5. Chapter Five
TRIGGER WARNING:SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS
I told my math teacher that I was ill so i could go back to my dorm room,In reality It was to go cut.I was walking past Luke's room when I heard moaning,like sexual moaning I put my head around the door to see him and Michael making out on the sofa.I felt a tear run down my cheek.At that moment Luke looked up and called after me "Ash!ASH!"
I walked into my apartment and shut the bathroom door.I got my razor blade and sat down on the floor.I pulled up my shirt and cut my stomach and wrists again,I just wanted the pain to stop.The one thing that made me think My life was worth living is with another man.
What is the point in living anymore.
I stood up and looked in the mirror,I was a mess why would anyone love me? I suddenly felt really dizzy and fell to the ground just as I saw Luke's beautiful face begin to fade...