out but I couldn’t find the time to,”
“Is this your way of asking me out?” I teased.
“Well…do you want to go out with me?” he asked.
I open my mouth and beginning to say yes but right away I start to think about Harry. The last time he saw me with Josh I was able to tell that he was jealous of him and I don’t want to see him like that again if I start to go out with Josh. And I also still have feelings for him but he has Kendall now and I have to get over him. Maybe dating Josh would help.
“Sure,” I finally replied.
“Okay. How about this Friday night at 7?” he suggested.
“I’m down,” I smirked.
“Cool. It’s a date,” he smirked back. “You don’t have a boyfriend…do you?”
I shake my head.
“Why no, I don’t,”
He nods and then pushes back a piece of my hair from my bun. Before I had the chance to react, he leans in and presses his lips to mine, making my heart flutter a little in my chest as I adjust to the taste of him. I admit, he’s such a great kisser but his kisses are nothing like Harry’s; soft, loving, and gentle. Josh’s kisses are soft but kind of rough. Suddenly, after a few minutes the kiss slowly begins to deepen and then without thinking, I lay down on the couch with him hovering over me.
“Hey, it’s Alaina! You know what to do,” went her voicemail…again.
I sigh with frustration and hang up my phone. Ever since school ended I’ve been trying to call Alaina because she literally ran out of the room and manage to leave the school without me. I managed to get Kendall away from me for once just so I can look for Alaina but I lied that I had to get home and help my mum out. She managed to believe me, which I’m surprised. She usually never believes me whenever I tell her why I have to do something without her. Instead of going home right after school I looked around the school for Alaina. I even asked Bailey, Lauren, Becky, and Niall if they seen her but they haven’t.
How did she leave the school so fast? I guess she took the bus and waiting for me at her house. She probably needed to cool down a little bit after I “ditched” her Kendall again, which I feel guilty about. Every time I was around Alaina, Kendall would literally find ways to get me away from her and it has been annoying me all day. I like Kendall a lot but she needs to start being nice to my best friend because I can’t be with someone that doesn’t appreciate Alaina. If Kendall keeps disrespecting her then I’m going to break up with her and I don’t care what anyone thinks.
Instead of calling Alaina again, I decide to drive home. My mum has her day off today so maybe I should spend time with her for once since it’s kind of been a while since I talked to her. She’s been busy with work and spending time with her boyfriend, who I haven’t met yet thankfully. Just as I pull into the driveway, I notice that Katie’s car is here too. Maybe Alaina came with her. I walk inside and I find my mum and Katie in the kitchen but I don’t see Alaina. Where could she be?
“Hi Mum,” I said.
“Oh, Harry. You’re home,” she said.
I nod and look over at Katie.
“Hello, Harry,” she smiled.
“Not to be rude or anything but what are you doing here?” I asked.
“The storm is starting to get worse and your mom invited Alaina and I to stay here until it blows over,” she said.
“Where is Alaina exactly?”
“I don’t know. I tried calling her but she hasn’t answered,” she replied. “She’s probably at home. You can go check if you want,”
I nod again and put my bag on the chair at the kitchen table. Just as I walk out the door I hear my mom telling me to be careful. Like I would get into an accident. I know the weather is bad but I’m a pretty good driver and know how to drive in this type of weather. When I got to Alaina’s house, I froze when I notice an unfamiliar car in the driveway. What the hell? I know it’s not her uncle because he drives a rusty pickup truck so I’m guessing it’s someone else. I turn off my car and without thinking I walk inside her house, looking around for her.
Just as I walked into the living room, I feel my heart break into two when I see her laying down on the couch with no shirt on and that fucking Josh guy hovered over her as he kisses down her neck, shirtless as well. What. the. fuck? That should be me kissing her like that not him! And besides, what is he even doing here? I feel my hands clench into fists at my sides. I hate this guy but I’m really starting to hate him even more now because he’s literally about to go down on my best friend, the girl I love.
“Alaina!” I manage to say.
They immediately stop kissing and Alaina sits up, her eyes widening with embarrassment and guilt when she see’s me standing there in the corner as Josh stares at me with pure hatred.