'But I see you with him, slow dancing tearing me apart 'cause you don't see. Whenever you kiss him I'm breaking, oh how I wish that was me.' I Wish by, One Direction
“Alaina!” I call as she walks away angrily from me.
What the hell just happened? Did I seriously just lose my best friend? My best friend since I was born? All because I blew her off to be with Kendall and didn’t check up on her until later. But now just thinking about it, I begin to realize that I actually did hurt her feelings for doing that. God, now I feel like a shitty best friend. This is the first time I actually did something that hurt her inside. I can’t believe I actually did this. I should have checked up on her right away instead staying with Kendall. When my mum told me that Alaina was in the hospital I got really worried because I thought her uncle came back and hurt her or something but when Katie told me that she almost got hit by a car and was okay, I kind of stopped worrying and felt like there was no need to check up on her. Even though she was okay I still regret for not texting her right away instead of hours later.
I’m such a good best friend. Not. Suddenly, the warning bell goes off again meaning that there’s 10 minutes left until first period starts. I sigh. Maybe I should just go to class and try to talk with Alaina later but at the same time I just want to go find her and apologize. She probably hates my guts right now since I’m such a terrible best friend but I still hope she would listen to me and accept my apology. I also hope I didn’t lead her on to anything we did, I mean I think I did, because we obviously kissed and we almost had sex so I believe she actually has feelings for me like I do for her. But right now, I don’t think she likes me at all, which I understand. The warning bell goes off again. Great, 5 minutes until first period. I would skip but I would probably get in trouble with the school and my mother so skipping class wouldn’t be a good idea. But if Alaina is skipping class then I should too.
“Hey Harry!” went a voice.
I turn my head and I find Bailey and Lauren come walking over to me.
“Hey. Have you two seen Alaina?” I asked.
“Last time we saw her…. she was in the bathroom but she’s probably in her first period class now,” Lauren said.
“Alright. Thanks,” I smiled.
“No problem. See you in French,” Lauren replied with a smile and walks away with Bailey.
I sigh again. I need to find Alaina. I don’t want to stress over this all day so I guess I should just go and find her myself. There may be 5 minutes left until first period starts but I still want to talk to her. The hallway is starting to clear out a little except there are a few freshman girls making out with their senior boyfriends. I slightly make a disgusted face. You’re only going to class. It’s not like you’re going to see each other in 10 years. Some teen couples are crazy. Thankfully I wasn’t like that with the girlfriends I had in the past. I fix my backpack on my shoulder and quickly start making my way down the hallways looking for Alaina.
I even check her first period class but she is nowhere to be found. Where could she be? I know she didn’t go home because she didn’t drive herself here so maybe she’s still in the bathroom. Since I can’t go in the girl’s room, I take out my phone and decide to call her. It rings until it went to her voicemail so instead of leaving her a message I hang up and continue walking. There’s only 4 minutes until classes start now so if I don’t find her soon I’m going to find her later and talk to her. As I continue to look for her, I begin to think about what to say to her once I find her. I don’t want her to think I’m making up excuses so she could forgive me.
When I thought of what to say, I finally find her outside of the school in the parking lot talking to some guy. What the hell? Suddenly, I begin to feel jealous. This is probably how she feels whenever I’m with Kendall. Who is that guy and why is he here? I’ve never seen him around before so I know for sure that he doesn’t even go to this school. This school is pretty big and has a lot students but I still know who goes here and who doesn’t. I take one more look at him and my mouth drops. Now I know who that guy is.
It’s Josh Evans from that rich ass all boys private school across town. I played against him in soccer last year and I remember he cheated to make his school win. I also remember seeing him at one of the school parties that he crashed with a few of his friends and they were trying to drug cute girls drinks so they can have sex with them. I may not know him personally but he’s not a good guy, especially for a girl like Alaina, so I don’t know why she’s talking to him. I just want to go out there and beat the shit out of him but I don’t want to get in trouble so I manage to calm myself down and decide to go out there.
Since it’s drizzling a little bit outside, I put the hood of my sweatshirt up and start making my way outside. I had to be careful while going out because the secretaries in the front office are able to see out front since there’s windows in there. I manage to get outside without getting caught and make my way over to where Alaina and Josh are. I feel my hands turn into fists when I notice her touching his hair, pushing it back away from his eyes, while he’s standing there smiling. She should be touching me not this douche. I’ve never gotten jealous over another guy talking to Alaina until now so it’s weird I’m feeling like this all of a sudden. I can really tell that she likes him and he likes her too and it’s making me so mad. I thought she had feelings for me! Well I guess after what happened yesterday, she’s probably gotten over me already. If she did I will be crushed.
“Alaina!” I said.
They stop laughing and she looks over at me, frowning.
“What do you want Harry?” she asked all annoyed.
“Can I… can I talk to you for a minute?”
She sighs and rolls her eyes.
“Yeah but can we talk later?”
“No, I want to talk now,” I exclaimed.
Okay, I sound like a jealous stuck up boyfriend right now and I have to admit I don’t like the way I’m acting. I never acted like this around her.
“I’m sorry am I interrupting something?” Josh asked.
“Yes!” I replied sharply before Alaina could.
“Whoa! Sorry. Take a chill pill dude,” he frowned with his hands up in defense.
“Why don’t you get the hell out of here and go to your school,”
He laughs and shakes his head.
“Sorry to disappoint you but Van Atta, the school that I go to, is off today so I guess I’m going to keep talking to your beautiful girlfriend of yours if you don’t mind,”
Did he just call Alaina my girlfriend? God, I wish she were mine but sadly she isn’t. If she were, I probably would of beaten the shit out of him after he said that. No guy can call Alaina beautiful but me! That may sound harsh but it’s true.
“For your information, she’s not my girlfriend. She’s my best friend and if you don’t get out of here, I’ll tell the principal for loitering on our school property,” I said.
“Go ahead tattletale, like they would actually care,”
I frown. Man this guy is such an ass. I notice Alaina is getting really embarrassed because her cheeks are getting a little red and she’s looking at me like she wants to kill me.
“You know what, I’m out of here. Nice talking to you Alaina and tell your faggot best friend to chill,” Josh said and gets into his black Lamborghini before driving away.
Right as he pulled out of the parking lot, I gave him the finger and I look over at Alaina. She looks more pissed than ever before. I have to admit I was being an ass and I did embarrass her but I couldn’t help it. That guy is an ass and she doesn’t deserve a guy like him.
“Harry! What the hell? I was actually having a nice conversation with him but you had to come out here and embarrass me!” she exclaimed.
“Alaina, do know who that guy is?” I asked.
“Yeah that’s Josh from Van Atta, the private school. Why? He’s nice,” she replied.
“Nice? He’s not nice. He’s a fucking asshole,”
“What do you mean?” she asked, frowning with confusion.
I want to tell her about all the awful things he did but there are so many things he did that it would be too much to tell.
“He’s just not a good guy,” I said.
Alaina laughs and shakes her head before rolling her eyes.
“You’re just jealous of him, Harry,”
“No I’m not jealous of him. I’m being serious. Trust me Alaina, he’s not a good guy,” I exclaimed.
“Well I don’t believe you,” she said.
“Fine. But I’m warning you though, be careful,” I warned.
She sighs again and shakes her head.
Suddenly we hear the bell ring inside the school. First period has started. Great. I guess we have to skip the rest of the period and wait until second. Alaina fixes her beanie at the top of her head and before fixing her backpack on her shoulder.
“Well…bye,” she said and begins to walk away.
“Alaina, wait!” I said.
She stops and turns around to look at me.
“Please…. can we talk?” I asked.
“Harry. I don’t want to hear it. I get it. You care about Kendall more than me. Now just leave alone,”
She turns around and begins to walk away again but I gently grab her wrist, turning her around to face me. How could she think that I care more about Kendall than her? She’s my best friend and I love her. I always did. I could never replace Alaina with another girl that I don’t really care about.
“Lainey, please. Just listen to me, please,” I plead.
She sighs again. I can’t believe I’m about to lose my best friend and it’s making my heart hurt.
“10 minutes,” she replied.
I nod and let go of her wrist.
“Let’s go inside. It’s getting cold,” I said.
She agrees and then I open the door letting her inside. We make sure that none of the secretaries are looking because then we could get in trouble for skipping class. We manage to get past without any trouble and then I lead her down the hall. I’m taking her to our hide out since it wouldn’t be a good idea to talk to her in the hallways while classes are going on. Our “hide out” is in the teachers lounge. Students are not allowed to go in there but since there’s a security code, someone figured it out and it passed on in the school. Kids go in there to make out, have sex, or just go in there to steal some free snacks and hang out. None of the teachers know about it since there are no security cameras around in that hallway and they only go in there when classes are in session.
“Anyone coming?” I whispered to Alaina.
She looks up and down the hallway making sure no teachers or custodians are coming our way.
“No we’re good,”
I nod and begin putting in the code to get inside. I hear the lock unlock and then I slowly open the door, stepping inside with Alaina behind me. I take her over to the couch that is away from the window and she sits down next to me.
“Okay. What do you need to tell me?” she asked.
I take her hands and look at her in her beautiful brown eyes.
“Alaina. I don’t know how many times I’m going to say this but I’m sorry. Really I am,” I exclaimed.
She nods and tells me to go on.
“I shouldn’t have blown you off like that. I wasn’t thinking when Kendall pulled me out the door and out to my car. I didn’t even realize that I forgotten about you until you texted me, saying that you’re outside in the parking lot in the rain. I immediately felt guilty and I wanted to leave but the movie started and I didn’t want to leave Kendall by herself since her mother wasn’t home,” I continued. “When I found out you were in the hospital, I got really worried. I thought your uncle broke into your house and hurt you but when your Mom told me that you were okay I stopped worrying. That’s why I checked up on you later because I wanted to make sure,”
“You still could have called or maybe came to the hospital,” she said.
I sigh and give her a sad smile.
“Yeah I should have. I’m probably the worst best friend you’ve ever had right now,”
“Don’t say that, Harry. You’re not a terrible best friend,” Alaina said, looking at me with her eyes full of sorrow. “You made a mistake. Yeah it was stupid but I’ll get over it,”
“But I hurt your feelings and I almost got you hurt. Like…just thinking about you getting hurt kills me. Seeing you in pain from your uncle was enough and I don’t think I could handle seeing you hurt again,” I said.
“I know. But I didn’t get hurt and I’m fine. My uncle is gone and he’s never going to hurt me again either,” she said.
I nod agreeing with her. I know I shouldn’t be worried but she’s my best friend and I tend to worry about her getting hurt. If something happened to her again I don’t think I would be able to take it very well. Seeing her in pain kills me. Whenever she’s not feeling herself, I would do anything to make her feel better because I care about her and she’s my best friend and I like seeing her happy.
“Alaina…. you know I care about you right?” I asked her.
“I do. But I don’t think I’m ready to forgive you just yet,”
I sigh. I hate how she’s doing this to me.
“What can I do to make it up to you then?” I asked.
“I could take you out after school. We could go out for pizza or something. My treat,” I suggested.
Finally, she smiles. God, I love it when she does smiles. It always makes my heart accelerate like a million.
“I’d like that,”
“Okay,” I smile back.
I notice her cheeks start to turn pink a little. She looks so cute when she blushes, every thing she does is cute. I push back a piece of her hair, that is beginning to get curly since it got a little wet outside from the rain, and put my hand on her cheek, lightly rubbing my thumb on it. She’s so beautiful. I love her so much. Without hesitating, she closes her eyes and slowly leans into kiss me and I follow her lead.
Before our lips touched, the bell rings, meaning it’s the end of first period. I softly groan with frustration and we move back. Great. I thought I was going to kiss her again. It feels like forever since I last kissed her. It was something I always wanted to do ever since I first developed a crush on her. Alaina and I get up from the couch and go over to the side of the door, peeking out the window making sure there are no teachers coming near the lounge. When the coast was clear, we walk out and I put the code back in to lock the door again so no one knows anyone was in the there. We’re such bad kids.
“I guess I’ll see you in Algebra?” she asked.
“Yeah. And then we can walk to English and lunch together if you like,” I said.
“I would like that,” she smiled.
“Okay. See you later, weirdo,” I joked.
She lets out a fake gasp, pretending to be offended, and lightly nudges me in the arm.
“Right back at ya, you dork,”
“That’s it come here!”
“Harry don’t you-“
Before she was able to get away, I pull her into me and give her a noogie, knocking her beanie off her head. She laughs and I bet people around us are staring but I don’t care. When I finished, I run away from her so she doesn’t do anything to me. I turn around and I find her standing there in the middle of the hallway with a big smile on her face, something I haven’t seen in a while.
“Harry!” she laughed.
“Byyyyeeee!” I smiled and rush to my class.
Just as I got into my class, I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket. I smirk, knowing it’s from Alaina telling me that she’s going to get “revenge”, and I take it out.
Okay. You asked for it Styles. I’m going to get you back later ;)
I laugh and begin texting her back.
LOL! Good luck ;)
I send the message and put my phone back in my pocket. It’s been a while since we joked around like that. I have to admit I actually missed her comedic personality. I’m glad the old Alaina is slowly coming back. I hope after our pizza “date”, everything goes back to normal again.